Listening to Rihanna -
UnfaithfulHave ya heard this song before?
It a very powerful emo song i tell ya..Make me think and think of the past again..
I heard it during work when im in the change room or when im eating..
Ask alberto to help me dl..And now im playing it over and over again..
Make me think how i really din want to hurt him..I should be glad yeah that i din..=)
Somehow i wonder would u rather be the one to cheat or the one being cheated?
I guess i rather be the one who cheat..=p
Cos i can nvr be one of a cheater..=x
Anyway i have been mapling recently again..And babycamel just lvled..
Somehow i like playing babycamel rather den fuji..SO hard to level fuji sia..=/
Nite shift was really good..Although i had a crazy exp wif lung & kidney transplant on the first nite..My second nite was pretty good..I scrub appendix again..LOL
I always scrub for appendix when im on nite..My third nite was totally the best..
Had a fun experience wif yk and yeah the poor lizard that die of suffocation and all those story telling..was loads of fun..
Now it back to reality where hells just await..I hate my schedule, it super crazy..long hrs everyday..oh my give me a break plsss..
Now it 2am alrdy and my mouth itchy for some instant noodles..heh.
I realise in time to come im going to be really fat..=x
Cos i keep eating and lazing ard all the time..Someone motivate me to exercise can??0.O
I getting fatter le
So Everyone associate me wif the piggy..=x
Talking abt food..Just the other day, me and yan went to source for choc fondue..
Anderson's
I dunno why they so stingy wif the chocolate leh..
Comment: I dun like their icecream.The Chocolate is good but too little..I doubt they wash those strawberries..KNS!
Score:7 1/2 / 10
AT TCC!!
Im somehow bored wif tcc..
Gosh, im fussy.
oh boy, i should be going to bed..It late alrdy..
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...A murderer
Sneak preview of the weekends.
SAT.
Vicky's precious.
Wat a beautiful baby, only 1 mth old and she know how to sleep in style..lolz
The famous chicken ayam in PS
I finally got to eat it..Special thanks to albert for queuing for me..=DD
After which we went to a rather quiet ktv pub to slack and yes to sing..At first it was only the 2 of us and den another grp came..Oh and we cheer this uncle on cos he has such a good voice..I love it when he sings michael learns to rock songs..He rocks man!
Tipsy me!
Remember how i should be stopped at all cost from drinking?
Slack at Clarke quay wif Nana and albert, was too tired to club wif di..
Sun.
It wasnt any normal sunday..
(Shawniee's messy hair)
Shawnniee call and made me move my lazy ass out of the hse..
Fetch Nana and we made out way down to book chalet.
Ate nasi lemak at Changi village *yummy*
Slack or was it slept in shawnniee hse
I think he grew skinner than he alrdy was.. *GASP*
Met Wan after that..
Went Changi Village (again!)
Saw those beautiful transexual
Chat for an hr
Went back to serangoon
Wan performed wonderful magic card tricks..
Mon.
Mac!
Everytime i see him, i like to think that im going out wif Kaneshiro Takeshi.
*GRINZ*
Sadly he lack that charisma of Takeshi
So everytime when he doesnt talk, i will be looking at him in admiration..hahah.
We went sentosa
with his collegeaues..
I so odd one out lo..
So feel really bored la
Cos i dun play volleyball nor frisbee or soccer.
Bored..
Just woke up from a short nap in the sun..=D
At the end of the day, im still as fair..-.-
Haiz, im gonna turn 21 in a month time and i still look like im 16..
Cannot sia..
=/ =/ =/
TELL ME HOW TO LOOK OLDER???
I have to go and sleep soon..
Cos tmr im at MR AGASTHIAN theatre..Goodie thing is that im only going to work til 1..heeee
Recently i have been missing him badly again.
I realise everytime i see him, i will become lovesick aftertat..I dunno why..=X
From the moment i wake up, to the moment i sleep, to every min when im not thinking of any thing else.. im always thinking and thinking of him..=X
I gueess all i just wanna say is ..
Good morning!
I have been on a long 'holiday' and today im finally suppose to work.Haiz..
I had a really fun and interesting weekend and really wanted to post up some pics..
Hee not now, maybe some other time..
Haiz, just as expected that person is not sincere..
Maybe im still affected by it cos just now when i log on to my msn..
This fren of mine msg me wif the intention of questioning my nick..
However i found his nick more interesting...
XXXXXXX ( Work ): Once again I did a wrong thing and hurt someonenth wrong rite? Like i say i was still hoping that person say sorry but he din so that why im still very affected..But this sentence sounds so wrong..
It sound like the person is sorry but yet not that sorry for doing the other person wrong..
i dunno, maybe he is just innocently putting it that way, since i always feel that he has a nature of a 10yr old kid..
So i corrected him..
In case u still dunno wat sound quite wrong..
How do u like it if ur bf hurt u, and when u go online and u see that sentence beside his nick..
You'll feel like killing him..Is like although the words sound so innocent, ter seem to be hidden intention that yess he
HURT you...
although he might be sorry for hurting you but YESS he
HURT you..!!And the wrong thing suddenly dun seem that wrong..
There is this sacartic tone behind it..
I feel that if u r really sorry abt hurting someone, you dun have to express that you have hurt someone..You could have wrote something else like
"XXXXXXX ( Work ): im sorry..."
ok den maybe im just paranoid..=/
Oh yes it sat and i dun have to work!=P
But im going down later to visit Vicky and her baby.:)
Last nite, i dunno wat happen to me or should i say i dunno why i had very poor tolerance to alcohol suddenly..I feel like laughing abt it..
I went drinking wif albert at the mini bar on the second floor of Ti Amo.I only had like 1/2 cup of "blow out" and it really blow me out..-.-
Recently i cannot tolerate alcohol..it was so bad and i dunno why..(><) Oh yeah so anyway, i was alrdy very drunk without knowing it.. We walked to my hse, i was still feeling ok..No feeling of puking or watsoever..Den dunno why just right in front of my door step, peanut started barking nonstop. As i dig for my key, a sense of fatigue hit me really hard and all i just feel like doing was to get into the hse quickly and lie down.. I manage to open the door..wanted to quickly close the door and i rem MY PHONE was still wif him and reminded him before i close my second door.. Albert pass me the phone..Den i remember smiling sheepishly at him while waving goodbye to him.. Next thing i thought i close the door when i woke up (with peanut barking in the backgrd) and realise i had KO and was hugging to the door wif it half open still..OH MY GOD! I laugh at myself and quickly got up to close it before throwing myself down on the sofa to KO again..Woke up again and decide to go into my room to sleep.. I thought i was alright once again, i went to my study room to put down my bag when that feeling hit me again.. I knew exactly wat to do.. I Wanted to throw myself at the sofa again when i saw my dad looking at the sofa(i dunno why he was looking at the sofa either oO?)...Somehow seeing my dad give me a purge of energy to walk to my room instead to pull out my bed..lolz Maybe i should stay away from alcohol.:( It give me low blood pressure that explain the fainting spell.. Haha...LOSER!! Albert din noe that i KO at the door i think, so i hope he dun read my blog..LOLz But i must say that pub is pretty good..Although they have limited drinks but the ambience is really nice with big and comfy seats.. We chose to sit at the japanese style..And the funny thing was that our table have a small tv showing cartoon network.. We watch TOM & Jerry and Fantastic Four tru out the nite.. We also had a little camwhoring session of each other..lolz
At the kopitiam.
COSMOPOLITAN
nice color drink but taste like cough syrup.=
Posing wif his COSMOPLITAN
MY turn!
Obviously DRUNK!
hahahhaa!
Haiz im still angry wif a particular someone..
Since young, i really dun like it when im angry wif someone and all he/she do is to apologise and expecting me to forgive them without any actions of showing how sorry they are..
If a word of "sorry" can cure every damage den next time if i hurt u, all i have to do is to say sorry can alrdy rite?
That sorry can patch the hurt i cause u mah?
Yesterday i never felt so screwed up..i nvr felt so violated..I feel so pissed and angry that i couldnt really concentrate wat im doing..fcuk man.
DO You know how much i feel like killing u? If u do, dun come near me..But if u claim u love me and u really do, u should just lay urself infront of me and let me kill u..Arggh!
CAN U FEEL MY FIERY?
I love ur frenship, i think u make such a good fren until u do wat u do and den everything is gone..
You know is not abt my ex that i cant leave behind..im never a person who cant move on (not for long)..
You know is not abt my ex hurting me that i cant trust..
Is actually guys like u who hurt me that made me faithless when it come to guys and make me run back to my past, hugging it and wishing it come back to life..
And that why i nvr want to love again, cos i feared loving the wrong person..
So dun say u love me, cos u noe u nvr did..
You have just once again push me deeper into the pit which im alrdy in..
I will nvr trust.
I will be more careful wif guys like u
Once again, i have learn.
:((((
*I need to find a way to wash away my pain once again..*
Gosh i dunno wat else to do before i call it a day!
So here i am bloggin abt nothing but nonsense..
My lappy alot of rubbish i realise..I cant believe i so sentimental that even my poly projects i also dun want to delete..-.-
So over the yrs, it collect tons of programmes, picts, music (some i dun even noe why i have)...Arggh i need a IT genius to help me..
But i have to say lucky my lappy isnt as laggy as nana's or sicky..=p
Looking at all my pic, i cant believe how i actually "evolve" tru the yrs..lolz
I got this funny concept that makes me run to the salon to get a extreme haircut whenever i feel like i want to "start my life anew"..rarr~
2004 in dec
I think i kept shoulder-length hair most of the time..=/
Poly days when i tried keeping long hair once again..
2006: I tried highlight!
2006: Longest hair i ever kept!
Den someone made me really sad and unable to move on..:(
So short hair again..
Haiz
(it din help me to move on)
Now im growing my hair once again..
Let look at some pic i never post up..hmm why ah?
Me and YY
Very scary and ugly right?
(no wonder i nvr put up)
-hahaha-
dunno wat i taking also..-.-
Arrrgh enough of crazy weird photos le..
Let me tell u if u r bored and need to watch a movie
WATCH
Pan's Labyrinth
Thats if you like fairytales and fantasy stories..
And a monster like this would not give u nightmares at nite..
I still get the bumps looking at it..
eeeek~
sleeping time!!
NOW IT ALL OVER finally...Back to my chair on a rainy sunday evening typing this..I guess i kinda lost the feeling to blog..Dunno why.
Oh well shall do so or else i will be back in my bed sleeping again..
Cant blame me ok?I have been having very little sleep for the whole week..And i dun wanna have insomnia tonite..Always do when i sleep way too much in the day..
WoRK has been really strangely better..Communication wif my seniors seem better somehow..And i had a really strong determination this week too..Strong determination to do watever i think is right, watever i think is impossible yet possible..
This determination however set me doing something that drain me out for the whole entire week- Qin special present..
I dun remember making something (be it cooking?a card? folding stuff??) for my bf before..Cos i always think i suck at art and aint creative and simply YES cannot be bother to rack my brain (since i think i not going to be good at it)hmmm..
Strangely i wanted to make a card for her..BUT i dun really know how to go abt doing it..I ran to a few pple telling them abt my opinion..Slowly i picked up ideas and generate new one..But the problem wif me is that i have all the part and pieces wif me but dun really noe how to piece them together..Nana however is suppose to be my partner in this but she simply too busy (that i got very pissed and almost gave up).
So i wasted
monday and
tuesday looking and thinking..
Wednesday, Xy followed me and after 1 hr plus or so wasted again in that shop..She helped me to form the foundation and den it just got easier chosing wat i want..
I went home excitedly and edit some pictures..
Thursday morning, ran to uncle kason place and show him wat i got..As well as arrange some things he could help me to do..At work, i finally scrub cabg ( the first in the week) and strangely i did rather well and yes everyone was happy (i hope!).It was a good day and i claim my 2 hrs off and went home really early..Went to shop wif Qin after that wif the intention to get her the other present..Mission wasnt that succssful..
Went home and continue doing the thing wif uncle kason til 4am..
Friday, I was totally shacked..Sis A was persistent that i should scrub for mr Ag..DO i look like i have a choice..?=.=
The second case i double wif sis N.Wasnt tat bad but it seriously scary to scrub for him..
Met nana and we w0rk on it til 4 am..
SAT..I was totally shacked..It was only me and Xt but luckily we manage to finish in time..
Went home and tried to catch some nap.Met nana and did some last min touch up..
TIME FOR THE PARTY!!
What a big and beautiful cake..And i tell you it cannot be bought cos it made by her sis..At first i was skeptical abt it taste cos i hate cream and it look creamy but guess wat, it wasnt and it was simply nice..(i ate at least 5 pieces of that cake)=D
Luckly her.
Me and nana reach late enough to grab some food before the time came for the birthday ger to cut her cake..
It was really sweet how her primary sch frens arrange everything for her..Wif the powerpoint presentation and all..It was really funny and well...SWEET..
And den it phototaking..
DIN noe why i became lazy so i snap only a few..Haha..
QIN and family.
Primary sch frens
(the gers side)
IVAN AND QIN
Her secondary sch frens..
Her primary and poly frens make the biggest population..While she only has 3 pple from secondary..Show how much she really doesnt like IJ (just kidding!)..
So the rest of the night we played some guessing games and card games..Forfeit is of cos drinking..And as usual i got red fast.Haiz..I think i was just way too shacked that drinking just makes me so wanna KO..
So i retire early like 2 am?Went to sleep and woke up and found nana playing mahjong card wif Qin's primary sch frens..Went back to sleep again..
NEXT morning ate another 3 slices of cakes for breakfast..
Daryl came to gave us a lift to tpy..Went home and Sleeepppp..finally...
I guess i can resume back to normal again..But there is still a question that is bothering me and it not going to let go until the matter is over..arggh!
Oh well..=x
ANYWAY A GREAT THANKS TO UNCLE KASON FOR HELPING ME AND ALL THE LIFT TO WORK AS WELL AS A GOOD BREAKFAST IN THE MORNING...XD
Thats all..
How i am going to miss nana..=xx
and her treat of chocolate fondue at Maestro Bistro..
Nana cannot hor, next time must be hagen daz
I love crepes.
off to dinner//
SIANZATION!!
That why im bloggin.
Gosh im so happy yesterday, it like after such a bad week i had, i manage to club (finally) and caught Deathnote 2.=D
I love the music, i love to dance..I love to see how pple wouldnt care how they look when they shake their body..I love the adrenaline rush that alcohol gaves..
I LOVE CLUBBING!!I love their idea of a live band at
DXO.Although it started wif 4 gers at the dance floor to like a crowd?But as i and nana sat there watching pple..I realise that wat clubbing all abt yeah..To let it all out, dance like you never dance before..haha..
Di came much later and mingle ard wif his grp of army frens (they were all so boyz!)..
How i regret acknowleding him as my di bcos of him, me and nana got swarmed ard by them (like bees to honey)
Common i know..i was so particular abt being touch (at wrong areas) or probably being touched at all( by strangers) but i gave up in the end since one of his fren were so persistent to dance wif me..And he was such a possessive dance partner, it like when he want to go to the gents, i have to go wif him..(wtf!) den when i refused (bcos the music was too damn good), he wanted me to hook pinkies wif him that i wouldnt be dancing wif anyone else until he come back..-.-
He however is still a boy..but a very cute boy i must admit..hahha.
(probably will date him if he my age or older)
Anyway Kason uncle (not that he is that old but a nick given by Nana) agreed to watch DEATHNOTE wif me..I was really so shacked that i could doze off in like 5 mins but i guess the movie was interesting enough to keep me really awake..hah!
I was surprised that the theatre was really empty (less than 15 pple)..Which is good bcos i realise me and kason uncle was really noisy in the movie..hahah
And i was watching halfway when i realise
SHIT where is my ring???I lost that ring..*saded*
I dunno how i could really be that careless..sigh.Even after the movie, kason uncle and me went searching around for it..He even more on den me probably cos he knew the value of it to me..
I was like way too tired but yet it keep bothering me like i have to really find my ring..Haiz..
I want my ring back cos it the first ring i ever had and i really dun want lose it cos i alrdy lose the person who gave me that ring..Not like it matter anymore since the ring no longer hold that impt value that we r lovers..=(
So i dunno if losing the ring means that i should just move on..
Oh well, i believe that the ring will come back to me if the person is meant to do the same..
Anyway im happy i finally watched a movie..Gosh dunno how freaking long since i caught a movie..I m grateful for that company kason uncle gave me..=D
I only had 2 hrs of sleep before meeting Kason uncle for breakfast cum lunch..We went maxwell market for a good bowl of yong tau fu along wif 2 soft boiled egg..I was supa hungry..haha..
Went back to work even though after that i found out i dun have to..Grr and i m so dead by monday..=x
Oh well, i guess i just gotta learn things the hard way cos i got too many bad habits..Sigh!
Next movie i wanna catch is CONFESSION OF PAIN >.<
Oh btw wat is "lup mee dee dee"?
Listening to : Tian Shi aka angel by ?????
Arrgh i gave up.
I feel so screwed up..
I cant even take a proper nap, that how badly im screwed...
And i tell you why..
It all begin when i say something maybe i shouldnt have..bcos i cant reason why..
Nvm.
It all went pretty ok..
Or at least quite ok..
And den just when i was quite please wif myself..
Some D-o-B must come and screw things up for me..
She threw my face right out of the door to probably out of singapore..
She made me so speechless,
So frighten
and now im traumatise..
And i did not do anything wrong..
I did not kill a life,
I did not lose my things..
So why?
Why must u teach me in the most cruel way?
Sigh-
I dun think 2007 will ever be better..
It just the second day of work and it bitter..
i so wanna run away from everything...
How i wish.
It the second day of yr 2007..
It so good to be at home, able to dream and sit peacefully in front of the comp to blog.=p
Tons of picts to follow up, From my hp, other's hp as well as my camera..So gotta take a whole afternoon till my steam boat dinner is ready just to update every bit..
You know seriously i din really have a plan but a few invitations here and there to spend my countdown..I could seriously take up any of the invitation as long as it means my gfs are comfortable and it gonna be fun or interesting or exciting..haha
So in the afternoon after completing all my household chores, i sat down in front of the comp, sign in to msn and hoppin to get some plans out of pple..lolz
And den Harry (who went mia for months) told me abt his new yr plan..=)
He going to rent a boat wif all his frens and yeah there will be wine..
So after some pondering here and there and discussing wif nana and yan..OH well, why not??
Yan came over my house really early and we waited for nana who arrived (10 mins before 9) at my void deck when i was talking to wan..
Nana and yan helped to dress me up..haha.
Presenting:
Sweet nana
Gothic Yan
ME!
Harry came pick us and one of his fren, ivan.Was almost late and all.But was still in time somehow..Was kinda shock cos i thought his fren are like younger but turn out was like his fren's fren kinda thing so..oh well..Doesnt matter cos i m still spending it wif my gfs..=x
How amazing it is when i get to do wat i was always hopin to do, that is to take picts of the views around esplanade..=DD
It so wonderful to be snapping picts here and there that i did not really talk much to the other pple on the boat and not to forget neglect my gfs..I cant help it, it so breathtaking..
THE "jetty"
(where we departed)
They have been standing pretty every nite.
Fullerton Hotel.
It only 10 plus and so many pple,i bet there no oxygen to breathe and very squeezy..hah!
other boats.
I nvr noticed this at all..
I love this pict..=D
3 muskerteers.
A group pict.
a lil Camwhoring session while waiting for the fireworks to start
i love the wind
Yan love the wind too..
Stupid harry creeping behind me *humph!*
Playing wif fireworks
and
finally
.
.
.
The firework
Arggh so hard to take a pic of firework so i video it down..
So the aftermath of countdown, clubbing and alot of singing which left us nothing but sore throat.
WE all decide to sleep over at Yan house and stone til very late afternoon before deciding to move our butts out to our respectively house to bathe and change before meeting up again at doby gaut..
We ate at MR BEAN.
A very appealing photo of pasta.
(use flash)
Want some?
We r all very shacked.
So we walked around while tryin to decide a real plan and ended up walking to esplanade.Meanwhile i was like a little photographer snapping picts of watever i think was interesting..LOL.
Somehow i thought this was beautiful..
Those figurines need a bath..
Blind and cripple???
First time i actually saw a rat wif a long nose.
hmmm...
An artwork.
P.S: I hate this, when just in the beginning i was saying that it is so peaceful bloggin..My mom have to break tat peace of mine..Argggh..It like i hate it lo..I hate to have my thoughts running in head to be disrupted..And the best i have to fight wif toad..Yeah call me selfish but watever..If in the first place u tell me wat u want me to do i dun mind..But not when im in the middle of bloggin..I will nvr stop bloggin half way no matter wat and it not easy for me to find such a nice peaceful time to blog..Im so piss.So alot of pics are omit cos my mood was ruin..
But anyway
Happy Yr 2007 everyone..^-^
May this yr be filled wif lotsa love and joy
May all our resolution come true
Have a Great yr ahead!
*cheers*
