I hope you'll
think of me
Hope You wonder
Where I sleep at
night cause i feel
Like I'm inside out
You got me upside
down maybe I was
holding on
too tight..

I have been very bz til i dun even have time for my break (meal and toilet break)and time really passes very fast but when i'm done wif my work i feel so drained out like i could faint any moment..this is wat i call overwork..But somehow i love it..=p!

yeah, call me mad..i think i'm becoming workaholic soon.But really, it not tat bad being one, it helps u to forget unhappy stuff.Like after a long day of work, you just go sleep as soon as u get home, there just no time to think abt unhappy things..

Yesterday, i work wif the kenneth-look-alike guy, It was as good as before..he rocks

Seriously he the reason why i came back to this ward..=))

I learnt alot frm him and my confidence grew alot from the previous time when i work along wif him..I can still rem how i dread and hate to go for attachment just like how little boys/girls cry when they go kingdegarden for the first time..Basically, the ward leave an impression for me..

Today,i work wif someone different, but she not as bad either..and i tot afternoon shift was gonna be boring and nothing to do but guess i was so wrong..I wonder how come my frens are all quite free...=x *hmmm...

I wore grey contacts today, was a little irritable at first.Heh, alot pple say it look nice on me..=p
I still wondering if the CI gonna comment anything abt it.=x

Oh yes, tat day she was saying she gonna pick one student frm each shift to go HD.I pray and pray i will not be the one..cos i still wanna work wif the kenneth-look-alike guy..hehe..Anyway, he same shift as me tmr, so i got every right to rejoice..

LALALAALAAA~~!

My first day was just mostly orientation, i guess it gonna be today onwards tat start the snowball rolling..

It a new CI already, i never work with the previous one before but heard she was nice and many of them choose this ward bcos of her..they must be pretty disappointed den..For me, my staff nurses still stay the same so i'm happy..Anyway the new CI (CI Wong) seem like a nice yet kinda strict lady as well.Our orientation itself has already a number of quests tat got us thinking and doing some kind of homework.I can foresee wat in the future alrdy..=/

YAY, the happy thing is that I got posted to the male side, and the good thing abt taking care of them is tat ter isnt a lot of 'drity work' to do..and also i will get to work wif that kenneth-look-alike guy again.haha.

Finally the day was over and so i went to delifrance to have high tea..LOL

If i tell you, this is like my less-than-5-times i have been to delifrance, you wun laugh at me rite?o.O

I know you're nice.SO yeah, i got fascinated by the food ter.I din know they have pasta too..Oh well, this is wat i ate..

The mussels tastes really good.
(I shared this wif my fren.)

Mushroom soup.
yummy.

Want some drinks?

It looks really nice.
I'm thirsty alrdy...

So yeah, i was satisfied and couldnt eat dinner after tat.I cant type more cos i gotta get ready to go work..=(

See my bulging sore eye?=((

Welcome to HELL!!

I thought i should do a little reading so that i wouldnt neeed to suffer so much in hell..=/

So i took out the second heaviest medical boook i had in my cupboard;The Medical surgical book!hey, it a good book alright, it provides information on almost any kind of medical conditions and its treatments.

I stare at the fat book and start wondering what should i start reading up on ..And so i thought i should familiarise myself with common conditions that most patient would have..

Heart disease and diabetes!

The problem wif heart disease is tat it too general..so i tot i shall start wif learning abt Diabetes.

When you talk abt diabetes, you talk abt sugar level being not only too high but too low as well..and therefore the terms of hyperglycaemia and hyp0glycaemia.(in simple terms)

I found an interesting diagram in the book tat illustrates how the body fight to control our sugar level in a normal healthy person like you and me..

So this is wat happen when u get slightly too sweet and ur organs are still working nice and well.

(Glycogen is formed by the liver from glucose in the bloodstream and is stored in the liver)

Don't worry you are still under control. =)

But lets pretend, a paranoid guy decided that he have consume high level of sugar and is turning too sweet, so he avoids eating sweets and carbohydrates or maybe even not eating at all just cos he either dunno or have forgotten that he has his beautiful organs to do all the cleaning up of the suagrs..So instead of this blood sugar level falling to average range, it falls below tat and now he turning a little hypo..

Cool huh?(by the way, Glucagon increases blood glucose level)

The body such an amazing thing isnt it.But please dun abuse the liver and pancreas!

So i hope tat paranoid guy start eating or he will die.

And looking at the diagrams make me think of how relationship between couples work as well.

Most of us have heard of this saying or even agreed and say it ourselves too.. "Treat a ger too nice and she steps all over you?".. and from the ger sides "Never treat a man too good cos the guy will take you for granted"..blah blah blah..it all the same..I find this topic a gender issue..So all in all, i will generalize it to "Never treat a person too good,unless the person knows how to appreciate it and react the same way,you will end up being a total fool."

So what to do??

Guys say: We should sometimes be hot, sometimes cold..Even if you love her, cannot treat her too nice, you will only end up losing her..

Gers say: hehe, the less i seem to care, the more he seem to care..

Starting with the first diagram (click to enlarge if you r tat short sighted)

Cos i'm a ger, my main character to my examples will be of cos a ger!Okies, let say a very passionate ger who loves her bf very very much so as you all know, a ger can be really sweet (nice)when she loves a guy so much..

1) so the guy experience "high glucose level" or too much sweetness from the ger..(antecedent)

2)Behaviour: He starts to treat her for granted and mayb not so nice to her anymore...=(( He becomes the receiver and "expects" that nice treatment all the time tat often he ends up not giving or even worst, expect to receive even more.
This is somehow i dun think an intentional behaviour tat reduce the "sugar level"similiar to why you dun tell ur pancreas and liver wat to do, they just do it!!

3) Consequences:The ger din understand the reason why he has a change in attitude or mayb she does and yes, the best thing to do is to give him a break..or another way is not to be so nice to him anymore..cos you see "why should i care when you dun care?"So she is not tat nice anymore, dun seem to care so much anymore and gives a "little break" to the r/s...Sugar level decrease..and so does the r/s..it turns sour..anyone likes sour pulms?

1)"low blood glucose" :The relationship turns sour,the guy wonder what in the world he did wrong or maybe the ger got pms and a change in attitude..

2)The ger tells him he has been taking her for granted, guy probably admits it and start treating her nice..=))
The pancreas release glucagon =He compromise and tries to give sometimes
The liver breaks down glycogen = He start to give even more

3) The ger feels satisfied, the r/s turn sweet.=)
That if the both guy and ger remain and continues to remain mutally nice and sweet to each other.

Sadly, i dun think it always turn out tat way..=((

A) sometimes when the first party got the bad treatment, it is in them tat maybe they dun and shouldnt treat the second party too nice..

----->B)The second party dun always change their behaviour and thus result in a cycle where the second party also believes abt too good treatment theory..

---------->C) So if both parties are stuborn, den i guess the r/s isnt going anywhere..

Like wat my dear fren say, if only when we treat them nice, they also be nice to us then it be all so good and peaceful..But you see, a r/s tat is too peaceful cannot survive either..haiz..headache sia..

If anyone have tried reading up to this point, go think abt it..anyway i admit i'm bored..hee.But hey this is true..i find..

Okie, back to reality, i'm so glad i got plans yesterday nite..i was actually quite upset tat i will be spending a lonely fri nite rotting at home like how i am doing now..But lucky i got lena and Ruhong's company.

Lena and me tried K-ster!

It was introduce to me by Jessie..

Student member gets to enjoy a 50% discount..heee, how nice is tat man.

Anyway, bcos it just the 2 of us, we got the japanese room which is damn small la..

Really japanese style huh?!?Cheapskate sia!!

They use computer monitor screen!!!
And you select the song wif a digital mouse..LOLx

These is like the only thing i like on the wall..

In comparison to Kbox, K-ster has much more english songs..i'm not too sure abt Chinese songs..So we sang til nearly one and i went to watch movie with Ruhong after tat..^^

We caught the Dorm.

It a Thai horror movie,i like Thai horror cos i find their ghost stories really scary..haha..as well as funny.Anyway, it only certain scene tat is scary, overall i gave a 4 out of 5 star.

Well it abt a boy name Chatree that was send to a boarding sch and he made fren wif a ghost tat drowns himself at the old swimming pool behind the school.Friendship blossoms and tru their frenships, Chatrees grows up alot..haha, sound like a rather nice and peaceful show rite..

Now, i'm just waiting for a particular person msg..he hasnt msg me for nearly 24 hrs..and we din fight or anything to trigger this cold yet weird space..Sigh, or maybe i should get myself injected with insulin..

Good luck to myself in PRCP!!

"STUDYING SUX!"

99.9% of students will say tat..the other 0.1% most probably belong to the nerds.
Sad to say tat it is essential..

Studying is stressful=/

Well,i think i am abit crazy.I love and yet hates studying..So i belong to tat 99.9% and yet also the 0.01%.I like studying cos of the stress and similarly i hate it cos of stress itself too!

Why i have to like stress?

- The adrenaline

-It makes my life.(Dun ask me why,it just do!)

This is wat i have been learning abt stress in biology lessons..

"Study leds to stress and stress prepare the body for 'flight or fight' response..This response benefited the person by boosting their body's natural front-line defence against infections from traumas.This response also increase the adrenaline in ur body and adrenaline rush to some people are considered as cheap thrills, making them feel good..."

Cool isnt it!?!(But i'm talking abt mild or moderate stress)

Oh well, enough of the stress thingy,i was indeed stress.Although i did early revision like one week ago (which is so unlike of me), i still cant rem almost anything..So today paper is almost a total failure..It was too boring that my mind refuse to absorb.What a reason but it true!!*weep*

I'm just hoping for a miracle and yes GOD BLESS ME pls.

My first paper was okay somehow..

I think i study too early, mayb i should go back to the fact tat i am quite a last min person and stress helps me to focus better..=/

So screw the part abt me feeling all so happy tat i have already studied last week cos this week when i'm having a paper like in 24hr time, i cant seem to study anymore based on something in me tat keeps saying "You have alrdy studied,dun worry" and seriously i werent even worrying or mayb stress has made me crazy, numbed the anxiety center in my brain or something..

Haiz..lucky fri paper is much more interesting to study..i hope.

So yeah, i think i overstressed myself last week, cos it got me into a total emotional wreck and it got poor baby camel involves and i know it always been happening before or during exam periods.SO yes, i'm so sorry baby..=(

But i got a sweet bf yeah, after tat, he spend much quality time wif me.We went bowling on sat nite and he also bought me to eat pratas.=)

I also spend the whole of Monday wif him.So mayb i got too attached to him cos i missing him alrdy..=x

Comical pic of Piggy and Camel

So yeah talking abt being sweet..I suddenly feel guilty for not trying harder,i remembered what my elder sis, ma-mee-moo and daddy did for me while i was studying like ter no tmr..First start wif my sweet elder sis, she bought me mini cornetto(s), coffee, make me papaya juice and garlic bread..haha..Ma-mee-moo bought me lots of chicken essence which i only take 2 bottles so far and she made me my fav chrysantheum drink.Daddy bought me apple juices yesterday!

Hah, i feel so pampered and as i was studying abt the sick role in one of my psycho module, it mades me think i have kind of assume a role similiar to that which i call it the study role..hahah.just bcos i am studying, i need to be pamper!!haha wat kind of rubbish is tat man.

But bcos of their effort to make me feel comfortable while studying, i decide i will try harder for my last paper..hmm...

I see a skinny pig! (o.o)

See wat stress have done to me? I become so weak and frail and yes not forgetting tired..This pict was taken after my first paper..i look haggard..ignore tat stupid tongue,it probably means i need food and water desperately..

*Smile*

I'm happy bcos later i am going to meet my baby, probably watch Dr House again..It a great show which i think all medical professioners should watch.=D

Tata (^^,)

I'm so proud tat i've been down to studying..I dunno wat got into me, for once i could sit down for long hours and study..

Haha, although i doubt many information got retain in my small brain..But hey, i wasnt tat easily distracted!!=p

Oh yes, i have been saving money too..=D

lalala~ feeling happy..

Because i'm happy, i decided to post a happy pict of myself ..hahah.

Xp.

I have decided to blog instead cos my exam is just round the corner and this might just jolly well be the last time i gonna blog for 2 weeks..

I'll be bz cramming for 8 modules just for 3 papers..well, it not too late yet..lolx

My friday night has been a rather fruitful one bcos i finally manage to club "properly"..at least i would say its passable..But well, it turn out ok bcos we dun have to waste time finding one another or waiting too long or something..

Lena book a chalet from thurs to sat..yeah so they wanted me to stay on fri nite..it was a long journey to pasir ris and worst of all i got disturb by a irritating sales guy...waited for them to bathe and get ready and den we all took a cabby down to MOMO..yeah, i wanted club momo cos it free before 11(hah, call me cheapskate..but i'm going broke soon), secondly i heard it not bad and am dying to go ter..But the problem is Ivan haven hit the adult age of 21..=x

Lena & Qin in the taxi

We gers decided to go black for the nite..But anyway frm baby's experience and also a little frm charlene tips, it shouldnt be tat hard to get ivan in..

I dunno why and how they came to a conclusion tat they decided tat ivan was to tell a lie that he din have an ic..*slap forehead*

The plan was to get baby to go wif ivan, so that they will close one eye and let ivan in also cos baby is (legal)able to go in as well..

We gers decided to wait for them..the guys went and minutes later they walked back..they failed the mission!!!

Okie, this is wat actually happen..

Baby showed ic, bouncer let them in..but they got checked by the door bitch..door bitch suspected ivan, ask questions like "How old are you", "what the yr u r born in?" and lastly (the quest tat kills) "what is ur chinese zodiac"

Of cos he did not expect tat quest to be coming..but what a luck man..haiz

So i suggest Double Os.

Was not too bad la, but the gers din like the music cos it was techno pop..but i love it..=))

Its just a pity the pple that goes ter was like of a much more older age grp den me!so it just feel funny abit..haha..

Anyway they went to the bar and sat down to drink..baby and i join them shortly..

Qin claim she tired so after drinking she left...and then the situation wasnt so good after tat cos lena had some probs wif her bf..oh wells..but i and baby still stayed til they call it a night..

haha, oh yes guess wat the last song de deejay played? One sweet day by mariah carey..like wtf la..lolx

On the way back home, baby was playing this particular song in the car and gosh i'm in love wif it..I'll see if i can find a way to upload the song..=)

Happy BirThday !!

My cute grandpa

Me and my cousin, Samantha

Haha.. This look like some kinda of horror shots..

Can u guess wat is this?

It dry ice in a cup of oolong tea..xp.

We had the celebration at crystal jade resturant instead..haha, my crazy cousin doesnt have tea to drink in the end..There was a lot of good food..I ate till my stomach almost explode..

Anyway I just came back frm sgh.yep went to visit someone ter who met wif an unfortunate accident..

May God bless her and hope she will have a speedy recovery ..=x

So its back to studying..sigh..can i grumble a bit...???

*sulk*

I cant bring myself to hate her and even show her any form of attitudes..

It doesnt pay to be nice, certainly doesnt..not at least to her..

Let change the topic before i find myself truly hating her..

I got the stupid nafa test today and lobster isnt gonna join me.=((

Although i'm so tempted to just take another mc, i know i have to force/drag/bring myself to go for it.
I wonder how am i to run 1 round and tell the person in charge i dun wana run anymore..?
We shall see..

okie the happy thing or supposedly to be happy thing is that today marks our 4mths being togther...

But yesterday nite, we slept tru and totally forget abt it..Times flies tat fast yeah and soon we will even forget the times we were together for the first time..haha, but i wun forget cos i think that now when i'm in the middle of a r/s i will only rem the time when we were at the beach talking and also during tat crazy nite in cb..

Things can get a little dull sometimes, for once i wish to ask if we can, sometimes, just live in our little world and not care abt wat others gonna do..We go where we want to, eat at wateva place we want to and most importantly do wateva we want to..I understand how going out in grps are sometimes important to a couple, but to me tat usually means that u need to see someone elses face instead of just each other..also meaning "it getting boring, can we have other company"..den again blame it on the fact we are seeing each other more than our parents does of us..

But still, thanks for being wif me, no matter how childish,blur and stupid i get...

Sorry for times that i failed to really listen and lastly i love u still..


*huggies*

Seriously.

I have been putting up wif a particular someone who uses me as a point of reference where she can compare to, attack me and vent wateva frustration she has..

As her stupid fren, i can understand her needs (or at least i know she have such raging anger in her)for doing so but nonetheless, i dun think she treating me like how at least frens should do..so guess wat, i dun intend to forgive her until the day she noe wat she been doing..which is never bcos i dun think i will see her ever again after exams...

May God Bless her and her raging anger..

And i have to admit that just as i always think badmouthing someone is bad, i did it..

Just like she need to get it all out of the system, guess wat, same here, just that i dun abuse others (those who did nothing to me at least) verbally and personally, only to the one who instil me to do so..

sorry, i'm only human..


I hope God will forgive me on this part and also to the ones who badmouth others today..

peace.

I ate 4 cakes just for my birthday and of cos many are belated cakes..

Oh well,on a friday nite, i went to call lena darling to swensen cos i haven had an ice cream cake this yr and have been craving for it..

sucking on a cherry

So we met at Swensen and haven been talking much when Eddy called and said he was nearby and asked if he could join us..i say..ok!

I wanted the waiter to just cut us 3 slices frm the 1kg cake but Lena insist i have to go tru the whole process of singing the birthday song, make a wish and cut the cake..

So it was funny as well as a little humliating..I chose black forest one but i think they have communication breakdown or something..They gave us the cookie and cream one..

And we were so blur until when the lady was serving the slices that i notice that black forest cake are black on the inside not white.. *slap myself on the forehead*

SO wat to do, another cookie and cream this yr..=/

I love the fur, it so foxy..

Yep and Eddy (and actually terrence also) bought me the jacket i wanted frm S&K except that it another design..

Intense

While Baby bought me a bottle of perfume from Hugo Boss..It a more feminie and slightly mature kind of smell..And my mom went gaga over it..dun ask me why..Anyway, i was so surprise tat baby was actually fulfilling part of my wishlist that i made in december..*muackx*

Joe got me a black bag from Espirit..i love the material..

My darlings got me a purple tshirt..

And yes not excluding gifts frm my cousins as well..

Oh yes yesterday i finally caught the final destination 3..hmm, it was quite fast and a little freaky as well and if i were to rate i give it 2 and the half star.

And later in the nite i was craving for something soupy, so baby bought me to amk and ask me to try the ramen..and boy, it was good.I ate the sliced fish ramen..I was feeling so satisfied that i could sleep happily last nite..=))

Thanks baby! * MUACKIES*

Gosh, my holiday is almost over..haiz haiz..

But on the good side, i had my galfrens and baby camel to celeb wif me..so yes i have to smile..=]

And also because i have 3 different celebrations..=p

The first was wif one of my fren, second was clubbing wif Qin, Ivan, Lena and baby camel and third was wif my classmates...

Well, i managed to applied for the change in shift and even Shafiq was pushed up to morning shift as well, so it quite alot of pple in the morning..but ter were only 2 staff nurse...so it still quite bz..

I was so shack and slept til 6 plus when i reach home..

I met the gers at cine..and ivan fren came down to fetch us to MOS.

MOS

The place is damn big..i was feeling very excited (always do when i'm in somewhere new) but after realising how we could lost each other easily is no fun..The reception in the area was realli bad..And It was a major maze inside..When we got in, i and lena came out to meet a few frens..i dunno y they must choose to come at the time when we just got in to club..anyway qin was out wif us and to go back ter to find the guys was like playing hide and seek in a new place..When baby camel arrive, he wasnt feelin well either but i noe he just want to make me happy..Things din get betta, when it get crowded and hot inside.We went to the R&B side..and it was damn small..the whole clubbing situation was one of the worst clubbin situation i eva experience..

So why was it bad..??

1) Different cliche - It reali much more fun when u go wif pple u r comfortable wif and stick wiff u inside the club..Apparently, the cycle follows like this, Ivan follow whereever his frens go, Qin follow Ivan, It wouldnt be nice if Lena was left dancing wif me and camel..so naturally i would want all of us to stick together and dance together..BUT, the fren only cares abt himself..see the reason y i'm piss?

2) Never bring a birthday cake inside!! - Unless u have a table reserved to celeb and blow the candles..

3) Going wif people who dun appreciate clubbing - Sadly to say i dun have gfs who share the same passion as me in this area.=(

We ended early cos Camel aint well and i think everyone has lost the mood for clubbing. I hang out wif baby alone for a while, after tat i went mac to meet them..Celeb and ate my cake ter.

Happy Birthday to ME!!

Me & Qin

Me & Lena

Gosh, notice how tired i look?Yeah, i was practically sleepin in Ivan's fren car..Ivan fren drop us at a mrt station where we took cab to the chalet..We all went to bathe and den play some cards before we call it a nite..But i and my lena darlin went to the pool to sit and talk..We gave up after we realise we were feeding the mosquitoes..


The next day we went kbox..

While waiting for the shuttle bus..

For the first time, finally someone bought me to stickyrice.. i like places which have great ambience..

@ Stickyrice

The food however is only average i find..But they have really interesting glasses..LOL.I still think Thai Express food is better..=)

Haha, the tall slim glass is Barley..and notice how nice the black table is..And they serve water in beautiful red glasses..=))

They got such nice chairs, bar counter and not to mention pool table..Even their basin are nice too..LOL

Shirley Temple

My chocolate Martini and Brain haemorrhage

They got blue huggable pillows at the sofa..=p

feeling tired

I went back early tat nite cos the next day i have to wake up early..

The third celebration is on sunday, i had another chalet wif Lobster, derrick and Lin..But only left me, lobster and derrick at nite..

In the day,me, lobster, lin and baby camel have quite a lot of fun wif rollerbladin..i'm so glad i got camel or else i would have suffer countless bruise..Well, my baby is good wat can i say..haha..

Lena darling came down to find me and lobster drove us to changi village to eat..Lin went home when her bf came and so lena join me for a fast game of bowling before she left..and i played another 2 more rounds wif lobster and derrick..

Have you ever compare the size of ur foot with Mr Macdonald's??

Heeeee..whose smile nicer..

A picture with ronald Macdonald..+)

Haha, that after bowling when we were waiting for derrick to order Ice milo for us.