*Note: Gosh this post is like so rushed..
I cant believe i actually slept tru my whole sunday.It still feels so early for me.In fact im still tired, feel like going back to sleep.ZzZz..
I guess Toad was right, my table was a mess.I got so irritated by the sight of all the clothes and junks everywhere that clearing became the first thing to do when i woke up..ZzZz..still feeling tired..
Oh yes i haven been updating abt babycamel.She still lvl 39.Haiz im taking so long just to level her.Mayb today will get her to hit 40.Her piggy is still alive and has just leveled to 15.Oh, i had another 2 more noobies to train, a level 17 bandit and lvl 1 warrior.Haha.I think i will take forever..=x
Alright shall start updating wat i have been going tru since friday..nothing but fatigue..=((
Lucky friday was IT training, i still feel like i have learnt nothing after stepping out of it.-.-
It was a really relaxing day ba, time pass quite fast.And for wat seem like the first time in my 3 yrs, i have finally walked tat secret underground tunnel..It wasnt scary lo,it looks like ur mrt tunnel except that it is much longer.Haha.i even suggested going blk 9 since now it is the 7th month.LOLx.Crazy me! XD.
Hmm, den michael asked if i wanted to go MOMO, i mean how can i say no? I totally miss tat place.So i went and met another new ger-fren of their..Quite sweet ger also.Haha, all their gal-friends very the sweet and mature type, not like me sia.
The only thing tat got my attention was my exbf and a really goodlooking gay.LOLz
i cant believe that the only time i kept seeing my ex was when im clubbin..gave me a break plzz.Anyway he left shortly la.
I lost count of time and end up clubbing til 2.Tat is like consider so early to me but not when i have a full day ahead later..=x
By the time i reach home is abt 4 le.I slept for like only 2 hrs, wake up to give Micheal a wakeup call and stone at the sofa for a while before starting to get ready.Quicky got ready and rush down to meet Michael.Okay since i owe him a milo and breakfast set i have to make up for it by telling u how sweet he is to get me chocolates in the morning.lolz.
I was feeling so sleepy and having total brain block.We had ventors to gave us talks on trolley.Gosh, they seem to be very tense la.Grr..
And den ter was an inservice talk regarding spine..I tried sleepin but got poke by xy den in the end she also slp..--.--
The rest of the time we spent waiting for our turns to key in our new pw..
I took train wif yy and end up reaching slightly earlier, jess was venting her stress out at bk while i sat ter and eat the tard that xy has given me.We reach the shop at 2.45.whahah..
Hmm the hairstylist was Jess fren btw and he cuteee.lolz
Haha, too bad he taken =/
He started wif me first, i ask him so many quests while jess sat giggling beside me-.-
Ok seriously i wanted to cut short but not really tat short.But i think i still look ok ba.
I still need to get used to my short hair..=(
So i went home and bathe and den spend 1 hr in front of the mirror..haha..
I was so scare i couldnt find my style..lolz.You know how diff hairstyle makes u dress differently..Funnily i look nicer in spag top now..lolz
I look so pink.lolz
Qin say i have lost tat 'naughty' look..
aint this pic proving her wrong?lolz
So wat seem like eternity, i finally dress up and took a cab down to pick Lena and qin up from bugis.Gosh, im so ill-fated la, the taxi uncle is a nut case or mayb he is damn cunning.Arrrgh.
When i got in the cab, he alrdy has the meter running and den he acted bz by diggin for something and asked me why i nvr take the cab tat is in front..So 1 min wasted in driving off, he was still diggin for something and it was the cashcard..I was like thinking wtf which taxi driver doesnt insert the cashcard one..
Taxi uncle: (mumbling loud enough for me to hear) dunno now got ERP anot(turn around) hey you got cashcard?
Me: (wtf!!)NO!
Taxi uncle continue to drive at a speed of 20km/hr or mayb less..Finally he dug out a cashcard and insert to the machine.He start to increase speed but still very slow..I was thinking was it cos of traffic or wat..Den he started talking some crap la ok abt customer wants good service and they will complain if he dun tell them abt all this extra charges..(i was thinking im not one of them lo).Den he continues his story abt some drunkard ger tat vomits in his car and when he ask the bf, the bf lied to him and wat so ever crap that doesnt even concern me la.I just wanted my peace lo.Wat worst is he has an irritating voice..Omg.On da way, i call Qin to arrange where i could have pick her up, he heard tat apparently and only after i have put down the bloody phone...
Taxi uncle: Aiya u ask ur fren wait at taxi stand, i will have to drive tru ERP leh, uncle help u save money want anot?
Me (stupidly still wondering whether at this time got ERP): huh, den ask them wait where?
Taxi uncle: oh ask them wait XXXXXXXX seiyu tat side XXXXXXXX....(eh i cant rem how it exactly go)
Me: HUH?!? still dun understand la.
Taxi uncle: oh lidat ah y not ask them wait at mac donald...(voice trail off to mumbling again) but dunno tat side got ERP anot..
Me(-.-"): Aiya, settle la i ask them wait at mac donald.
I call qin again and change the location and had to bear wif tat irritating voice tru out the journey..When we were almost reaching..Stupid uncle...
Taxi uncle: eh, tat KFC leh not mac donald..sorry wrong instrustion can ask them walk to kfc anot..
Me (omg, i dun drive and i noe the rules of the road..): Uncle u crazy ah, u cannot park ter and wait one lo...
Uncle: oh mayb i drive in to the.....(voice trail off again)
I quickly call Lena while the taxi stop at the traffic junction, she told me drive straight down..So i demand tat the bloody uncle to do so..But he over shot lo..bloody hell.In the end when they got in, he continue his crap ERp nonsense..And i couldnt be bother to listen..Lena and Qin was entertaining him in the most sacartic manner they could.During the whole ride, he took the longest way ever and even miss a turn lo..Too bad, i dunno sg road or else i will scold him left and right..
And he very the crap one lo, say want introduce his over 30 yr old son who has just graduate from NTU to us..I think he and the son all nut case one.
The total cab fare was $17 plus..Bloody guy, i wish i could complain abt him..
Hmm, the birthday party was quite a success..Looking at it makes me wonder how i should celebrate mine?=x
Anyway, most pics are wif the birthday boy..this is my version..I have no time and is lazy to do the pics..so they r in really bad quality..
We sat ter and ate and chat and SB came along and talk to us abit..haha, birthday boy very bz one mah..So yeah, anyway he gave us some champagne to drink and soon after his frens arrive, we all started the cake cuttin ceremony.
Me and the birthday boy.
Took some photos and den we left.Hmm met xy cos she happens to be at east coast waiting for her fren thomas..In the end he was at pasir ris instead..We ended up arrving late and yy was fuming..lolx
Lady in the water was nice..It like ur fairytale kind of movie..Nice..but i will only rate 6/10..It just lack something i guess.Oh that actress eyes was beautiful..omg..
So after the movie, we all squeeze in the car and we went to katong ter to eat at HK cafe again..XD
I had wanton mee but i guess i was suffering from severe gastric that i din had much appeitite either..so sad lo, the wanton was really nice..=((
Ok im very tired, cannot go on anymore.. Tats for all.
Im lovin everyone..^^
P.s: i hope he is fine..i dunno why i just cant seem to handle things well anymore..=(
May the lord be with you..
I was wondering if i should cut my hair leh..=x
I dunn wanna regret even though i noe i will..Gosh.how?
Was just diggin tru all my old photos and found out i actually look terrible in short hair.=((
So i have decided to cut my hair til the shoulder-length?So that mayb i wun look so terrible.
So this is da end to my long hair and back again to short hair..=(
In the past
2 yrs back during christmas!
Cant rem when also.LOL
1 fine day in oct 05..
Dunno when.*lol*
Notice if the shorter it is, it looks worst?Haiz.I should start convincing myself it isnt so bad.
Oh well.=/
TSSU was fun actually but can be abit boring.Hmm too bad tmr i got IT course..
Was supa glad i can feel my instruments, get to know them abit..I want to know them well..lolz
Anyway vick, selina and salwa who have already gone to the OR side have told me wonderful stories abt my preceptor..I heard she is not bad..LOLz.*hopefully*
Dunno why im feeling so shacked la.Dun wanna think anymore.
niteZ!
OT RECEPTIONIm finally done wif reception on both monday and today..Arggh!.
I have learnt so much more den just the things we r suppose to learn..I learn alot abt responsibility..Learn abt the consequences of ignorant..I admit im still rather ignorant and that one day will kill me..=x
Hmm, anyway today is just another supa suay day la.As usual i cant stand all those very proud drs.Luckily so far i think those in cardios seem nice and abit more humble.Anyway the sis was saying tat if we see any drs not wearing shoe covers must stop them and give them a pair.On monday, all those at area 1 was good, only today at area 2, u see alot of peacocks that doesn seem to give a shit abt the whole sterility thingy.So me being the idiotic and bo liao and other words u can find..decide to be really smart and give one pair to an unknown dr..He look down at me and saw the word "Trainee" shining so big in his face.Mayb he got offended la, think such a small fry trying tell him wat to do..But wth la, i was rather polite lo.-.-!
So he make a big fuss and now i understand y he wasnt a surgeon..Cos he know nuts abt the sterility concept..He a AU dr..Understandable rite?i suspect all AU drs are rather nuts in their head one..*roll eyes*
Anyway his lao pan came by and started shouting and making a fuss, that sis has to come out.Anyway sis was nice la, she just told me this "dun worry, u r doing the rite thing". ^^
And so i heard that the GMM was informed and they can fight it out wif the infection control pple..Den it makes me wonder, all started by who ah..ME! -.-"
i got a feeling im going make a name for myself soon.=(
I realise i got such a happening life, everyday is just something different.-.-
Mayb i should be a storyteller instead..Haiz.
Abt everything wif u, i decide to move on.Michael had spend more den his expected time wif me to slap me awake.He pour all those logical stuff (into my wound)that i would have tell others but not to myself.
It somehow true i realise, i can sit here everyday, cry, kick and curse and den swear and he wouldnt even care..So why should i care?*fcuk*
Seriously i wouldnt mind crying for u, but u wouldnt even noe so for wat..So tat fate decide to pity me?No thx.
Jess told me this "never like a guy just bcos he is nice to you"...Mayb it true..
You fooled me once, i fooled you once..We r fair.Now, you have fooled me twice, no way am i allowing a third time..BYE BYE BYE.
I need something else to get me tru this semicharmed life~I still want to hear the truth even though it hurts.
I want to see with my own eyes
Hear from u,
Feel that it is true,
You have changed, you are gone and lastly i have truely lost you.
I dunno the truth hurts.
When i finally realise everything,
I know nothing will change.
You r still gone
You will not come back again...
I need to pray..
Im hooked up to the RnB songs in Jess lap.It makes me wanna dance..lolz
I have been wanting to go momo again.Hopefully next week can, if yy and xy continues wif the thumb up sign.Haha.
Actually i did have a chance to go but wif Tommy? Nahaha, Nahaha..
I m so tired im telling you but i tot it will be a shame to slp so early on a sat nite.
The past 2 days have been learning ab draping.It aint easy for me to rem.i hate the folding stuff, cant seem to grasp tat logic abt the folds.And i realise ter were many fast learners, makes me feel so slow..Somemore i very bur, surely die one.Haha.-sigh
My diet improves slightly la.At least i was only eating cup noodles for 4 out of 6 days..lolz
Im in a crazy mood today.Some thoughts..some "why"? HAHaHa HAHaHa.
im enjoying my sat and my sunday just by rotting away at home..HAHAHA HAHAHA
It's funny how a man only thinks about the... *BEEP!*
You got a real big heart, but I'm lookin' at ya... *BEEP!*
You got a real big brains, but I'm lookin' at ya... *BEEP!*
Girl it ain't no pain in me lookin' at ya... *BEEP!*
I don't give a... *BEEP!*
Keep lookin' at my... *BEEP!*
'Cos it don't mean a thing if you lookin' at my... *BEEP!*
Hah, I'ma do my thing, while you playin' with ya... *BEEP!*
Hahahahahaha -*BEEP* by pussycat dollsHAHAHA HAHAHA =pP.S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LOBSTER.=pIm numb.Dun really want to feel anything much.I need a break from all this thinking, it driving me crazy.I cannot understand y isit that when one is feeling bad enough, things have to become worst?Tat life i guess..Screw it!
oh i guess everyone is feeling it la but i dunno how much it affecting everyone only.
im an emotional idiot, guilt, anger, jealousy, sadness, happiness and all kind of possible emotions u can ever feel get rubs into me very easily..So pls think twice before u talk and hurt my fragile heart..=(
Sometimes i think im really oversensitive so even if i get hurt, i tried not to show it.But as someone say, i aint a good actress.Anyway, today Michael drove me to work in his new toyota.haha and i end up reaching at 7.10am.So early lo that i only saw sisters in the changing room.I took the right smart turn to my locker, unlock, and slowly unpack my stuff.Heard them talking really loudly behind but sister carol seem to be angry, i waited for them to walk back to their locker before i slowly crept to get my clothes.Quicky changed and met xy while i was on the way up.
We got sis Carol to log in to the system before we can log in our temp and den it started, it not the first time we r all getting scolded but this was one of the really terrible one.It the problem wif us wearing shorts to work.Gosh, i secretly knew i was one of them..although it was only 2 times..She shouted and ask us to confess, a few more others came in and she screen them like she gonna shoot at them wif a gun if they were found guilty..like wtf la.
Sadly there were a few who couldnt escaped..But V was sitting next to me and she raised up her hand.I was shocked.I dunno, im still very confused.We were taught when we were young to be honest and admit to our mistakes for who knows yeah we might be pardoned.But NO, time and time again as i watch pple admiting to mistakes they make, they get worst punishment.i never trust that sentence again.I mean of cos we cant always be tat dishonest but ter r times which i think we shouldnt.As long, we know it wrong and willing to change can le ma.Wat good abt admitting when u r not gonna amend ur mistakes?
The consequences to V admitting it was diasterous.Haiz.I wish i could tell her not to.I admire her honestly.Seriously.
Anyway sis carol continued her second round of life firing at us and she seem too piss to go on anymore, so the time was pass to sis M.She just ruin the whole morning.
Before i go on, i admit tat if we wear sloppily to work, it wun work well on our so call professional image.Personally, i wish i wouldnt have to call myself a nurse sometimes when i am looking like i just got out of bed.But if pple wear shorts tat doesnt show their arses, it pretty alright i feel.But i dunno wat wif the sisters and their conservativeness..Anyway, sis Carol must be too mad tat she went out of her mind.She actually demand, order or watever us to wear uniform starting from tmr..!!!Wat abt giving us some grace..just like sis ann from IJ use to say.
So much so..As like i say, it isnt enough, halfway of sis M lesson of anathesia.Some GMM storm in and complain that someone has been snapping photos and something abt concerning patient privacy, like wtf.I only saw young little MO happily snapping pics of the pt, but nvr us.Like wtf la.
And another stupid issue, abt the one microwave oven downstairs and wat we overflooding the cosy corner..The outspoken ones fight for our rights..cheers to them.
I have no comments.
Except the one abt the snapping photos.Just like the issue earlier on.It is just as frustrating.I felt guilty.Somehow i feel its alright as long as i dun get my "models" into troubles can le.Being paranoid just makes me wonder if i was the one tat cause this commotion?
So to xy, yy and ali..Im terribly sorry if let say i was really the one.=(
Oh well, shall not think abt it and wait and see.
Somehow i think sis carol seem more den wat she is really.Im starting to dislike her..
Ive been going tru a rollercoaster ride..Sometimes for no reason, i had high hopes and yet at times, i feel like giving up.It not easy at least to me to wait for someone.All the time, i always had someone ter to take away all the pain.But this time, i just want to taste each drop of it and im healing myself alone!
I wonder if it was worth it and can only find a yes-no answer.yes cos i dun think i can ever find anyone as sincere as u..But no bcos u werent tat sincere after all..
I dun trust guys
I dun trust love
and I dun trust myself..
At least not the part
to being able to love someone else again..
im broken.
im torn.
im sick.
Finally.
*SMILES*
On my way back, i was clearing my inbox and din realise how reluctant am i to delete a certain someone's msg..In total, i had at least a total of 500msgs sent by him..I have deleted quite a lot of useless msg already and i still had 690 msgs inside..Apparently 95% of it is his msg..haha.
i love to keep msgs especially those that i want to keep in memory..So i develop a habit of not deleting my msgs even though they r useless and will only clear them once a month or when my phone demands it.My inbox can pile up to at least 1000 msgs..lolz.
Today i was doing a mass delete cos my phone complain no space due to the pictures.It was 980+ initially so tat means i have delete at least
300msg today..whahaha.Im crazy i noe..Xp
im still as reluctant to delete that 500+msg..dunno y..Read a few of them, and found it terribly sweet tat i had to smile while i was reading them..People might have tot im crazy..Somehow it makes me feel happy..=D
And im only talking abt my old phone-6600.God knows how much more i had in the N70..
Maybe one day i should find a day, sit down and play love songs while i read tru each of his msg all over again.hehe..i think i would have died of diabetes..Sadly, i dunno why we werent suited for each other..=/
Oh well, so much for the past..
Today was just another sian day..We learnt gloving, gowning and scrubbing..I still cant get the concept of gloving so i had to practice alot..=(
Aiyo, i wish some kind soul will help me change my diet..I have been eating nothing but instant noodles, even if it wasnt cup noodles, it will be something instant still..I still cannot accept the idea of buying food to keep it overnite but surprisingly i dun mind overnite dinner..But my dinner everyday is always finished one lo..haiz..
Maybe might just bummed over to ave2 to see if ter anything i can buy in the morning..I dunno if the nasi lemak stall still ter anot lo cos the kpt have been renovated le..+/
Haiz haiz haiz.
Im shacked.
im getting paranoid again..Paranoid when pple who matters to me just dun reply..Mayb im just someone who is very scare of rejection ba..=/
Its has been a rather okay week for me, have been to both AU side and recovery.Somehow i feel really glad i wasnt choosen to be put in this two areas, seriously isnt really nice at all.I dun like the AU dr, they r a little crazy and i dun really like the recovery staff..mayb it just me ba..
On thursday, i met up wif yan and bought her to chomp chomp to eat..Had a really wonderfula and long dinner wif her..=D
Thanks to xy advice, i tried convincing my parents to get a dr to come and examine the wound.My granny flesh got tore off and just praying ter wouldnt be complications.Toad say the dr have given a whole lot of supply of dressing..
*pics taken out
Call her Ali..One of the really nicest ger i ever met
*pics taken out
YY looks happy wif her shoes..Haha.
We collected our shoes on friday and end up going home really late..Had dinner wif ma-moo-mee and sicky again at chomp chomp..I saw that...
CAT again..
That cat seem to only understand wat the auntie-who-cleans-the table say..Anyway she quite bad to the cat one, will kick or scold it..Aiyo but the cat still follows her whereever she goes.
Sat morning was really hard to get tru, i have slept early the night before but im still feeling lazy and sian..Anyway, Carol gave us the feel of the OR.Im not sure how much of those info is gonna get retain but i guess time gives us the chance to practice and practice makes perfect right?
The UNION pple gave us the talk again..I got my chance to slp but somehow im having difficulty..So din have a nice nap at all.After the talk, we all had curry puffs to eat but i din like it all..This time, it tuna inside lo..omg how worst can a curry puff get..-.-
Im getting grumpy..omg!
Okay here the non grumpy-happy part..i had a really good day wif all my gfs..^^
Had to push the meeting time all the way til 5..so sorry to yan who waited for me.We walked to cine and decided to eat at a place i have always been eyeing for a very long time..Haha, and to my surprise the prices are pretty alright..*smiles*
A classic pic.
Qin: EH WAIT
Yan gaves the "im ready look"
*LOLZ
I had my fav waffles icecream wif cherries dip in cherry liqur..*YUMMY* and tats all tat matters..whaha.Anyway we wanted to wait for Lena, so we went to play pool.
A pic at KPOOL
See the darker patch round my mouth area?I got a serious skin problem la, make me feel so ugly and inferior for almost the whole week, but it is healing.. XP
Anyway I still sux at pool, but i had to laugh at a certain someone whose skill sux just as much as mine and worst i think he abit emmm u noe in the mind..i think he come ter quite often to be laughed at..
He plays alone and u noe wat the thing tat makes pple notice him?He bought his own balls, his own chalk and wear gloves..So he wants to act professional huh!?!
He start putting his balls in a straight line vertically across the table..and i seriously have no idea wat kind of pool he wants to play..The weirdest thing, he is like one of those that laughs and smile to himself...When he miss, he shake his head..Omg..so funny can..
In the end we went suki sushi and the food ter is not bad too and some things are cheaper than sakae sushi..had a great dinner..
I will miss ya! =x
We went to boat quay and after walking for some time found a rather crowded pub to settle in..Drank a little and sing only 2 songs before i had to say goodbye and meet xy..
Finally saw wat the master behind the MaidenMasher looks like and another of yy fren.We went to the digital theatre at the new cathay and boy was it quite painful to sit in front..Me and xy was tearing to a certain extent..Anyway Pirates of the Carribean was really nice, funny and Johnny depp is still as comical as ever..=DD
The movie ended at abt 3..We went to Jalan Kayu and i order a egg and paper prata..Din even touch my paper prata lo..lolz.So much for prata, xy send yy and her frens home at cck lo.HAHA.
I wanted to see yy house so we all went up..Her hse very big lo..hehe..I so love her balcony..
We stay for 15 min or so den went home lo..The journey back seem faster somehow..By den i reach home, it was alrdy 6 plus am..So tired and went to slp le.Mameemoo woke me up at 10 like tat and say i have to go visit my ah ma..I din go in the end..Crazy lo..Think shall go next week or something...alone!!!=((
Before i end, want to wish Leech and camel all a very HaPpY BiRtHdaY..^^
What did I do to deserve thisI didnt even get one last kissFrom you...oh baby...godTook your love from meYou needed an angel so it seemsI need to feel your hands all over meI need to feel you kissin' meI need to feel you holdin' meI need to feel your touchCause I miss your love so muchAnd I...Can't keep on living this wayI need you here with meWhy would he take you away..from meIts hard for me to tell you I love youAnd I know I will never hear your voice againWhy did you leave meWhy couldn't you just stayBecause my world is nothing, without youNow I don't know what to do with myselfI wouldve given you anythingJust to make you happyJust to hear you say..that you love meOne last timeI will go to hell and back over and over againJust to prove to you, how much I need you hereThere is nothing that I wouldnt doI cry for youI lied for youI just dont know what to do with myselfI cant stand looking at those pictures on the shelfI know it was just one week ago, stood there and took that pictureTheres just one thing that I wanna knowWhy would god wanna hurt me so badCause you know how much it hurts to be missin' youBaby Im missin' youBaby Im missin' you.. I love you...Whoaaa, GOSH damn it I love youWhy did he take you away, from meBecause i love you soI miss you so much babyI just can't go on baby...:(
Today have finally arrived and I have completed the thing i hate doing; my BCLS. XD
Congrats to myself and the many others who pass, anyway it isnt really tat difficult to do anyway compare back den in poly..
Was a rather sleepy day for me, i still cant wake up even though my conscience was barking at me to pay attention as u noe laziness is getting to me and i did not even read finish my bcls notes..
So tmr is back to Au side, the same as monday except good news is that i wun be seeing a irritating someone cos we be posted to another area..
Nothing else to say except maybe for the fact i still cant fcuking get over you..=x
Last time, you made getting over someone else easy for me, but now who is gonna help me to get over u?Im just here everyday sucking in the pain..I still dun get it why i cant go on..Dun get it why r u ignoring me that badly?I dun bite, i dun scratch den why is it that you dun talk to me anymore and bcos of this it hurting me really bad..
Cos you see...
I dun need ya back,
I dun need ya love,
I just need our frenship to go on..
Everyday
Im feeling bad;
Im feeling sad;
Im feeling guilty;
Im feeling hopeless;
Im feeling worried;
Im feeling desperate.
Until the day when u r willing to say a 'HI'...
Inspire by Mina, i started having crazy idea to make my photos look doll-liked.
Its all started in the morning when i was putting on my new perky brown contact lens which i bought 3 days ago.. I realise i could post for those dolls with brown eyes.. 
Hmm i dun look like a doll..=(
Anyway, lucky xy gave me a lift to work or else i might have been late..^^
Today was really exciting, finally we could tour the OR and ter was this another PRC that join cardio too!I think even the sister finds my contact abit intimidating..she dun seem comfortable as i maintain eye contact..-.-
The inservice talk was interesting, it abt oesterporosis (spell!!!) given by Dr Singh.I tried my very best to stay awake..haha..
After the talk, we all went to collect our locker keys and i am sharing wif chwee sia.Haven put anything in the locker yet..Haha..We gers took so long to change and not forgetting makeup, we spent at least an hr in the toilet..Mostly is me and xy..Poor yy gotcha watch us and sometimes laugh at me!!-.-
So while in the toilet...
I fell aslp in the back seat..When i woke up, we were alrdy reachin..Anyway, i got to eat crabs..Haha, it was some spicy sauce, yy tears while i drank 3 cups of water to drown the burning taste..
The total bill $125..very exp sia..omg..lol.
Next stop we went to buy perfume, hee, nothing really interest me so i only bought one small bottle of Romance..While xy spent a 100 and yy abt 60+?
We walk back to the car and as xy took out the new smiley guy wif the heart shape to replace the old one..I suggest taking photos wif it..haha.
Cute!?!
SWEET!
And then the whole taking photos session start..Haha, we were just sitting in the car wif the radio on and snapping photos..
Inspire by XY
If only i have a car! =x
Like my da jie!
*Pretties!
I met Qin at 8 to return the clothes to her and also to catch up wif her..Glad Lena and John came to join us too..(^^,)Yeah, anyway when Qin was looking at all this photo she comment how most of her pri sch frens who saw me before couldnt recognise me at all..My pics and real-life is a total different..Omg tat means i must be ugly in real life..=(
Anyway my features cant make it to look like a doll..In the end when i edit some of this pics..I come up wif very weird yet unusually nice style..Im pleased.!
One of those artsy pics!
*Closest to being the fairest doll.haha
Do you like dolls?
Well, i like! Funny how i never really like soft toys,even as a little ger, i never took fancy to all ur teddy bears and soft toy animals..But just like all the little gers, i love dolls.But not all kinds of dolls, i love dressing my barbie dolls but i especially love the bigger dolls, the kind where u can carry them as if they were ur baby..
I know as a young ger den, i was the same old Jazzy that believes in spiritual existance, i rem believing my doll has a life of it own, not that it actually talk or smile or wink at me but i remember sometimes when i hold it, i could feel its existance wif me and as eerie as it is, i feel warm and safe..
I think alot of gers would have felt that way too or in some way or another have a strange faith that their doll have soul..Or maybe it just some childhood fantasy..You know how wild little kids imgination could be at times..
Haha, if u still hasnt got it, i have been watching The DoLL Master.
She the doll master!
The show was touching although a little absurd at some point..I like the dolls.They are...i dunno what word to describe them..But after watching that show, it somehow evoke that interest in me again and of cos bring back memories of me and my dolls..I still wonder wat happen to them..Cant rem if im the one who disown them or my parents threw them away..
The actress, Im Eun-kyung, was really doll-liked..She has this really nice eyes too..Omg im so in love wif her face.. She is the only thing that i like in the whole show..whaha..
Mina (Im Eun-kyung) looks like a crying doll!
You kill that doll, you kill her..
Dump by her owner. =(
Today is the last day where we can slack abt, where i can practice my sudoku le..Soon is gonna be nothing but stress..Haiz.
Anyway, i have been thinking alot since that day, found myself going rounds in my circle of thoughts..And i realise one thing, it isnt so bad after all..Dunno, somehow now everything seem like a blessing in disguise..Life is starting to feel better and better..I dunno if me and him still can be frens or not and it still sadden me at the thought that we might just disappear totally from each other life but i'm truely helpless if fate really want it like tat..Although some believe that fate lies in our own hands, but i need time now away to heal myself and for him, mayb he just being understanding by giving that space to me but alas so much so that he seem like he really avoiding me..So i really dunno wat i should have done..
Anyway on the brighter side, im freed..It feels so good when u dun have to think of another person, wonder wat he doing la, whether he eating well and stuff like tat..Although the feeling of missing someone feels good as well.It nice to not always stick to one person i guess..haha the freedom of flirting..LOLx.Not that i m going ard to flirt but whenever im attached, i really restrict myself alot..So now i had all the freedom to go out wif diff guys..haha..
I truely enjoy the art of slacking wif my guy frens now so yeah feel really free and happy..like a bird?Yep! XD
Anyway i just got to know this self proclaimed ah-beng guy, a campmate of leech.He introduce to me bcos i said i wanted to have a hell ride on a bike..His was super4, not a big shot bike but it the thoughts that counts rite?Yeah anyway this nice ah beng bought me on a ride to town and tour one round and den back to the express way..For the first time, i feel wat is it like to be travelling at 12o..It just really good enough for me..The wind seem to blow at my bleeding wound..After the ride, i felt so much better..=p
Thanks to Mr Ah beng. *lolz*
Tmr we going tian xia di yi to eat..haha.yummy!!
Good nite!
Playing : You Hong Ming - Ai wo de ren he wo ai de ren
As the wind mess my hair ard my face, i sat ter wif a teary eye..
It all happening again..Here i am, heart broken,here another person who is as heart broken as me..All i see is me in his eyes and all he see is another him in my heart..
Oh God tell me pls, tell me wat a ger to do?
I sat ter wif my head in my hands..
I have no answer, i only know that we both need to be blessed and i hope we will both be able to move on..Time will heal all wounds, i still believe in that..Mayb urs just takes a little longer and i just need more time..
Its only been a week plus but to me, a month has passed..Time is moving slower and i cant wait to see wat it has install for me.Im still as hopeful..
I hope fate will be a little more kinder to me, that all i wish for now..I wish to set my life straight again..free from all this agony of you love me, i love you not r/s..
Til den, im just swimming towards the time where i could finally reach the shore..Til den, Time will tell..
May God bless you. :]
P.S: somehow, out of this pain, i feel happiness for u.You are just like a bird and i love to see you fly..
IM BACK!!
Have been mapling and Baby camel finally reach lvl 38 so she got to wear her blue moonlight..I dunno why recently i have been dressing her in blue..She looks really good when she blue..haha..
YY's fishball looks cool.
Today we finally got our long awaited news..And boy, fate is still as cruel to me..Arggh..Just before Carol starts to mention the names for Cardio, i declare loudly that i dun ever wish to be in ter..and true enough, my name was the first to be called..Someone pls tell me it isnt so bad..
Anyway i still hasnt blog abt wat happen on tat wonderful sat afternoon..
Lets see, i went lena hse first and waited for her to change..She took 1 hr like tat lo..I err, fall aslp on her chair...HAHA..We made arrangements to meet at doby gaut..Was trying clothes at a shop when shuyan arrives..We were trying so many clothes in the end only bought one each..Haha..Lena was a little reluctant...
We walk all the way to IOI cos i wanted to eat the wanton mee ter..Bump into the twin bros and SP.Di was alrdy ter looking as dead as a zombie..So we and the walking zombie went to eat beancurd first before going to eat the wanton mee..Arghh, i tell u the pple ter has really bad customer service..It is like so wat if they can cook the best wanton noodles, their attitudes suck lo..All of us were very displeased..
We den walked down to Bugis and took our beloved neoprint..The neoprint is actually good but the 3 of us were wearing skirts so we couldnt do much of crazy poses..And i dunno why i look like a bimbo in it..=/
Haha ok, i gonna tell u something very ridiculous abt Lena..we were all taking the escalator down to the next level.When i heard her saying "5,4,3,2,1..Kahboom!"
The next second, the escalator stopped..I was like no comments alrdy..She could perform magic..!!!
Ask her how she could do tat man, anyway after we send her zombie bf off in a taxi, we walk again to Esplanade..
I love the art pieces
I look fat but the backgrd, beautiful..
We chose to go Hagen daz..How i love that place..XD
We order Fondue, was expensive but really really good..ahh, i was in heaven at that moment of time..
FONDUE
- fruits, 4 diff flavours of ice cream, cookies, cakes..
I love that smile of hers..
It not everyday that we get to take pics like this
I know this sounds silly but eating chocolates do actually makes me high..*rofl.I think i was a little tired also..But anyway we did alot of pics taking and got hell alot of attention..
LENA captures a pic of herself and swings her handphone at my face.."Cute?"
ME: Omg, this is so nice, i also want to do one..
*Grab my camera phone and snap another pic of myself..
Lena: EH okay la, but it diff from mine, u never smile and i got smile, mine looks sweeter lo..HAHA..
ME: OKOK FINE, i will take one like urs..
ME: SEE !!
LENA: HAHA, looks abit retarded..
ME:-.-!
SHE took another one..
I give up..
haha, i know how bimbolic the conversation sounds, but i was totally out of my mind tat day, i guess i wasnt really myself and i dunno why..Me and lena was teasing each other the whole time but we still love each other at the end of the day..+)
It late alrdy and i wanna go and slp..
A very happy yet tired look..
My fondue..
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