There's times where I want something more
Someone more like me
There's times when this dress rehearsal
Seems incomplete
But, you see the colors in me like no one else
And behind your dark glasses you're...
You're something else
[Chorus:]You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lucky
Underneath it all
You're really lovely
You know some real bad tricks
And you need some discipline
But, lately you've been trying real hard
And giving me your best
And, you give me the most gorgeous sleep
That I've ever had
And when it's really bad
I guess it's not that bad
[Repeat Chorus]
So many moons that we have seen
Stumbling back next to me
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me betterBetter... better...
[Lady Saw:]You are my real Prince Charmin'
Like the heat from the fireYou were always burnin'
And each time you're around
My body keeps stalin'
For your touch
Your kisses and your sweet romancin'
There's an underside to you
That so many adore
Aside from your temper
Everything else secure
You're good for me, baby
Oh that, I'm sure
Over and over againI want more
[Gwen:]You've used up all your coupons
And all you've got left is me
And somehow I'm full of forgiveness
I guess it's meant to be
[Repeat Chorus]You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lovely
Underneath it all
And you're really lovely
~UnDernEaTh iT aLL~ No DouBt
F*** Mdm W***...
screw her man..she so damn freaking bias..oh wells wateva..it no big deal..
today manage to do a dressing under the supervision of CI..yeah, i guess i make a lot mistake..
Was almost late..Woke up at 6.20 den i took taxi..Sigh a 7.60 gone just like tat..
Den almost faint, my headache came..Yeah lack of food ah..
oh well i learn alot today so i guess my day was not wasted..
and before i forget...
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY"
love ya mum..Sorry for all the times i hurt you..I know you love me from the tears you shed..May you be blessed wif good health and may ya be happy..i promise i will live my life happily and not to make you worry..
Random Quotes:
DrEss Up Differently
Whether It Be An Adventurous Tie,
Coloured Underwear Or An Outrageous Outfit,
You Can Try Doing This To Add Some Thing Special To Your Day. =)
Just came back, hee it was great, the movie, "sisters" is not bad..7/10
haha, we did lots of crazy things like sitting at the stairs and running up a escalator which is going downward..
Yeah have lots fun..Love doing crazy stuffs that y i'm crazy..lol
hmm we went shopping trying to get a gift for my mom but couldn;t find anything really suitable so i bought her a cute doggy handphone holder..hopes she will like it..
tomolo is her b'dae..
yep she a LEO...
den i found something really interesting and nice..so i bought it..den he bought me something sweet..hhehe..and i promise that i will write every of the little msg in the begining of the day..
Thanks yeah...
okie nearly times out..gotta go catch some slp..Good nite
Quotes of the day:
GiVe SoMe one tHe gifT of a HuG
It's Just What Is Needed In a Time Of Sorrow
Or a Time of Joy-
It Says "I Care" "You Make Me Happy"
And it Also Says "I Love You"
In a Quick and Simple Way.
YAWN**
So tired sia..Hehe..i think today bcos of my tiredness i became so crazy..Was playing a fool today i think..Heheh..Laugh when i saw a auntie walking half way and her pant fell down..okie i very mean..
Fara my little assistant cum partner was ter..Yeah was happy..when she ter, my day will be more relax..
y? cos i can play ard..haha..
Hmm..i took a pic of the cute auntie of bed 22/4 ..I show the staff nurses and they all laughed..hehe it shows i got good photography skills...HAHA!!
okie i am crazy already..Yep..manage to do fleet enema..Haha the staff nurse was testing me but i everything also dunno.. so pei seh..
i think i gotta get some slp..hehe den later will be more awake..
Catching a movie wif alvin later..
Boy Meets Girl,
You were my dream my world
But I was blind, you cheated on me from behind
So on my own, I feel so all alone
but i know it's true, im still in love with you!!
(Chorus)
I need a miracle, i wanna be your girl
give me a chance to see that you are made for me,
I need a miracle please let me be your girl
one day you'll see it can happen to me,
I need a miracle, i wanna be your girl
give me a chance to see that you are made for me,
I need a miracle please let me be your girl
one day you'll see it can happen to me,
it can happen to me!!
Day and night im always by your side
cause I know for sure my love is real my feelings yours
so take a try don't need to ask me why
cause i know it's true, I'm still in love with you.
(Chorus)
I need a miracle, i wanna be your girl
give me a chance to see that you are made for me,
I need a miracle please let me be your girl
one day you'll see it can happen to me,
I need a miracle, i wanna be your girl
give me a chance to see that you are made for me,
I need a miracle please let me be your girl
one day you'll see it can happen to me,
it can happen to me!!
Miracle...
A very nice techno song wif great beats and rythm..remind me of that j***..
4 more days to go..Jia you yeah..But i will miss all my patients...=(
hmm, my day was okie i guess..Though i was so damn tired, kept yawning..
Did dressing today..yeah finally..
Went to eat dinner wif alvin..hehe..neva really tok much..Den miss band cos was so lazy to get out of the lecture theatre..Yeah a very conducive environment to slp..Couldn;t even open my eyes..
It was pretty funny, me and alvin was sitting ter writing msg on his phone..Yeah a great way of communication..lol
Den we went home wif Qin..Qin lost her mind and kept blabbering alot of rubbish..GOD BLESS HER..
Yep..End of story...
sigh..have to start on my case study..hee..I and him have been msging every 10min since the last 6hrs?
haha..Call this love anot..i dunno..
Just saw Ong online..i dun think he gonna talk to me..
yep..You just dun understand yeah..if you really think you like me, tell me straight to my face den..If you have the courage to like me y not the courage to tell me?
I honestly dun think u deserve me if u really gave up tat easliy..but oh wells it ur life..Dun waste it..
Tomolo is back to attachment..but should be happy cos it just another 5 days to go..
Okay got to force myself to do my case study before it really too late..And yeah gotta slp early or else i can;t wake up again..yep ya too alvin..slp early, when morning comes, you will be betta..
GOD BLESS EVERYONE YEAH!!
Sometimes i wish tat my wishes will become my dreams and all my dreams would come true..
but you see..it only a wish..
****listening to lst ladi-never br replaced****
thought of him again..His shadow seem dimer..
yep he gone, and he still going away..far far away..
But yeah, here the song...
""From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to the feelings of your kisses
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me think that I could live my life like this everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes
that I have to let you goI think there's something I should probably let you know
Thet everyday that I spend with you
I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all""
and yeah, was thinking and maybe i think too much, get excited for thinking too much..
IF you r meant to be mine, you will be..
Yeah, i shouldn;t probe..so tired of probing..i should just sit back and wait yeah..Enjoy the rollercoasta ride
i Went to check out my work.
Saw ya today..hehe still look like a butch to me..But yeah you got a cute face..Pretty pretty boy yeah
hmm i am working at esplanade..hehe a great working environment i must say..
We met lena later have dinner at BK..
Den we went to buy present for sb and ivan..Yep..a bag and a photo frame
Chill out yeah..just got my mum really mad at me.Yep i sorry i hurt you..Dun mean it too..Bcos i noe tat i hurt u..I really found a reason to change myself..
Sorry mummy and daddy..i really neva meant to make u angry..I'm sorry..I promise i will change..
God bless you mum and dad..lOve ya!!
Now i noe is my weakness--i'm too emotional yeah, tat cause u to leave me..I guess i was really pushing u too far yeah..
But you noe, bcos of this i decided to change, but i will not totally get the emotional side out of my life..just tat i will balance it..
Sorry boy,u r rite i kept thinking too much which keeps making me say things tat contradict myself..
I realise it really mistake..I still want to be friends with you, but the problem is tat once i see you, my heart breaks.I really dunno wat to do..Yeah maybe i have not gotten over you yet but it just hurts..
Eddy treats me to sakae sushi buffet..hee ate 16plates altogether..Now cannot eat dinner..lol
and we really have another good long talk..But yeah eddy, u gotta change..just like me..u need a change..Life might be betta!!
Hmm today really SiAnsAtion yeah..
dunno wat i really want do tomolo either...sian!!!
Here i am, at my normal routine..here in front of the computer..
I feel much betta compare to last night..
i finally understood..That maybe all this while u just force urself to love me..Cos wat u really want is some other more unique, more prettier ger..But well bcos i was the only idiot den tat likes u you pretend to accept me..I was really foolish to gave every part of me, everything i had to u..well..i promise myself neva to stumble..yeah to fall but not to stumble in love..I learnt alot from u i realise..This i will keep in my memory
And all the things you think i can neva be..One day you will just see the woman i have become..One day!
Well, i may be the lonely one now..But just wait and see..
I can say that i have learnt to love nursing much more..cos today i realise the happiness which i can get by meeting to my clients needs and making them comfortable and happy..
Den when they are discharged you will be smiling the widest..
I hope i will find the next guy in my life..Cant wait to fall in love again..=)
God..pls i beg of u..dun let fate be so cruel to me..
i really want to be happy
i really want to move on..but y still i can;t..i feel weak at the sight of him..it really killing me..
I really want to be friends wif him..but i can;t seem to..
i noe i got to be strong..but i dunno y everything collapse at the sight of him..
I was wif eddy telling him abt life..and i thought i was strong..Den when i saw him..everything is taken away..
i can;t even smile without feeling the stab in my heart..was even shivering..
I dunno..i felt scared of u..Neva experience anything like this before
just the sight of you and ur smile make myself blow apart..
pls God..help me..Maybe u wanted to show me tat i was just deceiving myself..
You noe i finally understand y i could move on from the messs i left wif maurice..cos i neva got to see him..
and maybe cos of this distance..i could move on..
Sad..so i'm deceiving myself all this while yeah
God BLess Me!!
I still think of u..my heart still breaks cos of u, but i realise my wound is healing..
I noe everything is gone and wat is done is done..nothing can be retrieve anymore..But i still wish tat i had the chance..
I had illusions that you came back to me.but i wasn;t happy, in fact i was even more hurt..Maybe is bcos i knew that illusions can never become reality and also bcos you really hurt me so much..i can't believe in u anymore..
You just left without knowing the damage you done to my life..yep..I love you, hate you and afraid of u..
i hope i will never hear u apologise or say that you want me back..bcos it will hurt me
i dun want sound weak..Tats y all i can do is pretend i'm strong and pretend tat i'm happy in front of u..
Actually i am happy but my smile can never be perfect anymore..
How i wish some day, some guy will save me from all this nightmare..Yeah it only happens in movies..
attachment was okie i guess..i'm back to where i first started -->ward73..
hehe alvin just intro me a job..
I just came back from the market..yup..ur eyes are not playing tricks on u..cos i actually went to the market..
i realise it easy cos you just buy wateva u want to eat..duh...
But still dunoo how to tell between the fresh and spoil ones..lol
Yesterday..brian bought me to his church..He was busy the whole time from the moment we step in to the moment we stepped out..Yup..And tru tat i found myself became independent in a way..Last time i would cling onto terrence tightly, refusing to mix ard...
But last night i make a few friends..Nice and friendly peeps..
The whole service was really cool, though i did attend a few other church i found this quite punk in a way..
The pastor wife was really gorgeous..
They got some really some weird language which i would really like to learn..
He intro me to his ex..She has the look but i would have label her under cute faces..
I spend 5 bucks on chicken rice for my dinner..
trying to eat more..I want to show tat i'm happy..Yup i am..
This is my single life and i gonna live it to the fullest...hehe
Just got a freaking msg by someone..
i promise God i wun reject him if he comes to me..I wun be cold..But i guess i was..Sorry..
I just hope that you dun come and ask me questions like how are you..?
Cos if in the first place you actually did worry for me..I wouldn't be here..
All you show to me is that you r just some selfish jerk that left me all alone here..
I'll be happy as long as you r happy out ter..Dun ask me how i know if you r happy cos i just noe..
On the way home, was thinking i would write a story abt us...though most of the details i can't remember..i will still try to put the bits and pieces together..
I still love you and most probably you still noe that..But ter are something which are broken can neva be patch back..That how our love has become..I am still sitting here trying to figure out the broken pieces..
You are gone and you will neva care cos you have something betta now..tats is human i guess..
Yep..i bet you have figure out much more den me..while i'm just still here wondering y u gave up our love just like tat so easily..maybe one day down the road..you will realise wat i mean..and i will realise y u did tat..
Could have ended early i guess but sigh wasted 1 1/2 hrs doing nothing..
I pass my test and yep felt really happy..hee just learnt something from myself..I told libo tat sometimes people fail is not bcos they din study hard or smart, but is bcos they dun read the quest and answers properly..
I was thinking today and i realised it not everyday of ur adolences life tat you get to spend it being single..Out ter teenagers are so eager to get into relationship but they dun realise that they r wasting their youth away for someone..Enjoy yeah..
Life is GooD!!
My test was okay i guess but dunno if i can still pass..oh well
yeah..Found a perfect song to describe my dream..
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn’t be that man that I adored
You don’t seem to know, or seem to care what your heart is for
I don’t know him anymore
There's nothin' where he used to lie
Our conversation has run dry
That's what's goin' on
Nothing’s fine
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
So I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins and now I don't care, I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Torn...
There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's goin' on
Nothing's right
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm shamed
Bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Torn...
Oh...
Oh yeah, oh yeah...
"Torn"
by Natalie Imbruglia
yep..Sun still Shine sfter everything bad that happen..
yeah..my nightmare seem real,woke up at least 4 times..go back and dream of the same thing again..
I'm glad that i pass my cpr and everything is gonna be fine..i guess now just need to study for the theory part..
But when i'm alone, everything came back to haunt me..It just keep haunting me..ur face, ur hugs and kisses, everything of u..
i wished everything will just fade away,pls... go away..
I want to be happy..i had enough of people worrying for me, people pitying me and i have had enough of my own nusiance..
God please help me, i want to let go and live my life back to where i am not at all in this thing call love..
Is my purpose of being happy was even wrong in the first place..?
i really dunno..
sad sia..
But anyway the sky have start to clear abit but at least the thunder and lightning have gone..I believe it will continue to clear..yup..it will!
life is so beautiful i know..I have seen it at the most beautiful moment..
But y is it that i can't see the clear blue sky anymore..Now is dark and gloomy..
I got my wallet back, felt really happy..yeah and thanks to the kind soul that return it to me..Whoever you r,i owe you a favour..Hope to repay it someday..
I met him today by pure coincidence..he looks happy..really happy and his complexion has become better..that is signs of happniess i guess..although i'm really sad but i noe he dun deserve to be suffering along wif me..
I mean if being wif ping makes him a very happy person, i rather step back and just let him go..This is me..
It just so worth it seeing you happy..
I'm so worry for my BCLs, but why am i here not even studying..?
bcos i felt so fucked up..I am so disappointed wif shuyan..I dun get it y u have to be jealous..Dun u noe jealousy kills..?it destroy so many things..look if you want me to continue be ur fren and continue to treat ping and terrence normally den dun doubt me.
Do you ever noe tat when i look at the two of you i think tat a perfect ending will come for the both of you..and as a fren i wish you two the very best..i dun destroy things which i think is beautiful..and now u have to ruin it..Okie how am i going to face ur family now..?
i think i really betta go and study..
just really hope God help me..
i just lost my wallet..dunno where is it now..
I hope some kind soul will return it to me..But just like how i lost terrence..this is how i lost my wallet..Through neligence..
Yeah..feeling so fucked up now..So stressed up..Dun have any faith in passing my bcls..
Yeah just wished him happy birthday..not gonna expect any reply of cos...
jin chen can just be really sweet at times and the other moment he piss me off to the core..
Went for band and wasted our bloody time..But i'm glad tat i called up and yeah could come down for practice on next monday..(i'm learning the violin)
Just wished i could pass through this very horrible period of the week..
Maybe i should just go and sleep ah..
yeah good nite..
We always pray.."......forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sins against us.."
yep..as God could forgive me for cutting my flesh tat he created and many other things..
I could do the same for you..true you hurt me..You really stab me and ran away..But i noe you do have some conscious..I dun want to live or wait for the day you promise me you will make up for it..
cos if i have chosen to forgive you..ter shouldn;t be hatred for u anymore..
yeah..if you eva read this..Just noe tat i'm still your fren..
Today suck sia..
Fail my cpr..so tat mean no lighter week..
sigh..just hope to pass now..
And yeah thanks God..you r always ter for me..i noe you are always there..
To jincheng..Hmm uncle ah..just want to tell u..pls dun waste ur time on me..I got a malicious side of me..and bcos of tat i dun want to treat u badly..dun want u to do so much for me..
You really touch my heart..and to tell u the truth..i really want to gave you a chance..but i still want to be single..
I am STRONGER den yesterday.....
Know all about, yeah 'bout your reputation
And now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Everytime that I'm where you are.
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it any more
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Lovin' you, yeah, isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you, yeah
I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
Might be a mistake, A mistake I'm makin'
But what you're givin' I am happy to be takin'
'Cause no one's ever made me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms
They say you're somethin' I should do without
They don't know what goes on when the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Lovin' you, yeah isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you yeah
I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
I should try to run but I just can't seem to
'Cause every time I run you're the one I've run to
Can't do without what you do to me,
I don't care if I'm in too deep yeah hey-yeah
Know all about, yeah 'bout your reputation
And now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Everytime that I'm where you are,
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it any more
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Hey-yeah
Lovin' you, yeah, isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you yeah
I should try to be strong (should try to be strong)
But baby you're the right kind of wrong (right kind of wrong)
Baby you're the right kind of wrong
(Baby you're the right kind of wrong)
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
now at qin house..
just realise some pple are just really not meant to be remembered, to be treated well and to evem loved...
Brian, you really knock some sense into me.."changes are not changes if u dun see any change.."thanks!
met lena frens-->jonathon and ivan
'It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done"
HapPy ending--avril lavigne
yeah..y should i care
You r out ter enjoying urself..i could do the same
We r totally gone..No more terrence and no more Jasmine..
It HisToRY!!
This song is dedicated to you..
I'm sorry if whatever i did,i seem to be treating you like an object..You r not an object to be given away i noe..
I took my sufferings as my punishment that i neva treasured you..
Somethings when u lost it, you not only get punished, you will neva get it back..
That one lesson i learned..
Some words are neva really meant to be said out but i did..
some actions are neva to be done but i did..
My scars will always be ter..
I would have tell you that now you r the only person who could make my smile perfect..
But it too late..My life will be just without you..and i have to live with it whether i like it anot..
I will forget you..i will..
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it the way
And me the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
