I..
am
Speechless..
Wish u could reach out for me and pull me out..
I will get out if it soon..
SooN!

Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the Gods
Where’s the street wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds
Isn’t there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and I turn
and I dream of what I need

I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero
till the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the morning light
He’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life

Somewhere after midnight in my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There’s someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder
And rising with the heat
It’s gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I could swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me

Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like a fire in my blood

I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the morning light
He’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life
and He's gotta be strong
and he's gotta be fast
and he's gotta be fresh from the fight


I need a Hero

You r so dao..we wun last..I am not gonna care

Went exercising wif Qin and Ivan..we went to de gym..haha..
tat was yesterday though..For lunch we ate pretty alot..We order a bowl of noodles each and nasi lemak and carrot cake den qin and ivan got desserts..

Went Qin house to bathe..den came down to study at the CC..But got chase out due to one busybody guy from NUS..cos we not member mah..den tat card was Qin sis card..
Well..We made our way to bubble tea shop..sat ter and talk til Lena came..Skinny came too and they surprise me lo..so gave him a big blow..den now hope he alright hahah..
Den Skinny call pig di di come..Den like family gathering..hahah..
Di di, abit shy and soft spoken..went home pretty late..
Today wanna study more..but i still slacking
i think i gonna fail liao..God bless me!

We are young,
Heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands

Love is a battlefield

We are strong,
No one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long,
Both of us knowing..

Love is a battlefield

You're beggin' me to go,
And makin' me stay
Why do you hurt me so bad?
It would help me to know do I stand in your way
Or am I the best thing you've had?

Believe me,
Believe me,
I can't tell you why
But I'm trapped by your love,
And I'm chained to your side

We're losing control will you turn me away
Or touch me deep inside?
And if all this gets old,
Will it still feel the same?
There's no way this will die
But if we get much closer,
I could lose control
And if your heart surrenders,
You'll need me to hold....

LoVe Is a BatTlefIeld!!

Yeah,Yeah
Get up, Get out
Move on, move on,
there’s no doubt
I’m all wrong, you’re right
It’s all the same with you
I’m too thin, too fat
You ask why
So why,
So why,
So why,
So why

On and on,
And on and on,
On and on,
And on and on…
::Chorus::
Don’t want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey!
Take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away,
Away,
Away,
Away,
Awaaaayaaaayaaaay

‘Round and ‘round,
Here we go again
Same old start, same old end
Turn my head up
And turn back again
Same old stuff,
Never ends

Do this, do that
Can’t deal, can’t deal with that
I tune in, tune out
I’ve heard it all before
Hello, goodbye
Never asking me why,
Goodbye,
Goodbye,
Goodbye…

On and on,
And on and on,
On and on,
And on and on…

::Chorus::
Don’t want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away,
Away,
Away,
Away,
Awaaaayaaaayaaaay

::Chorus::
Don’t want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away,
Away,
Away,
Away,
Away

‘Round and ‘round here we go again
Same old story, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff,
Never ends.....

Yep i'm stronger=)
Yesterday nite was great wif my honeys..
I and Lena was shopping ard...Qin joined us a little later..Ivan came along too
And god..i realise i was growing fat..
Eat too much liao..Den Qin say wanna go workout too..
Yesterday i was a little crazy, bought 4 rubber bands just to tie 2 ponytail at de side..
Den qin was so crazy abt my little tails...haha..
We talk abt wat the past..told her wat have been happening in my life for the last two week..
Reach home quite late..Watch condor heroes and den skinny call me..So talked to him til my dad woke up..
Den went to slp..Woke up pretty late this morning..Got to listen to Delta being a dj..so cute..
Yep,thanks for tat song dedication..;)

Gotta get a grip of my life..
Steer it back to the rite place again..
You are rite..What in de freaking world i am doing..Shifting from here to there?
Later going out wif my honey...Here i come my honey baby..
Lets PartY!

Tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why the wind is so cold
Take my heart inside your love

Tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why I feel so blue
Tell me why
Tell me why I love you
My love for you would break my heart

No No No
No way to change my heart
I still wanna be in this endless blue verse
I feel so blue in this white poem

"Love will find the way "
This is the line you used to love
Do you still believe that
while I'm away, read this line again

haiz..do u noe bad gers go to hell?yep i did..now i am in..
Dun trust my words anymore..cos my words, i dun even noe i said it...
sometimes it like an auto machine where i just say without meaning a single word..only realising later tat i actually say tat..sigh..
I hate myself!

Skinny is de best!!

~Memories of ward 58~

Day 9

today was okie..but was really tired..Was pretty occupied..De first step into de ward and i was asked to do things liao...change pampers for tat bed 1..feel happy tat he can go home liao..=)
alot of admission..abt 3..was pretty busy for the first few hrs..
Den dunno y got headache..haiz..
Den was quite funny la..i couldn't find 3 pink cups for the three newly admitted pple..only found2..den i saw he slp so thought i get it for him later..den when i happen to be passing by saw him drink water from urine specimen cup-.-!
hmm...attachment in this week have been pretty fun i guess
yeppy.. haven been updating..and my fever have left me wif a minor brain damage..seriously need go see doc liao..hiaz..cannot rem alot of things..=(
hee..but i happy can work wif tat kenneth look alike guy..he so cute..teach me how to do hypocount in de fastest way..
hahah..my kor msg me..but he asked me to gave zuying his number..haha..like she will call like tat..she a ger lo..

hehe..woke up at 3..
Yeah wat a funny time to wake up..
Yesterday was a night mare..
It amazing i have not go into some shock or something..
For the first time in my whole entire life..
my fever shot up to nice record of 40.1..
My jie and maid keep sponging me..i was damn cold damn miserable..
I went to see tat male doc..beg him to give me an injection but he told me he will gave me a fast acting pill for my fever..
Well it only act after 2 hrs..I gave up and went to slp again at 9..
Woke up and i no fever..tat miracle..
Yesterday was abit horrible..when i told my teacher i got a fever as high as 38.6..she just smile and give me a choice to stay or go home..i mean ermm where is the concern..
Den she ask me buy dunno wat thing to drink which is like very exp..
I got shuqiang get me an starfruit and kiwi juice as recommended..she got me pineapple fruit in stead..-.-!
Luckly my sweet honey came to my rescue..Thanks ger..love u
sigh..cannot understand a certain someone....

~Memories at ward 58~

Day 3, 4 and 5

eh can;t remember much abt the last few days cos short term memory..
Yep but this is wat had happen during the last 4 days..
can say pretty happy wif most of my days..cos i managed to do my dressings on thurs..Was pretty ridiculous cos the patient actually assist me..den heard he got depression tat y abit funny one..haiz..den on fir did like 3 dressings..shiok man..
Den on wed i got a new Kor..haha, my bed 4 ...den they very nice gave me bread to eat when i'm like starving..and a packet of apple juice.
Hmm..
Fought wif someone on fri..haiz..i dunno wat she thinking..Well..i wun be sad over this kind of thing anymore..It not going to get me down..
On friday manage to do NG tube and catheter removal..haha..i think tat kenneth-look-alike very ke lian..
cos for the whole day i keep flinging those dirty stuff on him..eh..sorry haha....
Den my kor discharge on friday..Was abit sad though..
Hmm before he left we remove his stitch..den was bz so neva see him left..But guess wat really got fate..
Got this staff nurse ask me bring this patient down to taxi stand..den i met him ter..Was really happy..
Hmm..yesterday nite i accepted someone..break someone else heart..
i'm sorry baby, dun be sad..i am no good ger..Haiz..

~Memories at ward 58~

Day2

Was a slow day compare to yesterday.
Cos i had to say this words~"i'm so tired.., i'm sian...,is ter anything i can do?"
Today my fav enrolled nurse not working wif me, but he is working near me at de other room 25..
Haha..but i still manage to work damn closely wif him..
Haha, well ter was another male stuff nurse tat took his place..Some how or rather he just remind me of KEnneth..
Manage to do something i have just learn and tat to inject heparine..Cos the patient drip got back flow of blood..Den the hepirine suppose to clot de blood..But first we prime de tubing..cos dunno y got this really big air bubble.very dangerous sia..cos after i done everything den tat Mr look-alike Kenneth tell ne tat guy is under blood precaution..
Eh..dun really like him, whole day slping one den want to take his damn hrly para den dun really like waking him up.
But neva mind got this patient very nice, he like rem my name by hard, cos he called me by my name..
I feel so touch when he thank me by saying my name..First time sia..Cos many dun even do tat..
Well he was really good sia..Cos it took me and siti and this senior stuff nurse to transfer him to de toliet..
Den my room was so stable tat i help out at de other room -24 in stead..
Today finally serve urinal and comode and finally bring patient go toliet..
Learn many things today, was talking to this really skinny ger, but she got hbp..
I was shock but discover it was congenital..Poor ger..Den realise how luckly i was..to be healthy..
But dunno y she gives me de feeling tat she very happy tat alot of pple showing her concern like very happy being sick?sad case..~~~
Den ter was this singh guy, no one understand him but i always ter one..Den he seem so pissed wif me..
But he always still call me though..Cos everytime i ask all de nurses to attend to him, they all say they dun understand him..
My another room no prob sia..Only got this patient dun like to eat..But yesterday he very good eat de papaya..
Haha..den before i go bathe this ah ma..damn cute one lo..Tomolo gonna pop by see her again...
Got Ivan msn and number..hehe..can know u betta..Or else i always dunno y honey's bf one..
Delta..my babyop..take care k..I dun think i be talking to u late at nite liao..
But thanks for talking wif me til de wee hours of de morning
Loving missin ya..*

~Memories of ward 58~

Day1

A great day.But now my ankle got blisters..=(
Was like almost late..Den Delta called me..His sweet voice cool me down sia..haha thanks..
Luckly it not a day where i watch each secs tick by..Each min was filled up, so i guess it not tat bad.
BUt it really bad when i keep doing de same things..
Like taking vital signs..Keeping taking blood pleasure, temperature and their pulse and respiration...argggh..SIANX!!
Manage to do admission.Got a nice partner who can joke wif me..
Oh yeah, got a whole lot of practice for hypocount..Did like abt 10..hahah
Met Jackie during my break so ate wif her..Both of us eat chicken rice..so sian.hospital food is like all de same one lo..
I realise patients this days really smart liao lo..and also noe how to be very sacartic..
i haven noe all patients yet..so must take time to noe them one by one tomolo..
All my patients all so nice and cute..Love them..hee hee..they makes my day..plus a enrolled male nurse..
really patience wif me..Den de staff-nurse-in charge also very cool one ..
Delta..miss you and your cute voice..

HaPPy BIrthDay Jie!!

Gotta wake up at 7 plus when i slept at like 4 in de morning..
Thanks to Mr bear.Got a free ride..
Was so relaxing to sit ter saying nothing at all..
dreaming of stupid things..
Den we went to de market near Qin house..Waited for her come down..
share carrot cake wif LEna..ate wanton mee..
Well, after eatin Bear gave us a long ride to suntec den made another round to marina and drove tru marina..
haha..Heard this song on the radio..call First Cut is the deepest..Now waiting for delta to dl..
Den we went Qin cafe, bear order passion fruit den me and lena order a choc potty and a mellow mellow..wat a choc potty? banana and strawberry wif choc..
YUMMY!! was indulging in chocolates..
Den wat is a mellow mellow..?It celery, apple and watermelon wif indin....(dunno wat tat)hahah...
Was a long day, thnaks to my honey for shooping wif me for my sis present..
Haiz wanted to go for tiger beer party but well no fate i guess..
Met lokmaya and her friends den they also going..
i so jealous..arghh..all de fun i miss..
Well, bought a icecream cake wif choc, strawberry and vanilla flav from swedens..
Anyway, got my poor baby fixed..
Baby, i promise to love ya k..?Forgive me?lol...

K..here is de song~ FIRST CUT IS DE DEEPEST..


I would've given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me, he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again (tryy)
Baby I'll try to love again but I know (o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest Baby I know
the first cut is the deepest
but when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)

Baby I'll try to love again but I know (o-o-oh)
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me he's worst(o-o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

Try to love again

Just about enough
Cant take anymore of you
Just about enough
You got me over the edge
Just about enough
You won’t give me what I deserve
Im no fool
Gotta get away from you

After all you put me through
Boy, Im still in love with you
Oh, but you dont seem to care
You keep pushing my love down the stairs
You got me crying
So I’m leaving you behind

Just about enough
Cant take anymore of you
Just about enough
You got me over the edge
Just about enough
You won't give me what I deserve
I’m no fool
Gotta get away from you

I have given all to you
Gotta change my point of view
‘Cause all I get in return
Is a heart getting torn apart
You got me crying
So Im leaving you behind

Just about enough
Cant take anymore of you
Just about enough
You got me over the edge
Just about enough
You wont give me what I deserve
I’m no fool
Gotta get away from you

Just about enough


STUDY! study.. study.. study

Algernon, hope ya enjoy yesterday ok..
It not planned at all, it just happen..
Yep, yesterday was Algernon big day..
We celebrate it at bishan park.Thanks to lena for buying de cake and Qin for de drinks and yeah my dinner..haha..
Haha..discovered this really nice playground at the park..Den we made our way back to toa payoh to meet this Mr bear.
Reach home pretty late..was mad at my mom for screwing the comp..
So din manage to go online..Slept early...
Hmm..was wondering abt my life..
Dunno wat i really wanted suddenly..
peeps..i think i going back to study..left 2 weeks plus..den its exam..left less den a week den it attachment..Hauz..
Gonna study wif lena later..at bishan..Dunno y she choose tat place too..

i mizz my soulmate..
You'll be ter
wun ya?

Here in the comp lab..
Many things have happen..My jie is right..
I am blinded..to many things..
I treasure any form of relationship wif anybody..But they neva really do..
I think i just lost one of my good friend..She doesn't trust me..
She doubt me, yeah tat wat i needed her to do..
you noe is not tat i can't explain what happen, but it of no use..Cos no matter wat i am going to say..You will think it all fake yeah..
enough of the sad things..Talk abt yesterday instead..
Hmm great time wif lena..But spend alot sia..
spend 20 dollars..Haha..
On crepes wif icecream and chocolate cake at marche and den a honey chicken sandwich at subway.
Had a great time online yesterday nite, but my dad force me sleep..
Hmm sometimes i hate myself..
COs i feel like i am torturing my parents..
I dun mean to do it..I just dun want them to do all this..
I noe it concerns..But i want freedom..they r threatening me in a way..By being so pityful..
Argghhh..i am a bad ger..I feel so threaten, so guilty..
my life is screw k..Just now went to meet Algernon..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY!!

den quite funny la..i neva bring my atm card den need him pay for me..paiseh sia..haha..
Hmm this morning just did this new skin..Not really nice but it simple..
K..Later going to throw some surprises for him..
Was really honoured for Lena..cos he push all his invitations just to go out wif her..haha..
Or did he know something else?haha..
It ur day boy..Enjoy urself..

You're My angel

Here in my eyes
Here in my eyes
Here in my eyes
Here in my eyes

You're so insecure around me boy,
I don't know why
Well you know just how I feel,
what can I do to show you it's real
Shall I climb up to a mountain top
or swim across the sea?
No body ever put on a body fly as you
That flying inside of me
And as they rest

I tell you you're myAngel
fly with me, my angel
take me to your world
I'll show you just how much you mean to me Angel
fly with me, my angel
fallin from the sky
Straight into my heart

Well I've been in and out of what
I thought was love too many times
When you look into my eyes you made me weak,
I quiver inside
Baby you don't realize when you are near
I touch the sky
cos you came along,
put wings around my heart
Took me to the other side of love

coz you are my Angel
fly with me, my angel
take me to your world
I'll show you just how much you mean to me Angel
fly with me, my angel
fallin from the sky
Straight into my heart

yeah, as alot of peeps already knew..
I dunno wat happen either ..
But i dun wish to know anymore..
Just want to live on my life..
But whenever i looked back, it just like a big missing hole..in my life
Yesterday went to work..Talk wif Qin, was deep in thoughts most of the time..
Den realise i was ok..
Den met Alg, Ivan and Lena..
We went to eat at those rows of stalls opp of orchard point..
Whoo..We got seasons in the food..Leaves were just falling everywhere..Not really safe place to eat ah..
Den we play a prank on Eddy.But guess wat, i got my poor retribution
Cos he waited at my house voiddeck...={
I think he slept ter till morning..Scary sia..
Dun understand y his thinking so queer one..
Anyway Qin and Ivan send me home cos scare Eddy become crazy..But he wasn't in Sight..
Shouldn't have made tat call to him, cos he came back..
Am i bad.?
Today gonna dig some surprises..Decided to be a little feminie..Gotta wear a dress..hehe..


if you could have told me everything
you would have found what love is
if you could have told me what was on your mind
I would have shown you the way
someday I'm gonna be older than you
I've never thought beyond that time
I've never imagined the pictures of that life for now
I will try to live for you and for me
I will try to live with love, with dreams
and forever with Tears

Mirror, Mirror lie to me.
Show me what I wanna see.
Mirror, Mirror lie to me.

Why don't I like the girl I see?
The one who's standing right in front of me.
Why don't I think before I speak? (I speak)
I should have listened to that voice inside me.
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night

Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me,
Who's the biggest fool of all.

Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me.
And bring my baby back,
Bring my baby back to me.
Mirror, Mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see (to me)
Mirror, Mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see

Why did I let you walk away?
When all I had to do was say 'I'm sorry'.
I let my pride get in the way (get in the way)
In the heat of the moment I was to blame.
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize

Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me,
Who's the biggest fool of all.
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me.
And bring my baby back,
Bring my baby back to me.

If only wishes could be dreams,
And all my dreams could come true.
There would be two of us standing here in front of you.
If you could show me that someone that I used to be.
Bring back my baby, my baby to me (my baby to me)

Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall, (Oh, oh)
You don't have to tell me,
Who's the biggest fool of all.
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me.
And bring my baby back,
Bring my baby back to me. (my baby back)

Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall, (baby, baby)
You don't have to tell me,
Who's the biggest fool of all. (I'm the biggest fool of all)
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me. (lie to me)
And bring my baby back,(Bring my baby back)
Bring my baby back (Baby back, baby back) to me.

Mirror, Mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror, Mirror lie to me