today i intentionally decided to do maths so that i wun waste my whole day like yesterday. I got motivation to even buy myself lunch- kuay tiao soup and my fav soya bean drink!

But as u see, i do have problem leaving the comp.haha

i gotta work later in the evening. Kinda sian.But got to remind myself abt the $$ i be getting. so cannot really complain.SOmemore it only 2 hr plus job.

Just now i went to my ibanking and got a shock of my life..100 bucks gone cos of my phone bill.sad!

But if i allow myself to spend 10 buck a day will be enough to last me till pay day i guess.

Sigh the life of a poor student!=(

I seriously got to kick my lazy habit.sometimes i think alot like how terribly hard de exams going to be.

But there one thing i know now..I WANT TO GRADUATE! I WANT TO WEAR TAT HAT!

So i rather study like shit den to regret i neva study enough.

I.m going to sleep early so tat i can study tmr. Night!

Dear blogger,

I dunno why but times are bad. To make it worst, the 7th month just begun.No link i know.

Somehow i wish for alot of things but it not gonna happen cos tis is reality. SOmetimes all the shit just happen, like now!

I feel helpless cos i dun seem to be able to do much for u at all.Probably except to cut down on doing, buying and eating anything that is related to "EXPENSIVE"?

I wasted my wed and thurs again! My own fault. Spend my whole time sleeping wif baby today.Den when i finally get down to practice my math questions.Boy, was it hard.Though toad say i need more practice and should stop copying the wrong questions and making stupid careless mistake!

Toad is damn smart i tell u, she never touch maths for so long yet she can find all the answer!* bow down to her* But mayb cos of that i feel demoralised.I dunno, i got too high expectation of myself i guess, so when i find that i cant understand shit, i start to panic.Honestly my stress level is almost as high as those times when im abt to sit for exam..

I got to chill man.=x

Went to call baby and complain. Got a big reality check by baby. Thanks baby!

I shouldnt zi bao zi qi, in fact i should be strong so that i can help baby too!!
Though im still clueless but im gonna go sleep, start tmr anew, eat my lunch as promised to baby, go for class and den revise , revise, revise.

Baby im sorry. Just feel like hugging u when u told me all this. I dunno why i feel like a little ger at times when im wif u.=?

Hope to see you soon.

I hope if god read this, he would answer my prayers. Keep all the bad things from coming anymore. Baby is a good man, so i really cant understand why good pple deserve all this shit luck! SO if GOD YOU READ THIS, PLEASE HELP BABY TO BE STRONG!

I'll be keeping baby in my prayers every nite.

* This post has been edited on the 21/8/09

Actually it quite troublesome using tis N95 to blog..probably if it iphone or blackberry it would have been better..

Baby is dying of curiosity,he tryin to get me to bed but i.m stuck at de chair typin away..lolz

So i gotta finish doing tis post before he finishes all de fb games.

My eyelid is feelin heavy now and i do need to be in bed asap.but i got tis sudden urge to post my camwhorin pics up here..lolz

Cos baby took away de labby thus it gonna be hard transfering my pics to the comp liao.hopefully he'll bring it back on the weekend..

Alright i.m really shacked.and before baby patience run out..here are de pics in non runnin order..tsk tsk mafan to arrange in order liao.:)

Venue: kovan-some porriage place, home!




While waiting for my food!



Baby side profile is so cute!



Trying to cam whore but obviously looks too tired!




Me and my love.

As you can guess baby sleepin wif me tonight..wee~

Oyasumi!^_^

I say i need some planning, at least get 6 hrs of study a day. I have been tired. I noe my schedule kinda screw up. I still dunno how i should handle it.Haiz

Hope baby get the new job soon. Praying hard for him too!!

Im typping this cos im feeling dishearten abt my studies. I open the study guide and seriously understand nuts. HOW!!!!??!!

I guess i need nth more den just just drilling those principles, rules or concepts into my head.

It just the first month but 2 weeks have flew past..Im scared cos time fly faster than you think.
And wif my pt job coming next month, i need better coping strategies..

I pray i can pass all the modules!

GAMBATTE!!

August marks the month 2 yrs back when i was freed from my love disaster when pork came in a shinning armour and gave me that kiss which charm me for life..:)

Baby, what can i say? This 2 years have seen alot of quarrels and happy times.
I have learnt and still trying sometimes to learn how to make u stop frowning too much.Though i think im still as stuborn as u sometimes and getting a little more spoilt now..I know you do love me very deep in your heart.I dun think i ever knew anyone who loves me the way you do..And probably bcos of that, none could stay wif me.

I hope you know that recently watever that happened, i din chose to stay cos of pity.I just really want to be ther for you, help you up when u fall and do watever i can to keep you smiling like what u have always done for me.I feel strong in this r/s and never have to doubt that things might go wrong.And that security you gave me is important to me.

I hope that til the day we find a house and move out to live together, things will stay peaceful.I LOVE YOU BABY.Lets continue to try to understand each other okays?







For now let us remember the good and forget the bad times.;)












Love ma pork!

Baby got me the stitch couple which i have been eyeing a long time at the amk arcade. Baby so talented..lolz
Gonna treasure THEM!

Our symbol of love this yr! *luv*

Hee lazy to upload all the pics..check them out at fb.

Have to go sleep liao.Nitez

Sigh so much things happen within this 2 days. I dunno if i should be sad, happy or relieved..?

It all happen cos of ME ME ME!

Cos of my stuuupid bad moood swing, we had a fight in the morning and i fcuk the pbf lect halfway though i kinda like the female lecturer..Sigh.

Cab home, pop 2 panadol and curdle in bed for a nap.

Cold war til i couldnt stand it anymore.Msg....wait no reply..Call..he pick up and i was still feeling sour abt everything.He say he want to come down..Okay 10 30 meet.

I idle til 1010 cos mum decides to be nice and gave up the comp to me.Call him to leave at 1030 instead and i quickly went to bath. 4 missed calls!

Call him back, the environment was DEAD Slient. His voice so soft and solemn.Something is wrong..He says wait he will be coming. I idle ard fb and decide to slowly make my way down. Play puzzle bubble and even walk up to the 3rd blk so that i can surprise him when he make a turn..No sight. Call him, he stills at home!!!

Went home, switch on the comp and back to fb..Til he finally call and ask me to open the door. He passed me my bag of dirty clothes.I switch off everything and went out of the door. He pop me 2 option.

I was seriously dead scare of wat he was going to say.Back in my mind while i was waiting i keep asking myself wat if he wants to break up..?

We sat at the void deck and talked it out. It was the second time i see him cry. And i cant help but cry too. I could sense the little tired boy in him.I was suppose to be jumpng mad that ur bro took my helmet like tat but i was surprise i din have much of a reaction..I cant bear to cos he is ur brother. I dunno wat to say abt ur mother. Yes she totally dislikes me and she hates me like i dun really noe why?

But i cant blame her can i? She has her reason but she has hurt you. That the matter of concern, i just dislike her for not caring for you just as much as u have care for her? In fact i dun even noe if she love you.Maybe she did but she just hates me.

I dunno anything, i just noe i want to be there for you from the moment i say i will stick by you. No matter how hard it is, we will face tru all this..

We will face the longer distance, the time difference and my damn studies and part time job. I hope i can stay strong for u. But at moment like this i dunno why my heart aches so much for u.Even before u left my house.

I wish i can hold u and sleep in ur arms. Maybe that the reason why im not sleeping yet.Though im really tired. Din manage to sleep much the whole nite.

Im happy that we had Ray's help or it would have been almost impossible to make it.Im happy we fixed up ur desktop on Jess table.Im happy we did clearing together..Im happy you're by my side today and you going to be wif me tmr too.:D

Im going out of my house soon hoping i can catch the meteor shower and im going to try making a wish..hopefully it will come true.=)

clouds clear for a moment at 2 please!