Sianness..
i dread this shit..Its like going online and seeing pple put nicks like "i'm SO bored" and looking at wat i'm supose to do is like wth...

lookin at timmy, morris and dear..i so envious of them.
they could live yesterday and tomolo like nothing is bothering them..though morris hates to go back to sch..and lucky timmy got holidays.haha, now getting timmy to bring my retainers so i wun have to travel.

I will study much betta den in the past now.but not much confidence wif me still.
Now is my "break" time so yeah taking my last chance to go online.
and hopefully bloggin helps wif venting stress and fustration so tat i dun feel so Sian, depressed and wateva.

Nothing goes in my Freaking brain..so is tat gd news??
i'll just hafta pray to father in heaven tat he will bless me..

Last 2 days were fun and nice...
my 3 days 2 nite chalet finally come to and end and so i'm back here sloggin my brains out..
Haiz.sigh..

SO err?? timmy where are u??

ahhhhhhhhh..
my results gonna be out very very soon

so decide to blog first before i faint upon seeing my result.
ookie. at the beginning i tot i gonna slack at home till nite.but dear called me out on a date.
yeah so i waited for dear for 30mins for him to knock off.
and we went to ichiban sushi for dinner.the sushi is betta den sakae=D

dear was lame today.yeah..haiz..everyone is sayin dun worry u can do it..but honestly i no faith.

We'll see.>.<

wateva, i am just gonna spend today at home.
Its like a day u wake up and feel like everybody is gone, out to work or school.
maybe i will date my darling out.=/

I'm like out everyday nite at pubs.
think it was like caesar palace on sunday nite too.
Oh anyway, sunday had a hell deal of great fun.Played badminton and den basketball.
ian and jeremy join us.stupid ian drop a bomb on my head when i wasn't looking and was trying to get water before i dehydrated.we went darlin house to change and den to ian house to wait for him.Dinner was like at bk cos ian wanted to eat ter.Shocking part was tat ian and dear met before tru anthony.

AFter tt we got shar, Ry down too.
ry was nice to gave me a share of his red wine..i love red wine =D
We played 24 and blackjack.
And den everyone was in this sian sian mood for cards.
Something happen wif darling so we walk ard while i was trying kick sense into her again.

i went home and discover i was hungry so went out again to eat.
mummy and daddy is like fuming MAD at me so yeah when i finally came back like yeaterday nite..i got a freaking gd cold war wif them.

Oh well, feel like a jailbird now.

What i like abt you??
i like it when you gave me your credit card..whahah

Yesterday was quite fun.i managed to buy something i have been dying to get for very long time.yup the 2 sleeveless shirt for 18 buck.
Bcos of tat i din have money and Ps was just down the road.so Darling and terence follow me to meet ya.When we finally found you...You say you din have cash so u gave me ur credit card and pin number.LOLX.but rest assured, i wun put it down here.=D
and the atm machine was reckoning me to take out 50 bucks so tat wat i did..hahaha.

So after giving a miss for a gdbye hugs and kisses, i went to play pool at IOI.
I like the place, the table were redish.ter was even a small cafe.
We play for hours.Muta join us shortly.
We went to eat dinner and it was quite funny to see how the guys fought to pay the bills.
We made jokes and sensitve remarks, i managed to persuade darling to wait wif me for you.
So we went hotel Rendevzous for muddy mudpie and chocolate tuffle.The guys got themselves Mochacino and cappucino.
Smart boy, you called so tats how we could meet.You were a man of guts cos you helped us ger to finish the mudpie..while the other 2 no guts were scared of getting fat from mudpie..lolz..wth
And then when we were making our way towards the mrt, tension increased..tension of the love.
You were the hero tat sent my darling home, so tat the tension would decrease.lolz.

I slept for practically the whole day, after coming home, i continue slping.
til 5 plus.gosh, i dunno if i can sleep tonite.

i hope u have a nice day at work.=D

yesterday nite was a celebration to complete darling birthday.
Yup, it the second time i am celeb for her.

But yet the nite suck.dear was in this fcuking attitude tat got me almost pissed off for the whole nite.Morris told me a few jokes to cheer me up and lighten things up.
When everyone was ter, we got a cake for darling, bought it up and the lady promise us to play a birthday song.yeah so when dear present her wif the cake, everyone head turn..the song was playing.wasn't tat sweet??

hmm, yeah ry could click so well wif morris and dear..
the rest felt kinda lost.So Qin and ivan went to play pool..Well as usual, me and darling pull muta to play at the machine.I was engrossed in the game but soon after tat the rest of the guys join Qin and ivan at pool.

and den something happen and it all dear fault.
Well, doubt he can slp peacefully.haiz wateva, he hasn't been making things rite last nite.
He was the fuel tat lead to a forest fire..i hope things are betta wif them alrdy.sigh.felt bad too.
But love is not charity.

i think mummy gonna be so pleased cos i haven been staying over at dears.
So yup i'm up early and later going kbox.=)

When i need you
You're almost here
And i know that is not enough
When i'm with you
I'm close to tears
Cos you're only almost here.

first of all i just wanna shout a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my darling.
oops, alrdy did tat.lolz.

Well, just now we had hell lots of fun.i'm sure darling enjoyed herself too.
We started off wif an attempt to jog in the morning.Wasn't wat i called a sucessful attempt though.Went back to my house so i could change, and den we headed off to bishan just bcos darling wanted to surprise Edmund.Well, wasn't much of a surprise cos he saw us first.wat a dumb ass we r..haha.
And so muta was alrdy ter by the time we reached braddle.Waited for darling to change first while i was trying to take as much songs as i could fit into my mp3.
Ry came and waited quite long for us at the macs.
went central to eat, din really eat much dunno why.so i ended up sharing beehoon wif darling instead.

ter was alot of time left so we decided to visit pple at work.
Darling went to visit Sb, i gave him a hard slap on his arm for fooling us.lolx
We took a bus down to Ps to gave dear a big surprise.haha and the moment after tat, dear took his dinner break so i accompany him for dinner which was at pastamania.
Went to get darling flowers and so while dear headed back to his work, i went to find them.Gosh, was almost lost.lolz.
Starwars was a big tradegy, i dunno, my heart feels so sad.oh wells, emotional me i guess.
Good show wif a good plot, i love ah tu de robot?hee ^.^

After movie, we went caer palace to hangout.And muta parents were ter.
I cant believe wat cool parent he got.you noe the type tat hangs out at pubs and drinks and play pool.His parents were nice and friendly chaps..Dear and neil came after tat.
We all played cards and chat.When it was midnite, ter was a auto happy birthday song for darling.lolz
and now i'm back..hee.

before i end this.
Dear darling, you r finally 19 like me..whahhaha
ily!

i have a great time =p

dental appointment was sucky.woke up late and couldn't get a single cab.
Stupid clerk on the other line told me to just come..well, she got her self into a deep shit.wateva.not my business
made a double trip and boy was i so tired.
darling and dear trying get me out the moment i stepped into my house.
haha, felt like stoning wif dear so went look for dear first..but felt really bad for flying darling's kite so i met her at 7 plus.hee, lucky she not angry wif me.she even treat me to mudpies and waffles..thank you so much.. *MUACKz*
me and darling took lotsa of neoprints.hah, i long time no take le.
I have put them on frenster.=D

we got muta along to the pub in gardern again.
We had lotsa of fun wif the photo game and pool.muta was really gd.
i had a game wif lena.Dear help me shot in the last black ball,sometimes morris guides me along.
yeah, and ter was dear funny joke and morrises stories.
i guess everyone has a gd time

fcuking retainers very uncomfortable..oh well, must get use to it ah..

abit tired and yeah dear chasing me to slp.

b4 tat, a big KiSs to dear dear and teddy bear.lolz *MUACKZ*

morning was messy, really messy, i'm glad dear help me get the essential and all.
Was havin cramp and it really hurts, dear put me to slp.
Woke up at 1 plus and decide go home to tidy up so yup here i am all tidied up alrdy.

Yesterday was fun.Morris whoop ass in snooker and billard.
Was actually suppose to go Escape but i guess ter a lot of factor not in our favour.
So we head to katong for a snooker game and dinner as well.
Morris really gets betta as he played, while poor dear needs lots of polishing, well, baby din played in a long time tat why.
haha, and he was so happy tat he was getting betta and got even higher when we went to the pub in garderns.cos he whoop 3 men ass in a game of pool.
I played the games on the machine.sometimes dear and morris help me wif it.
Photo game was fun.

We all ton at dear's again.
They played play station while i played neopets.
Morris tried the game in neopet but sucks terribly at it..lolz
so i guess tat where he cannot whoop pple ass in..
"whooping ass " is de word he taught me.

chalet is confirmed i think.cant wait for it.=)

today my last day,but also maybe gonna be my worst.
Stupid ass giving us our marks.and so far i neva did anything to impress her.
wateva..

Wednesday she din touch me, yesterday she din force me to present.
Yup, so i haf nothin to curse her abt

i'm much betta now only have a slight breathing difficulty bcos of my phlegm.
On Wednesday it was terrible in the ward.but yeah managed to survive cos was looking forward to meet dear after tat.He came to fetch me and took care of me the whole day.yup and i recover..
He made me slp from 5 to 10 at nite..We watch tv and eat boiled potato.His first attempt of trying to make the salad sauce was ok i guess..hahah.
and den i went back to slp.

Yesterday was afternoon shift just like today.
Was ok i guess, but just din like certain things tat happen.I guess Human r just so self-fish.
Was kind of turn off by certain pple behaviour..ahhh, let not talk abt it.
But ter are some others tat made my day for eg this EN..
I went wif her to Ot to fetch patient and she was making fun of the police man ter.
and she did it openly, whao she really open and direct sia.

Last nite went to meet Jess, andy, leo, charlene and lena.and ter was another guy call mingwei.I came late but later heard wat lena told me abt some commotion between charlene, Jess and Andy.Hope things are betta now though.
Mommy gonna kill me again cos i slept over at dear house again..
But was quite funny, we had pillow fights again wif timothy..while thomas was trying to preach holy bible to wat he say was a very depressed friend of his.
and then we all went to slp.

hope today will be quite all right too.=]

i'm sick now.Sneezing nonstop..throat abit irritated.
Sigh.

Tat nerdy asss Ms Lai made my fcuking day today.
I think almost everyone who got approached by her got at least a scolding from her.weell, i'm pretty sure they all share my agony.
She was like asking why everyone look groomly?well, cant she see tat its all her fault.She the reason why everything turn black.She still laugh and say most prob its abt exam result.
Honestly, i noe i wun do well, but i'm not going to be troubled wif it til 25th when the result is out..only stupid nerdy ass like her will worry for so many days.
hell, no one was happy.It just one week and the freaking sch gotta send a terror to ruin my happy week.

If not for any other thing, you think i fcuking care who are u?? So wat if u r patient -orientated while we r not, you r not a staff nurse and pls u dun even know how to be student-orientated..
and no i'm not afraid of u, i'm pissed cos i so hell wanted to kill you, ripe your stupid air head apart and put you down so much so tat you think you cannot teach anymore.

Push me a little harder and you will get it..I mean it.

Well, really like i say it a nice sweet short attachment ruin by a airheaded lecturer.I made 2 new friends-Hui ning and Suhua. =)

i'm not motivated.
really sick now.

ahh, ms LAIBEWMENG was our cI..arggh
This time ward 47 .colorectal ward.
i'm so bothered cos the task she expect is something i dun like.
She expect us to give a presentation of the patient we chose, we also haf to talk to the pt.
But fcukin did she noe tat most pat diagnosis are not very nice to talk abt.
I'm gonna have a hell of trouble doing this.And she wants it on wed.

I took out my BrAces.hehe =D
But cos of tat i have to stay back til 5.came home and met mommy on the way.felt supa dupa hungry..

i'm tired but i gtg do my case study
all thanks to tat nerdy ass.

yup, today is Mother's day.

Happy Mother's Day, mum..

Yesterday Lena and Jess follow me to shop for her gift
Guess wat we bought?

A necklace and a pair of matching earrings for moja
A dark pink shawl and a...(dun laugh alrite)golden buddha bank for my mummy.
Haha, it was tat day when dear was pulling me ard tat i saw it and i knew in my mind i must get it for my mummy..lolz

The reason why i'm up so early cos i slept early too.Dunno why so tired.Got a feeling my body very weak.Kept sneezing tru the nite cos aircon was on.

Now betta le, was quite worry i be sick.
Dinner was fine last nite, but i wasn't full up.Heard tat the bill amount to 700plus.
But food was only okie and ter a lot of flies.
Heidi kept complaining tat the service was D..lolz
Yup tru out whole dinner, she was telling me abt guys and her skool life..Ben was suffering from a frontal headache and a stomach upset.He was quite a poor thing.Darcy was dead bored.

I worry abt my gf.haiz, she drifting apart wif some unknown pple tat she just met up last few days. But dear says she needs all tat attention.So well, she got it ain't she? i'm just satisfied wif the attention dear gave me. hmm, miss him so. =X

Jie bought a mango cake and i'm eating it now.mmMMm, not bad.

Later meeting Lena.

Hmm, yesterday paper really sux.To cheer me up, dear bought me shopping.
Dun mistaken, i am not a shopping freak, but i find it really fun when ur man is able to bring u out and spend just to doll u up from head to toe. One of my secret dream came true.

At first it was dead boring, he came to my house and i got changed.
Den we slack a while cos it was raining cats and dogs.When the rain stopped, we went to take cab again all the way to bugis.When we got ter, we were kinda lost cos dunno wat to do.We went buy sushi and takopachi sat near the fountain and watch the water go splish -splash.

I din like walking alot cos i was wearing the wrong shoes.
due to the excessive training by his god sister, he pulled me to all the possible shop just to try out clothes.haha, he a bigger shopper den me but except tat he shopping for me..=D

Hmm, we went to THE EDGE.77th street and much more shop..
den ter was just one shop i really like.the shirts and skirts are really sweet..
After trying like tons of clothes, i finally settled for a shirt and a black skirt.
Dear claim i look real plain, so he pull me to shops to get earrins, necklace and watch.
everything was pinkish and redish.haha..
Lena join us later and we met shar and yong ming.

for dinner we ate at Billy bombers.The food were fantastic but the bill was really a bomber..lolz
The Fantastic date finally ends when he send me to his house.
the whole day he was soo sweet, gave me leg massage and help me soak my leg in warm water.
We watch Constantine.Was quite scary an satanic.
And den he tuck me in to slp..Aint tat sweet??
this morning he prepare breakfast for me..

so i should be getting changed by now to go meet lena.
tata

fuck nothing goes in.hah, i'm really dead.
Dunno how am i gonna to survive.

-good luck-

haha, you are almost ter.Just 1 paper left.
I got a feeling it gets harder as it goes.
Today bio paper was okie i guess, i did too fast le, cos like made alot of mistake.
But hafta keep believing i will make it.=]
and boy, was i the fastest again to leave the hall.i swear i could have heard pple gasping at the sight of my departure.lolz

i was tired but din noe i was tat tired.came home and slept till 7 plus.
Tonight and tomolo gonna be the last battlefield and den it would be holidays for me ;)
I was thinking of taking up cooking or at least doing something more constructive.
Maybe i would go and exercise?

i will fight the temptation to go over. lolz

i so regret going over..or should i say not hitching a ride on a sport car?
hmm, i went out wif charlene and Jess cos gf not freee accompany me meet my ex.
We went bishan to meet ke xin and afterwhich Shawn arrived.
I was shock to see him in a neatly combed back hair.whoo, so gentlemanly sia.
and he was soo poliet.He's changed.but one thing he cannot stop disturbing me.
we went to nearby S11 to eat.i bought nasi lemak.
haha, and he was so nice, keep topping up the drink for me.=p

Mingwei came over and after tat we went our separate way.they went watch movie.before they left i pass the gift to him..hahah
I went to look at clothes.Charlene was so gaga over some leo and andy guy tat is coming over.
Din feel like going home so i joined them.

her dog chucky is soo cute but a terror.when we came, he was so dirty cos he shitted everywhere in her kitchen.and man was he so noisy.
Char was so busy tiding up the room before those 2 guys came.
They were pretty ok guys.typical kinds i would say.
anyway dunno why i was so shy, maybe cos stupid jess says one of them was interested in me after they saw my pic in her comp.like wth lo..hahaha
din noe wat to do cos communication session wif everyone kinda fail.so we went down to coffee shop to have drinks.It work much betta.
Den char suggest the playground.i din really want to squeeze wif them so i sat at the little horse.Shawn called in and so we talk.haha, long tme din have such gd talk wif him.Was actually flirting i think.but to me its just a normal conversation.I think Leo felt a bit left out.cos he was walking ard smoking.

We went back to her house and Leo told us ghost stories.
And for the first time i'm astonished to meet someone who is like me,always seeing those stuff.
He says tat his little finger have 3 lines while other pple only have 2..scary rite.
yeah, anyway i found out we also share similiar concept of certain things regarding those thingy.
Kexin was freak out.

Hmm, andy was tired so they left.haha and i miss out on that cos i should have hitch a ride home.His sport car was beautiful man.haha, the four of us went to squeeze in and he gave us all a short spin.
We went to sleep.but it was so cold.her stupid dog woke up and started barking. like almost evrymin
it was damn irritating.It is just one of those times i think home is the sweetest.=)

i am hungry.gonna get some food.
want some?
lolz

Just went out wif Eddy.he treat me to KFC.Dear will be jealous..hahah
yep, had our normal talk.i hope he be ok...

So now, i will continue abt yesterday.
I and dear slept till 11, my mom called,nagged and den Qin called.Found out she went Chinablack the nite before too.hahaha, could have jolly well join her and her friends but too bad, din realise tat she will actually go clubbing cos i tot she had attachment.
I heat up the sandwich from 7/11, made icemilo and pour out the apple juice.haha, first time prepare breakfast for dear.

Afterwhich, i felt lazy and slpy so went to slp again.Dear join me slighty later.and so we slept like pigs til 1 plus.i went home get changed ate my porriage.
and for the first time since we last patch, dear bought me out on a very exp date.
We took cab down to orchard.Went shopping and dear was soo noble, he helped me wif getting a gift for shawn.and he bought a belt from giordano for me too..haha, i soo happie.

We really walked alot cos now the sole of my foot hurts.
went to meet Qin and lena.Lena was in a very sucky mood a first.
We went to the esplanade roof.woo, it had changed ter a mini gardern and a fountain too.but still alot of memories filled my head..same for lena too cos afterward she broke down.
i talked to lena while dear was making the double hearts wif a cupid arrow.
Qin arrived and dear was asking Ivan to make message for Qin wif the pebbles .
Ivan made one wif the message "I ('v') E"

We went clarke quey to eat.Wha food ter really exp.In the end we settle for a western restuarant.But stil spend a total of $104.
Anyway we order a salmon steak and dory fish set meal which is inclusive of soup, garlic bread, ice cream logan, wedges, salad wif also a complimentary set of red or white wine and another set of kang kong and pineapple fried rice.
and the stupid guy tot i was drunk cos he keep telling me tat the toliet but i seem blur cos ter were two doors. one wif the sign "toliet" but doesn't seem to have a door knob.

We couldn't find a suitable pub to drink at cos they dun like noisy clubs.
So dear suggest buying cans of beer and drinking it by the river.
and so we did just tat.And dear and ivan took turns to tell lame jokes and lame stories.
Afterwhich we went home.Lena share a cab wif us.
Dear send me home cos i couldn't stay over again.

whoo, i love my boyfriend soo much.=D!


and den enough of playing i need to get back to studying.
I was so in a holiday mood only to realise i still have 2 more paper to go.

What are you waiting for?

my paper on fri was okie.MCq was pretty easy but SAQ was a killer.
Anyway was writing rubbish and found out i still can get at least 1 or2 marks out of that quest.
i am sure i can make it.

I was soo tired but bored and sian at the same time.i called lena and ask her out.so we agree to meet at 3.I played games the moment i came home and den slept at abt 1 plus.
We were suppose to shop for a gift for my ex but couldn't find anything.We stopped by at sakae for a lunch, i haven eaten and was starving at that time.

After which her "bf then" aka "ex bf now" came..he was tall alrite, make me feel really short.
And we dun like each other.To me he suck big time.i'm friendly and i dun dislike pple easily and if i do, it must have meant tat u really suck big time.he is something which the word HOrrible cannot describe.Lemme tell u the horrible things he expect of my gerfriend:

1)dress nicely at all time when out wif him
2)wear high heels to suit him
3)lose weight
4) Clear of all her pimples
5)Drink water-15 glasses a day
6)keep her hair neat

and he expect this total change in 2 mths.
I'm sure u all will agree wat a guy is he.*nods*
my ger is i dunnoo wat to say, she on a diet and a strict one on tat...
i'm angry before i met him and when i do, i really disike him.i always tot Sb was the number one guy who hit my dislike list but this fella beat SB to it..in fact sb lacks a million way behind him.
He was obnoxious, proud and think the whole world owe him a living.
He is NO gentleman.I detest him.
ANyway, he did wat a ungentlemanly and detestable guys did, he walked out halfway just bcos my gerfriend did not eat wif him.wtf, he is fcuking childish.and so they broke up.
My worries of having to tolerate him during our couple chalets is gone.
I sounded mean, but honestly i am freaking happie tat he is gone.Who needs him.He is so ugly and have a bad character at tat.But my stupid ger thinks otherwise.

Yeah and so to cheer her up, we went clubbing which is her first time at Rush at mohammad sultan.It was okie.very weird, feel like 2 little gers.
But luckly andrew intro a friend ter to guide us.
Afterwhich i went over to dear's.
haha, he was angry wif everything, i was mean to him cos couldn't find him at work.
But afterwhich he relent and we went to buy food from 7/11 to eat cos i was starving.
He bought tons of beer and i ate cup noodles.

for tat the nite ended.