i'm glad i finally got my diary signed..haha thanks to this particular staff nurse..i was almost worried she would reject.yeah, actually she did, but i guess i got my way of persuading her.lolx

yeah, dear spend time wif wengda today..he is damn playful man..lolx.
oh well, actually my dear ger wanted to be more hardworking today..but all thanks to tat stupid ssn..she got piss and went away.haiz.i was so lonely..but cos today din really have much to do..so yeah, sometime join my dear ger at the play area..had lots of fun as usual today..hmm..2 more days and i be missing my dear and all the times we stick tru thick and thin...whaaha.=x

yeah sch is starting..dunno if i should be happy anot..but oh well, i need new clothes esp tshirts for the new sem..and yeah my converse shoe..=x

I'm in too deep and I'm trying to keep up above in my head instead of going under..=/
*i miss you alot.

yeah, its been morning shift this 2 days..tml too..hmm dunno y when it comes to tat, i get really sleepy and tired..

Hmm, yesterday me and dear got into a slight trouble..arrggh i hate pple who just loves to c/o..
seriously cant u wait..argghh..nvm.freaks.
left really early but felt bad cos dear still have to wait for her friend..
yup, met my kor yesterday...yeah, hope to know u and understand u one day..*muackz* love ya always..=)

yeah slept quite late tat explain for my lack of energy today...hmm, very boring today..seriously attachment suck..yeah, got a craving for scramble egg cos been watching those kids eat it til my mouth itch for it too..lolx.dear ate ban mian again..-.-
yeah den later dear keep spending time at bed 25 so i got to be on my own..but its ok i guess..slept for quite long..came home and slept again..haha, i still feel tired..maybe today for once i turn in early.

yup..life is ok i guess.suddenly no mood to blog..nothing interesting to write..=x

i dunno why for a while the past keeps coming back.
yeah, daddy finally gave me the disk to get back my stuff but unfortunately it all been deleted.i cant tell u how sad m i.. ;(
Then saw this folder and found many pictures i took wif my camera in the past.saw yours and mine pictures..yeah, we looked so young den..so young where the time we were so deeply in love wif each other.haha..but i miss u though.=x
how r u? how have you been?din u miss me?=/

oh anyway lets get back to what happen today.lets hmm see, woke up early to meet Qin for a swim..yeah, den accompany her for lunch at north canteen at skool.met Ojc..
Went k box instead of ice skating..haha sorry eh..
yeah, we got the the very big room wif the 3 tv screen..yeah.it was like so cool la.
hmm, it was fun singing wif u..at least we could be crazy wif our voices.
yeah, so after this, went heeren bum ard, found my alot like love soundtrack but forgot to buy it somehow..then i got this certain idea to dye my hair..wanted to go taka watson but saw something interesting on the way..It was tat same drum band again..the same one i watch wif lena..haha and guess wat i saw tat cute guy AGAIN.counting 3 times i saw u in town..haha.
yeah, so we stayed to watch..i dunno if u were going to be bored..but yeah sorry..i am a selfish ger..

yeah, finally went watson and after much arguing and discussion i decide to get medium auburn brown color.God knows wat it will turn how to be man..haha, try later den tell u..=D
I am soo tired..gonna slp..hee

P.S: thanks for sending me to the bus stop.

ahh, after this i going to K.O

okie, time passes slow..was a long night but come to think of it..it was fun.
yeah, done alot of feeding today, para also and yeah..for the first time i carry a 2 yr old kid man..
But she so nice to carry..whahah.

I drank coffee and yeah now feeling so uneasy..feel like dying.
i'm hungry too=x

later maybe going out wif shawn.hmm, but i dun really feel like going out actually..
just feel like staying at home and slack..see how la..yup.

Life can sometimes get so boring.haiz, but i should be glad i got company..its just so rare at certain part of life..oh well, i treasure those who tries to cheer me up..
those who loves me, those who care..
i still love my dearie shuqiang whahah, dun always get into trouble ger, hope today be betta.
yeah and my 2 gfs, wonder how they r and all.Hopefully their life much more exciting den mine.

orite i miss Kusu island..stupid ban kok when u bringing me ter again?
i miss freedom..aint i having one now?dunno..., mayb yes mayb no.haiz.
oh well, life is too short..so y keep sighin..=x

Haven't we met
You're some kind of beautiful stranger
You could be good for me
I have a taste for danger
If I'm smart then
I'll run away
But I'm not so I guess I'll stay
Heaven forbid
I take my chance on a beautiful stranger

I looked into your eyes
And my world came tumbling down
You're the devil in disguise
That's why I'm singing this song
To know you is to love you
You're everywhere I go
And everybody knows
To love you is to be part of you

I pay for you with tears
And swallow all my pride

My beautiful stranger.=D

i feel fine and i feel gd, i feel like i never should.
tats just bcos i had my sleep..
nite shift suck man.it boring, lonely and tiring.><
Its parameters all the way and plus some feeding and yeah stopping those babies or children cryin..
I still got another one more of that kind of shift to go man.oh god, bless me.

oh gosh, i realise i gotten over u really fast man, but tats bcos u aint worth crying over..=D

i still trying to get use to being single and not sway at all.
i am doing fine i guess.

dream dream dream..hello ter, the angel from my dream.

hmm, thanks to a beautiful stranger, yup i am much much betta.

=/

i realise that everything isnt always wat it seem anyway.oh well, thanks to ping.Its just afterall my stupidity, i bought it all on myself..but look, i'm glad i'm rid of u..oh yeah shouldn't be brooding over it anymore.

hah, i just woke up like abt 2 plus.Night shift today man, i hafta get enough slp.seriously its no fun without shuqiang..but wif her i wun really be doing anything at all also..so yeah la..sianness!!
Oh well, it be fun.i hope.lolx.

I'll spread my wings and
I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish,
take a chance,
make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

yup, its back to attachment.this time i heard ms chee will take over..rumours had it that she stricter and everything.but seriously i dun fear her..i'm not scared.just worried i be bored for a while.

my weekends are gone, just for the first time, it was the most boring weekend i eva had.
yeah din really go out and all.mummy and daddy should be happy yeah.hah.
yesterday went out wif shawn to church.went to pray and everything..actually suppose to go for mass but the truth is tat i'm tired..dunno why sia.Lena came to meet us abt 6 plus.went mac and got myself a mac wing meal.shawn went for his father's day dinner and sent us on cab to lena's.
went her house, transfer pics and songs.

yeah, and we walked to his house.slack around and watch the innocent's witch (mo ni de tiao xian). dear call and yeah had a misunderstanding..but i hope it be cleared soon.

reach home abt 12 plus.went online to type my letta..yup, than went to sleep at abt 2.woke up like 10 but still tired.seriously i dun think i have been sleeping well..but the prob is i'm not depressed or bothered by anything when slping so i guess all this while i am just having non-rem slp..arggh..gotta get some coffee later.

tata
hope your day would be fine just as my day would be..=)

Remember the feelings
Remember the day
My stone heart was breaking
My love ran away
This moment I knew I would be someone else
My love turned around and i fell

Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my weekend lover but dont be my friend
You can be my bad boy
but understand
That I dont need you in my life again

Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my weekend lover but dont be my friend
You can be my bad boy but understand
That I dont need you again
No I dont need you again

bad boy!

You once made this promise to stay by my side
But after some time you just pushed me aside
You never thought that a girl could be strong
Now I'll show you how to go on

Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my weekend lover but dont be my friend
You can be my bad boy but understand
That I dont need you in my life again

You can be my bad boy, be my man
Be my weekend lover but dont be my friend
You can be my bad boy but understand
That i dont need you again
No i dont need you again...


yup i dun need u again..

i going to jog..hahah..so long neva exercise..feeling lazy..
later going meet dear.wonder how morris going to come..
1 more day..yup..the key to moi freedom..LOLZ

okiee.i did and i did really love u.believe it anot..up to u la..yeap..
everything has a reason..and the reason is u..on the irony..
i talking to this really long time no see friend on msn..
really nice guy and mature too..

feeling tired..damn tired..

haha..okie.maybe after this i going to hit the pillow and anticipate for tml..which is....i dunno
seriously no plan..haha..alrte, maybe another day at home which my parent will be so happy to see me ard.

Sianness..

hmm today was alrite..was just as ridiculous also.yeah, some ass wanted to audition for the loudest voice or something, seriously i'm no deaf person..if u wanna me leave, sure..simple courtesy will do..and anyway u dun have to even tell me to leave..cos i was alrdy packing my stuff..i am not tat Blind like u, for i can see tat ter r pple who needs the table and chair..

i simply love the Judge..good old judge..hahah..i am laughing all my guts out la..
okie..seriously get ur facts right first like i say...?
haha, i knew a serious confrontation will come and ter it came today..
But yeah, u all got wat u all want..guess u all r kind of satisfy in a way or another..if not tats too bad..I'm okie wif everything.ter isn't any dissatisfication..i'm fine wif the new rules.

hah, anyway, time pass faster when u r much busier..lots of admission today..yup.
but i lost my beautiful cute pen..oh well..

I am suffering from abd discomfort..just couldn't fig wat wrong..

Its all so Yesterday!
i'm counting down to 2 more days.
Seriously, wat should i do..?=x

i feel happier, freeier..and more self satisfied..

tata
i going to zzzZZ

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna say what you didn't see
Well, I just need a little space to breathe
I don't understand
Why would you wanna bring me down
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is..

sick pple...say all u want..bitch til its satisfy u..

nothing feels right.

yeah it happening again.

everything came crashing down on me at the same time..

just not my day.

i am just gonna wash up and go sleep and forget tat yesterday did exist.

i'm dead tired anyway so yeah..

still i thank God i survive!

yup, iceskating was okie..haha fall down a number of 5 times..Ouch..

luckily no bruise at my bum..haha..
Met darling's another friend call Kelvin..yeah nice and friendly guy..
haha, they all not bad still can skate..except me..haha..
We skate til 7..and den we had dinner at s11..

yup..ter goes the end of my first weekend..tml is attachment attachment..sianzness..

but yeah i'm tired..so tired..wanna go and slp and not think of anything else but YOU..=\

wanted to blog last nite but connection suck so yeah.

lets see, i slept really early the nite before and woke up at abt 4..reply some sms and try to get back to sleep..yeah and went out to meet dar-ling at abt 11 plus..
we went to his house and waited for him to bathe and changed and we make our way to marina to meet his friend raymond and his gf ruby..

yeah, reallly friendly couple..went to buy movie tickets and we eat at long john..stupid darling was making lame jokes abt everything la..
yeah, din really like long john so he bought me hotdog wif the bread..
We watched Mr and Mrs Smith..really gd show but i find it rather amusing like how they fight compare to the normal ordinary fights normal couples have..

after movie end, we went suntec..R & R went shopping at foxy..while we just bum ard..and met his mom by accident..yeah so in the end we follow the mum to eat at this thai outlet..
yup, den back to his house and slack and play comp..Lena wanted to come so we fetch her at newton mrt..and den it was her turn to hog the comp..so i started singing karaoke wif his mike..haha..yup, den lastly it was supper wif Jessie..yeah she lost her way so yeah he went to fetch her..

share a cab home wif Lena..yup jess still owe me cab fare..lolz


before i end ..like to say something:

ShuYan: It doesn't matter i guess..maybe it just me dreaming all this while tat we could last as Gd friends.but like i say..is okie..i got nothing to lose..

Shu ping: sometime i feel u should learn to control ur temper...I am not ur enemy..i would want to avoid making one if i could..i dunno why u want to use terr against me..when i neva did offend u in my entire life..we hardly knew each other when u took him away too.though i still cant fig out why, i guess tats life. but i know tat much as i want to blame everything on u and etc...u really helped me..it something i would call a blessing in disguise..thanks a million..really!
You take care yeah. Hope everything tat happens help u to learn and grow up too.

P.S: den again, it doesn't matter if they dun see this..Just tat i dun wanna make enemies when i am leaving both of their life even as friend..

yeah so i'm off to ice skate..hope everything will go smoothly.yup yup.=D

Its friday and i'm slacking=)

i love vtp the most, very slacking..but today i was slighty more hardworkin..
got posted to ward 65 at abt 9..was sad at first abt the separaton and grumbling 'why me'..
but hey, it isn't tat bad afterall, i learnt pretty alot..yeah, ter are few objectives i still wish to achieve even though i been slacking ALOT..lolz

my patient, Isabelle and Issac got discharge yesterday and today is a new baby abt few months old and a kid abt 7 yr old?
The baby was so cute la, got attracted to him and kept carrying him at first..even when i came back from my wonderful time at wd65..i went to look for him..

But i saw something shocking, he was lying down in the cot wif the bottle of milk stuck in his mouth,and apparently, he has been sucking air for quite sometime and the few amt of residue milk couldn't reach his mouth..so i took him out and started carrying him wif the intention to blurp him, den when i thought his mother arrive i put him down, so i tot she might want carry him..but while i was trying to shift him in a comfortable position..and he splurt everything out, everything came out like fountain and of cos it shocked me..first thing in my mind was "omg, my uniform"..natural reaction was to push him down on the bed..okie push is a strong word..more like hurrily put him down..den the whole vomitus splat out onto his face..okie tat was a very bad move..i quickly sit him up and started cleaning his face..i keep wondering if i did hurt him or will he be unable to breathe wif all that vomit on his face..He really gd, din cry at all..so i love him soo much la..guai baby..yeah so change him and his dirty bed, was carrying him when his actual mom came..told her everything and gave her back her child.but i so loving him, hope he okie..cos he such a lovely child...GoD bless him..

yeah, and i tried leaving early when stupid lecturer mention my name and shafig thought she want see me..and i ran all the away from traffic light back to the hosp..stupid man..
Shuqiang was laughing her guts out la..in the end lecturer got stm and even ask me back why she will want see me..it like wth..

yup..met darling and we had coconut .darling a little bit out of the mind today ah..lolz
crazy baby, i be seeing u tomolo..;)

haha..been too busy to blog..
been tan since i came back from kusu..but some say i look the same..oh well
anyway everyday since i start attachment have been travelling to my fren house or accompany dear for a short while in the morning, been broke and all..
wanting to save bus fare, yeah so staying at moi fren house which is just two stops down or up from kkh?

kkh is very complicating..
it quite diff wif the normal routine at the general ward..
alomst 90% of the class is posted ter..
Gianna was ter too.heard tat lilin got stuck in china..
saw Lokmaya and Lilin room mate today..

yeah, got my fun mate, shu qiang..
same room wif her and Siti..
and it really quite boring, the only thing tat cheered me up was the cutness of the baby.
but they were really very pitiful, such a young age suffer so much.
Lookin at them makes me think of what my mom told me..say i use to suffer from febrile fits when i was young..and was a frequent visitor in kkh..

been slacking but hey i did my para..
tried to do something more for my patients though..
I'm in charge of a bro and sister..Issac and Isabelle.
Issac is soo cute..but he suffer soo soo much..and Isabelle cries all the time..
the lect in charge of us has stm but i'm fine wif her..

Thanks to my nice faithful friend tat send me to and from work..I soo loving him..opps..

maybe going eat supper and enjoy a ride again..i neva knew it so nice to be cycled ard..=D

sorry mummy.
i neva meant to hurt u..
will promise to try to be a betta ger..

today is attachment..wonder how it gonna be man...=x

rahhh`

fuck everything//

but kusu island was nice, sweet and wonderful..
i love the island life ter..
yepp, sweet memories tat i will keep=)

guess wat.i pissed mr morrison off today.

oh to-Day was ok i guess.Ter was sakae buffet..which i kept eating chawamushi like abt 3 cups.
Was really tired i dunno y.haha, but get to buy some lingerie too =D!

alrite i guess i shall turn in early.Joyce gonna get piss if i stay any longer.cos i'm using jess table.
and tml i'm off to kusu island..;)