i pass..
woot.
a miracle arh..
But not very gd sia.all borderline.
but wtf..at least no need take subpaper
wateva~
Life at this medical ward not realli nice.
ter alot of learning opportunities but the staff nurse fierce sia.
I am wif shafiq most of the time.
den siew hoon all alone at another shift
Yesterday did tepid sponging.But yeah it din work.
Patients are pretty okie.
yep..=p

i am insecure~

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no lie
I defy

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean,
I'm coming clean..

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming clean..

Labour ward~

I and Shuqiang were having tons of fun.
In a secret room, playing games..
Well, it was freezing cold yeah.
I wanted to help out but it seem that we are betta off standing aside..
We were Invisible! yeah to them..?we can walk anywhere or do anything we want..

Well, a nurse was nice to open intranet for us but tat stupid ger kept wanting to play her stupid games.
So i gave up and try to help in any rooms.
Den went back cos was bored.She still ter in tat dark room, surfing her stuffs..
I msg pple and pple msg back.
Feeling guilty for slacking, i ran ard looking if any help is needed.
I went to the first room, saw the patient seemingly in pain, her breathing getting louder wif each each breath.
Went to another room, end up watching Tv wif the patient instead.
So quickly got out and ran back to the first room, den saw Shuqiang ter already.
That lady gonna gave birth.
Was really a tough fight, and yeah dun really understand y she have to push everytime she felt pain..?
shortly after which the other room also got another one.
was an eyeopener.
And funny thing was tat though i wasn;t the one who gave birth, i actually felt joy and excitment when i saw the baby pop out..
Yeah, was a very painful procedure.Though this one seem pretty fast.Was really bloody sia..
The mother actually could eat right after tat..The neonate was washed, measured and wrap up..
Haha..was so cute to see it open her eyes for the first time.
The first room was a boy and the second was a ger.
haha..After which we continue slacking.Til it was time to go home

*guilty for slackin`

A good thing my fever went down in the morning.So yeah..din really want to miss today..cos today is at the O & G clinic..Dun really want to spend a sat doing replacement alone ter.Well..the four of us starts slacking the first thing in the morning.But we got pulled to help out to make bed.Den we went for an hour break..At 8.30, we went in..watch that same useless video and den the got allocated into our rooms.as usual, i was wif Siew hoon.Ter were three room i suppose to visit.The first one however was counselloring.God damn,the Doctor was damn cute.=phaha..he reminded me of someone though..he speaks really Good english.God man i love the way he speaks=PWell, like he say i could actually sit at one corner and fall asleep.Evrything is almost repeated.Patients come in say their probs and the medicine they were taking, doctor do a examination-either breast, tummy or *ahem*doctor gave them advice or even prescribe new ones for them.

Den there was the ultrasound..in a not so big room has 4 small cublices.i manage to see the last and the third..The last one was all abt fibroids.third was abt pregyhee.the radiologist was so alert..i was yawning behind her and she could even tell..weet..or did i yawn too loud..haha..maybe=x

Den stupid pple went to break without me.haha..but guess wat i made the rite choice to go to the lab.Cos i manage to see the preg test.the rest couldn't see.break for an hour.Came back wif siew hoon and shuqiang and we were really lucky to see sperm test..haha.the sperms were erm..*cute?*hahah..damn..the way it swim it way across..hahahahokie..i am mad..well.came home wanted to go swimming wif my honey..but i fall sick again.Haiz
jungle fever has got to me =x

lil` ger has fallen sick =x
Yesterday movie-"The Forgotten" was pretty ok..
It took me a while to understand after tat..haha
Slept the whole day..skip breakfast and lunch.
Ate only a few slices of salmon, fishballs and chicken.. for dinner..
Quite sad sia..today got steamboat..but i'm unable to eat.=(
Got a feeling i be staying home tomolo..=@

Okie.Just finish replying a letta.;)
Slept really little..Decided gonna learn to sleep early and have more sleep..
Well, erm return home early..lalalalalla~
Reach home abt 4..Actually felt really bad too lah..should have wait for him to get a bus den leave..But was feeling tired le..yep..sorry..

Yesterday, Went to watch SAW at lido wif zhiyang.
Wat should i say abt tat show..Is really a good show..Well, it a sadist show..haha..so i love it..
Not really tat bloody..But it quite sick when u noe how the victim is gonna die.really sadistic sia.=p
Den met Lena and Ivan at lido..Ivan left shortly after tat..
We hang ard and den went to Pastamania to eat..Lena chose the dish..yep was really nice and cheesy.=D
I am getting fatter..haha..could feel fats forming le...Sigh..*=x(disgusting!)
Went wif Lena to see Sb..as usual, the floodgate did open again.Went to church to pray again/I guess it did become kind of a habit cos everytime i am in toa payoh i will feel like going ter.But we bought some alcohol.
Sat ter and drink..i was shocked..i realise i couldn't hold my liqour well at all..
Den, went back my cab.

To someone i know..i noe u meant well, my letta might be a litttle crude..forgive me..I am slightly pissed and really tired.
A song for u:

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be

Last day of the week..means hell for the next two days..=p
it gonna be a busy weekend..
Well, for once i wun complain my sat is boring and lonely..cos i got pple to spend it wif..
Was interesting, i got to see how they do a CT scan.
yeah, the radiologist try explaining to me but i was too dumb to get it..
They inject some contrast thingy..
But the poor lady cried.i could feel y she was depressed..well, if i was in her shoes.i would too..
Was a little busy today.But well,i love wat i'm doing..
Din manage to gave injection today=x
But i manage to offpuck..nothing much to mention i guess.Was a pretty fine day..=D
Just now got to eat a really good chocolate icecream..Thanks to someone hahah...
Here another song dedicated to no one..Nice song!

There's another world inside of me that you may never see.
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.
Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find.
Maybe it's too far away or
maybe I'm just blind..


WHEN I'M GONE~

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down
even if I could.
I'd give up everything
if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared
but you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone,
love me when I'm gone

When your education x-ray
cannot see under my skin.
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Now roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone.
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone.

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me.
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be,
Ill never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared,
You won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone. (Maybe I'm just blind)

Shoes..it nothing but shoes..
Yep..bought myself a spot shoe from addidas..haha and i got a crush on a ger working ter..
Okie i am mad..
Wanted to get the sandal from Espirit but no money le so i got my high heel from charles and keith..
Spend a total of $150 and tat got my mum's jaw to drop.
Wha..i am really a big spender sia.
Now left only a hundred to last me the rest of my beggar life.
Let me tell you abt a big rip off place in suntec..
hmm forgot it name but well, the almond jucie is such a big rip off..$2 for a small cup the size u pay 40cents for at the vending machine..-.-!
And the foods suck..well when i find out its name den i write abt it again.
Oh well, ter goes our rip off lunch.
I and Lena pay Qin a visit..and she gave us a treat of the mango dream lover..
And i got myself a strawberry soda..
hehe..pple go visit Indinine..it a great cafe..hahaha

I was almost late for my attachment..The taxi driver actually tot i was a doctor cos i say i need to rush ter as i was late..hahha wat a joke..
Was late meeting my honeys.Well, only got an hr to shop.so only bought a small bag..i know i know my mom gonna kill me but well=)
Hmm, today is betta.I felt happier, more chirpy.
Talk more wif my patients.Xian manage to do urine culture..while siew hoon did injection..me?
Smu?hahah..
Today manage to see a Lamina tent insertion.And found out more abt abortion and their procedures.
Interesting sia.
I dunno why my heart jumps and beat furiously and more of a dead (sad) feelings everytime i see her..
How could anyone be so..i dunno..maybe u have ur own feelings buried deep inside too but just so sad tat you gonna end his life.
Read a book on abortion-a real life story.i almost cried while reading it.
It makes me realise how fragile a human life is actually..
ate the patient watermelon..I love working wif this staff nurse.she makes my day.
Today was jokes..it was all abt the jokes..
And guess wat i found out doctor life is not exactly wonderful, sometimes they merely stay overnite working..SAd! and they usually skip their meals..no wonder..have ya eva seen a fat doctor..?hardly rite..?
Tomolo, it is not Fila crash anymore..*grinz*

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Boring, ter was no stars nor sheeps to count, so i count the mins tat ticked by
Feeling guilty, i mean this attachment is meant to be for learning.
But it seem like i doing community service instead.
But well, manage to see how the nurse did the CTG for the preg mother.
It was not really easy to locate the baby heartbeat
New things done or observe: serve bedpan, bring patient to toliet..(wat duh!)Go phamarcy..
Touch babies..
so u see..everything is back to yr 1 basics..
I am practically slacking.Tml is afternoon shift.
I wanna go on a fila spreee..But i dunno if Qin and lena will be accompanying me=(
Found a song..just wanna dedicate to a certain someone+)

Someday
Michael Learns To Rock
In my search for freedom
and peace of mind
I've left the memories behind
Wanna start a new life
but it seems to be rather absurd
when I know the truth
is that I always think of you
Chorus:
Someday someway
together we will be baby
I will take and you will take your time
We'll wait for our fate
cos' nobody owns us baby
We can shake we can shake the rock
Try to throw the picture out of my mind
try to leave the memories behind
Here by the ocean
wave's carry voices from you
Do you know the truth
I am thinking of you too
Chorus:
Someday someway
together we will be baby...
The love we had together
just fades away in time
And now you've got your own world
and I guess I've got mine
But the passion that you planted
in the middle of my heart
is a passion that will never stop

me stupidly got wat i blog just now erase..Hmm..so now got to do a real fast one.
My first time at gynae ward-53
And guess wat is VTP so no lect..but may have CI..
Today is really borin, i mean beside vital signs and helping to make the patients' beds..and yeah to help patient write feedback form..Ter nothing new to do or to practicise..

Hmm except standing along the corridor and go whooha everytime i see a neonate..
Oh well they were really cute..i practically peep everytime i pass by the nursery room.
The only time i manage to really feel one was when i saw Siew hoon ran in the nursery room.
Well, tat boy was like sleeping and he look so beautiful tat i almost afraid if i touch it, i would wake him..but well, i went ahead anyway.hah, and ter was one poor boy tat was use as geniue pig refuses to stop crying, i meant poor thing yeah, bathe already den still kanna wake up from dream to bathe another time just bcos of demo..i was curious and wanted to touch him, when the midwive went away.But i couldn't bear too..and when he saw me..he just stop crying and look right at me..So cute rite..>.<

Alot of boring orientations, watch videos too..
Den ter was this interesting lift.that is manual control..
Which u have to press the button all the way down and hold it til u reach the first floor..well, was lame cos it only two floors..and the lift door look like one which they have for emergency..LOL

Your like an angel. You pocess love and bring love
to any thing or person. You love being
yourself. Even though your cute or not. I think
your just awesome. Like you are peace:)

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*Love,
-it is a neverending heart ache
-A pain so deep
-it hurts
*Love,
-something confused by others
-is something so personel
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When whoever uttered the words, "We always hurt the ones we love," spoke that truism,
they probably had no idea exactly how right they were and continue to be.
For hearts are fragile things, weak and soft they're easily broken, smashed and crushed.
That's why most of us don't wear our hearts on our sleeves, and guard this intimate part of ourselves with great zeal.
That makes it very difficult to hurt the man on the street.
You really have to go out of your way to break through that exterior shell and get to what really hurts.
It's not easy, but it can be done.
But with someone you love, and someone who loves you, that shell isn't there.
That wonderful protective barrier that we all throw up against the world is nonexistent and in the beauty of love we trust our dearest not to crush our delicate emotions or break our fragile hearts.
But even when the love is true and genuine, accidents happen.
With a proverbial flick of the wrist or a prod of the finger, an exposed heart can fall to pieces. We don't mean to, we don't try to, but when handling something as delicate as trust, the slightest fumble can open the floodgate of tears.
In response to this, many bury their hearts deep within, never to let anyone come close regardless of how worthy.
While they lead protected, comfortable lives, they hide themselves from love and all it has to offer.
It's an understandable act when you account for the pain, but it does nothing to fulfill, create, or inspire.
However others refuse to run from the pain.
They glue the shattered pieces of their heart back together and move on, forgiving when appropriate, forgetting when necessary.
Sometimes a broken heart can mean a goodbye, sometimes it's just a new beginning, but for these people, it's never the end, just another obstacle to overcome.
So while the adage of "love hurts" is a truism.
I hope I never get so scared that I run away.
For all of the pain and anguish love has brought me throughout my life, it has also brought me the greatest rewards.
It's one of the few things in life in which you truly get out of it, what you put into it.
When it comes to matters of the heart, the patient and brave shall inherit the earth.
I have been very patient my friends, I just hope now I am brave enough to carry on.
Carry on into the future; carry on forever, seeing past the bad to enjoy the good, moving past the heartbreaks to cherish the heart-swells.
That alone is my goal now, that alone is my goal forever.
.::edited version::.

hmm..found this from one blog.
Gee i'm a stealer..
Well, just came home from a date wif my honey..
A third party tag along, well i dun mind but it frustrating when u dun bring enough money yeah u wanna come when u no money..?
Well, talk abt a man huh!
hee..i look pink today.
help my honey chose her eye shadow..She look gorgeous today.
Almost kiss her cos she got me smitten..hahah.
Meet my mistress, she workin so din join us..=x..Some other time maybe..
Den did a little of shopping.Remind me i need money..i want money..whahah..
shall end here, cos my mum got me bird nest.
i'm a blessed little ger..=)

This i promise you.
I dunno if i'm able to do it..
But i gonna try to love you.
You're sweet and lovable..
I'm sorry for all the suffering i have caused you bcos of my desires.
And so i will try to love you.
To take care,
To respect,
To help you...
To love you like no one else could ever do.
Baby, i will always be with you..
The others doesn't matter anymore..
Just as long as i'm here..
Your heart will need not hurt again.


errr..love sux.life sux.
exam sux..lalalal~ and paper sux too =)
i need a miarcle in my life.
But i it not going to just happen..
I sux..not a good daughter..wat happen to u Jasmine!!!
I sux again..cos i'm a horrible bitchx..
****--------------------Life re-construction-----------------------****

Every night I hear you cry
Don't you wanna tell me why
I'm afraid of waking up without you
Many misunderstand
but when I reach and touch your hand
I can't feel you anymore
You see my million miles away from me tonight
Baby but I'm right beside you

Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see those tears in your eyes
I'd do anything that takes to make it right
Baby
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say goodbye

Whenever so hard to say
Whatever makes you turn away
Can't be any worse than I imagine
You gotta tell me what you need from me
So hold you close so set you free
Coz' I just wanna see you smile again
But I can't help you if you keep me in the dark
Open up your breaking heart and

Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see those tears in your eyes
I'd do anything that takes to make it right
Baby
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say goodbye

I don't know how to ease the pain you're going through
Baby tell me what to do

Talk to me
That's what my love is here for
Can't stand to see those tears in your eyes
I'd do anything that takes to make it right
Should I hold you close or set you free to fly

Baby
Talk to me
Even if it's just to say goodbye

It doesn't matter if your're hurting me anymore
Just get your life back..
I'll be going tru this wif u...

Goodbye To You
by Michelle Branch


Of all the things Ive believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

Ive been searching deep down in my soul
Words that Im hearing are starting to get old
Feels like Im starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I cant live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But its not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ooh, And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you
But Im not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to....
The one thing that I tried to hold on to....
The one thing that I tried to hold on to....

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
Youre my shooting star

what a nice song yeah..
Gotta study or this might be the next that i'm gonna fail too