Fancy a game of sudoku? 
That the only thing that kept my mind off from thinking of rubbish and kept my mind awake from the long boring lectures, make my trip on the mrt shorter and most importantly keep me feeling occupied..I have started doing it again wif lena yesterday..and today i was doing wif yy..And each time we finish a puzzle, we will write the date and maybe little comments..lolx
Today lectures is all abt the PCR and how to document..Was quite enriching la, not that i actually pay very much attention to it either..yeah but did learn a thing or 2 i guess..=x
We ate at the staff cafeteria and it was really exp..I had chicken chop and a cup of lime juice and tat cost me a nice $5.90 le..Your normal 2 meat and 1 veg wif rice is abt $4++..Anyway we ate ter cos yy wanted to participate in some competition, we had fill in quite a lot le..Hopefully we win sia..LOLx..The price is a soccer balll..haha..
Yesterday, a very nice lady actually gave us a huge potion of spag and rice wif all the extra ingredients.It was her suggestion that we 3 share the food..Almost couldnt finish sia, but lucky i had a huge appeitite..
It tastes just as unappealing as it look..=x
Im dreaming of TCC again..lolx..will be going ter for dinner wif my honey..
Tata^^
I guess i shall stop being stupid..It just no use, i m still stickin to wat i have always believe that if u love someone, you should always set them free..Just that i got this feeling, you will not come back anymore..=x
Haiz.
I was so happy yesterday to see you yet heart broken by the msg ur action tells me..But nonetheless, i nvr regret mustering the courage to meet u..
Just that i dunno why i can nvr find the courage to go on and end up ruining everything between us and not to mention making a big fool out of myself..=(
So mayb it has always been better that i should just move on..Fighting just sux..At least now i learnt nvr to put down someone who could fight for another person..It tough cos it very painful process..Which i can nvr nvr do..
I din sleep properly and only got a short nap of 1 hr..I tot i could faint this morning..Omg i think Carol kinda knew it but she din comment..I cant help it ok..i was so shack that i din even noe i was actually dozing off..It was terrible..
I am going to sleep early tonite..It boring to maple alone..Anyway Baby camel is lvl 36..Wait for her to reach 40 where she can wear her new hat and clothes..^^
In anticipatory of a better day wif you..=x
P.S:When i told those pics, i tot it looks nice..But after looking at it a few times, i start to find tat they look uglier and uglier..I dunno if it cos im depress or maybe my editing skill sux..But anyway tell me how can a sad person look pretty..?I will be looking very suckified in pics for a while i guess..=/
Wat a ger to do? =x
Im hopeless
In
LOVE.
Im feeling carefree..+)
I will tell you why later..But here the updates for yesterday..
*warning: LONG POST!
After the boring long lectures, we all went to change and doll ourselves up as well..And den we all head down to orchard.Couldnt decide where we should eat at, so we settle at coffeebean.I got myself a tiramisu and The Ultimate..Was feeling a little crazy, always like this when i drink coffee..Haha.
And den we all went Kino to shop for books! I did had the feeling that soon enough i will start the habit of reading too..LOLx.Did thought of it but i still cant convince myself that books are worth buying for..I mean u got the lib u noe..So yeah we spent at least an hr ter and boy, xy was the first person i ever went shopping for books and bought books worth of $200+..-.-!
Well, i did buy myself a sudoku MENSA book...=)
Ok so we all book a taxi to go down to clarke quay or isit boat quay..ahh watever..wat the diff i mean??Gosh it just impossible to get a cab at taka unless u dun mind waiting..lolx
We finally found the tcc but it a very small outlet..
Anyway we decide to share or else our little stomach wun have any space for the steamboat later...So it was tea wif many little conversations..Wat a great day, i love doing this..Slacking and eating at a cafe..=)
Some insight of our yummy food..
Mushroom bites..
Beef Mozza Tofu.
Sea of Gold
-Thirst Quencher-
And their plates have really cute prints..
I was telling them abt photography..lolx and manage to show them some of my skills..Haha and xy was camera shy but just look i can make her look like a superstar..hehe..^^
XY THE SUPERSTAR!!
I really like this pic..=)
YY one wasnt that bad as well..
Nice and sweet.
In painful memory of the nice hairdo SITI did for her..lolx
Bored.lolx
Actually not really bored more like tired..lolx.Anyway i tried to attempt my Mensa book first puzzle....and @$%#, bloody hard la..Imagine it suppose to be the easiest le but i still cant solve it..omg!
I must ask Charlene to come and help me..lolx.Miss her alot lo..LOLx
Anyway before we went to Marina, yy say we should take pics at the toilet outside...!!!!
I din rem the toilet being super nice or something den when i got ter..-.-!
I think it was crazy yy idea..Anyway you can chose to laugh or say it nice..I have no comments..
THE FEMALE VERSION!!!
THE MALE VERSION!!!
Den i was crazy too..
i still think yy one looks better..=/
We went down to meet Serene and her bf, Vino and this another ger call cai ming (hope it spell correctly)Hmm we ate at chomp pang..I ate quietly most of the time cos i was so engross wif my food and yy also very nice to keep getting food on my plate..^^
Anyway serene and bf went to join their secondary sch frens and my nice honey came to find me also..^^
A pic together..
Thank God or should i say Thanks honey for coming down to accompany me, watch me grumble, nag and lend me a tissue and stay up wif me to sing at party world..=D
Love ya darling ger..*muackz*
Tru` the singing out of my heart, some songs bought me to a certain level of enlightenment..And for now i have come to terms wif everything..I cant say i am completely gone, i still need a wee bit of time but i am more or less recover..
i learnt abt hatred last night..Much as i want to hate him bcos i feel like the biggest fool being played out..I noe that it just impossible to..Why?Cos the things he ever done for me is way more den anyone has done for me..Without him, i nvr knew wat is it like to feel like a princess, never knew wat is letting go like, never knew wat it means by love is courageous and love never dies...
He tries his every best to meet my every whim and needs, He sang me my fav song "tong hua" although he hates to sing..He show me wat chasing a dream is like and best of all, he taught me the meaning of self, he make me learn how to express my thoughts and be firm knowing how wishy washy i can be..I can just go on and on abt the countless lesson he brings in to my life..Every time he makes me do something i hate or dislike, i dun like it but i noe somehow it essential..
He has been a great fren, a great lover and someone i have always admire but sadly not treasured..I wish den i had..But it too late isnt it.Just for once in this life, i learnt that it is true that why isit only when someone else is gone den do we noe the true meaning of treasuring someone and worst of all how much that person has always means to u..I use to think that if i din treasure someone is most probably that he not meant to be in my life and should nvr waste my time on..Now i still wish i can take back everything i say and treasure the moment u were ter..You r special and u noe it..
I have miss the train..But my life isnt over yet, i can chose to wait for the next train or simply not take the train at all..But for now, i think i am doing anything now to stay out of love..Kinda love being free..Being wif xy and yy, they make me realise the many exciting things i could possibly do when im single..haha..
So i guess i dun want to hate him, i just want to forgive and maybe not forget..
He has been nice and understanding, but i hope that it not cos of me again that we cannot continue to be frens..=(
I feel bad and somehow lousy for not doing many things for him, so i got a very crazy idea..Will tell u later..^^
Tata.
Things din get better..:(
Only someone who share a very similiar feelings, experience as me msg me today, other den tat,it din ring at all..No msg nor call from XXXXX..Apologises to that person, i really cant help much cos i am just as lost as u..
The heart is a fragile thing, even if u dunno how breaking someone heart is like, ter one thing u will noe and that is how a heart break feels like..Sitting here, i cant help feeling like it is all my fault and retribution that im hurting here and yet tru the pain, i find crazy ideas to fight..
So maybe im stuborn, im scared of rejection but thinking of how the countless times he put down those pain in his heart, his ego and his sincere efforts..i feel so ashamed..How is it that his love was so courageous and mine a coward..?
I still dunno wat im waiting for...
Im somehow relieved i got all my paperwork handed up so that i dun feel like i owe any of the big shot any thing..errr except my diploma cert..haha..someone remind me on monday pls...
Today was a rather light day, Carol gave us a long orientation of the polices and guidelines..Which make me think why cant she print out those things..
After lunch, we got a sad news..Xinyi was once again separate from us..Arrghh why must this always happen?Anyway she going BOT...the OT that i dreaded to go the most..Haiz to think i was looking forward to working wif her but now the future just seem dimmer..
I am starting to hate this whole organisation thing..I dunno wat next..Something happier and nicer please...
Once again, my whole world is dark again..Im back to square one, nothing change only for the fact i had my sweet frens ter wif me..
Somehow, i feel happy every morning cos i noe i got xy and yy to talk to every morning..and hell lots of craps we talk abt..and this is enough to make me smile..=))
I'll miss you.. :(
SGH MOT NURSES
YY, left you and me le..=((
Arggh, i cannot go in to maple..Sian..A fren was just talking to me and he left me a beautiful quote that i would like to share it wif everyone..
"很多事情，错过了就没有了，错过了就是会变的，缘份也是..."
"hen duo shi jing, cuo guo le jiu mei you le, cuo guo le jiu shi hui bian de,yuan fen ye shi..."
Feeling moody..back off..tsk tsk
hmm, remembering once a rather good looking fren who has the look of a playboy (tat is definately stereotyping on my part..haha) told me that in the game of love, it is all fair..
Me (thinking): Hmm, i wonder how many xiao mei mei he cheated on..=x
Me: Hey looking at u, i bet u must be a big flirt right?SO be honest, how many gers have u played out..
Fren looking shock and den burst out laughing..
Fren: Me? Where got..?Okok, to be frank initially i was...
Fren (looking serious now) : But after tat i realise no use...I believe in retribution, today u cheat and betray someone who love u, tmr the one u love will do the same to u........
Get my meaning?I mean it true u noe..I had a exbf who cheated on me to get wif my best fren sis, after tat he was dumped almost in the same way he dumped me..Bastard rite..?I seriously hope all bastards and jerks out ter get this too..
I had a few other eg but i think it not nice listing, some of us who has been out of love so many times will understand this, sometimes being wif a person and giving him/her false hopes is also a way of cheating cos very simply u lied that u loved..
I admit im not perfect, like wise i played guys, guys played me the same way too..sometimes even worst..So ever since i learnt this, i never play guys the same way again, they r human too rite no matter how idiotic they are mostly..Is like the saying goes, wat u do to others is wat u want them to undo onto u..So if u treat them wif respect and love, likely u will be treated the same way too..^^
Eh of cos every r/s still has the right to fail, remember if u had to be wif a person is only bcos u truely want to and not bcos of other stupid reasons, if it is..you have lied and cheated..And if u have to reject, reject in the kindest way possible, unless you have to be cruel in order to be kind..
So even if a r/s ends, ur conscious has to be clear although it is inevitable that the other party will be hurt..
So now here again, im feeling blueee, its bcos of retribution..And ter nothin i can do..can i? =xx
Haiz..
I dread tmr, It back to tat OT again..And ter is like many things i got to do..Arrggh.
Well, the past 2 days have been fine...Wasnt even paying much attention to today's lectures..
Wat Living wif 5Cs like?? Mayb i should start living wif 5Cs starting from tmr..!!!LOLx..
=((
Feeling Tired, sad and very much in pain..><
Today is orientation in the OT, oh how the bad memories came back..Haiz..I really still wanna be a ward nurse..=((
How can i forget i got to come earlier cos we have to change and get better shoes..But i was late cos i couldnt find my bus card and had to spend time buying the mrt card and so i miss the usual train...argghh..
So i reach at abt 7.50..Rush like mad and found that i forgot how to wear the OT attire..was so pai seh lo..Haaha, got to ask this ger and she has to help me..I tot xy and yy din wait for me so i din noe where to run to until i heard xy shouting my name and quickly found myself walking to the area where pple wear their 'clean' shoes..They were so sweet, they found me a nice fitting shoes..
Went up and wear a green nice cap not like the kind i wear when i was a student..Orientation was pretty ok cos the CI Carol was really humorous, so though i do yawn occasionally at least i dun doze off..Anyway the only discomfort i had was that i feel dehydrated and hungry..
And although tea break is 30 min and lunch break is 1 hr, i still dun find the time sufficient enough to buy a proper meal to eat..cos imagine having to change out of the ot attire, buy food le, wear back ot attire by den left how much time only..Somemore i m such a slow eater..=x
I can imagine wat life gonna be for me in future le..Mayb i should get a bf who can drive me in the morning to buy food and den fetch me to work...haha,Okay i can dream on..
Saw michelle at the recovery area but she din see us..=(
The whole day was spent touring the Ot area..Quite alot of things to rem and learn..How much all of us actually rem i dun think alot ba..
Last of all a ugly pic of me in that greeny cap and a oversize ot gown..
=x
yeppy yep, graduation is finally over..I din take any pics wif anyone..Oh well...
in the end quite alot of pple din turn up and ter wasnt any chance to take pic wif some of my fren..=(
Haha but i did take a pic of myself..=p
keke, i had a funny idea to look really smart looking...so yeah that how this pic come abt..Hope it doesnt make anyone laugh so hard..=/
Dun i look intelligent??
Anyway here goes a day when i actually shake one of those big shot guy hand and took my cert...Quite fun actually i really dun mind rehearsing one more time..haha..kayz, im crazy...
Feel really shacked but my love for maple keeping me awake..Oh my BabyCamel has been traveling from oyssria to Ludi now..The monsters ter are really cute looking but how i hate the stupid tower.. So troublesome sia and the quest are neverending.
Tmr we will be going to the ot, hope it be a good day.. =))
Tmr is graduation..i cant wait..seriously cant wait for it to be over..=.=!
Nothing much just that i have been feeling rather down recently, many things i guess..I got to thank my darlings for being wif me and hearin all my craps..=(
Oh well, right now i just want to surrender to fate..
Here a song to remember the time i had in the holiday...and to thank a certain someone for being ter to brighten up my holiday..
Close your eyes
So you dont feel them
They dont need
To see you cry
You cant promise you will heal me
But if i want to you will try
To sing this summer serenade
The past is done
We ve been betrayed
Its true
Some might say
The truth will out
But I believe without
A doubt in you
You were there
For summer dreaming
And you gave me
What I need
And I hope you
Find your freedom
For eternity
For eternity
Yesterday when
We were walking
I talked about
My ma and dad
What they did that
Made me happy
What they did that
Made me sad
We sat and watched
The sun go down
Then picked a star
Before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know its come
And gone too soon
You were there
For summer dreaming
And you are A friend indeed
And I hope you
Find your freedom
Eventually..For eternity
*editedAnyway lets not forget something..It Father's Day today..
An old pic ^^
*cheers
*TO XY AND YY, pls dun kill me for putting ur pics..
Im not gonna thank God that it friday, cos tmr i still has lessons..Arggh.
But thank God it only until 12..
Omg i can feel i growing fatter, really way fatter..i haven really put on weight during the holidays but during the orientation, i think i going to put on 5 pound or something..Cos i keep eating..It so boring, the only thing we can do is talk, eat, slp or draw unless u want to listen to the lectures..Someone stop me from eating too much pls....=((
Our silly drawings..And not only did the eating craze kick in..I have been sleeping really early tooo, like as early as 8 plus..Haha.Im crazy alrdy..
Anyway here a short update on the week..
MondayI wore my short uniform(dress) and thought my uniform was tailored too short or something, in the train, i saw a sister whose uniform is as short as me..Whao..Den i met the rest at the pathto and xy uniform was als0 just as short..so much abt being paranoid..
i dunno why i had so much to gossip wif xy and yy..haha..
Caught ya sleeping on camera..!!*Haha
TuesdayKkh student joining us for lecture and it was really hot in the beginning and really cramp..Lobster was ter too, was a little caught in between, cos i also want to sit wif xy and yy..
In the end, i manage to sit wif her..Xy intro us to oat milk, it really nice, give me the feeling of being a baby..haha..
Pretty YY! WednesdayI saw Gen..Almost forgot she was frm kkh too..Boring lect abt diabetes and later was a test which i think i gonna fail..Oh well=/
Saw Sn chang and En n frm wd 58..heee feeling excited..
A after-lunch pic.
Xy look so cute..^^ThursdayGot a short new that we may not go back to ward 58, haiz, they will trying to push many student to MOT.What the hell right?Haiz, was wishing for a miracle..Anyway
Congrats to Shawn, he finally pass his bike test..TodayI had a total of 10hr sleep and so today i din nap at all...*
applause*Stupid talk abt pain management end abt 5..
And so the result is out...I m posted in MOT!
Omg.. WHY??
They stated some reason abt some of us din make good choices or something..but hell i diin make bad choices..Oh no, wat am i suppose to imagine abt life in MOT now..
I see my future being bleak now..So much for my happy ending..=((
The only only good and bright thing for me now is that im not alone..Xy and YY is wif me too..
But haiz, wat am i suppose to do in the future..i really dunno..
Here a song i have been listening during my ride home, it lyric sound so wrong just like wat im feeling, so wronged..
Walk in a corner shop
See a shoplifting cop
See the old lady with a gun
See the hero try 2 run
Nothing's what it seems,
I mean It's not all dirty,
but it's not all clean
There's children paying bills
There's monks buying thrills
There's pride for sale in magazines
There's pills for rent 2 make u clean
Marvin Gaye, there's no brother, brother
Woody Guthrie's land can't feed Mother
[CHORUS]
Mothers weep, children sleep
So much violence ends in silence
It's a shame there's no one 2 blame
For all the pain that life brings
If u will just take me
It might just complete me
And together we can make a stand
A waitress brings me lunch
We meet but do not touch
On TV, D.C. is selling lies
While in the corner, King's dream dies
Go 2 the counter, pay for me and my friend
A homeless man pulls out a roll, says it's on him
The mayor has no cash
He said he spent it on hookers and hash
So ironic but this is life i guess..=(
In reply to Vino tag..YES, i noe i noe it real soon..it tmr!!!! ><
How time flies, in a blink blink and the holiday are gone..Oh god wat have i done...?
I want to thank God and thank fate for allowin us gers to have a final union meeting before each of us begins our bz journey into the working life..I did wanted to plan but cos laziness has been getting to me so i din plan in the end..=/
Okayz , this is wat happen, i was dying of boredom on sat morning and only manage to get lena out only in the day, she suppose accompany me to shop for my hair accessories and boy, i bought 2 hair bands..NUtty me! Yeah anyway i wanted to meet shawn in the evening and Lena is meeting John so we all came to a decision to watch movie at bishan instead..In the end, both guys came late.. But blessing in disguise,John bump into
QIN AND IVAN while on da way to find us..So we all had dinner together and later even went to the arcade to play..Tell me when was the last time we gers had so much fun together?
But sadly some dishonest bastard took Qin phone..gosh, remind me to update her my number tmr..
In the end me and Shawn caught
THE CARS at 1140..It was a nice movie but i not so much into cartoons but anyway it great u all should catch it too..I still haven watch my XMEN..=((
If anyone of u haven caught tat show or intending to re watch it...PLS PLS ask me along ok?=p
Haiz, i doubt i have time...I hope i do..Haha..Okays enough of the grumbling, i took some great pics of us yesterday and now i gonna frame it here BIG enough for all to see..Haha..again pls pardon my lousy editing skill..
Tell me, the first one or the second one nicer??
Our version of S.H.E
SELINA, HEBE, ELLA.
Okay la just some crazy tots of mine..Haha.
Ghosty?Haunting? scary?Looks like nvr sleep in 4 days?
PLS TELL ME..haha..
Someone say seducing..
Okays i m truely crazy, come to think of it this will most probably be my last batch of nice pics..I dunno when the next time i take nice shots..Im just thinking maybe when i more bo liao i take pic of my sgh greeny uniform and show u all how i look like a vegetable in it..haha..see how..
Ah, hafta go bathe before the visitors start piling in and see the stinko ugly me..^-^
Im feeling hungry and very shacked. Haiya, my hse isnt good for sleeping in the day time, not especially when there are visitors..Imagine a zombie typing this post now..hmm..
Credits to Charlene, who did my hair and eye..
Last nite clubbing was really fun, to think that time in feb i was cursing and swearing abt not clubbing at MOS or wif Qin again and tat ivan's fren, i did..Except tat tis time it was good.Cos i dun have to be bothered wif tat fren of Ivan..Seriously i did purposely avoid MOS big time after tat incident..Oh wells.
I dunno why i had the urge to accompany Qin this time for clubbing, mayb cos she dun club much and beside she is going wif her pri sch frens..You noe the kind of gathering, her pri frens are nice pple.Sorry, i dun rem names well, i only rem the ger call Janice, the ger who organise this outing btw..And ter were this 4 other guys and Janice fren..
..Oh yeah, did i tell u how i tot the taxi driver looks like Terrence's dad,kind of freaks me out u noe but who cares right cos i dun think uncle recognise me at all..hahah. Okay back to the topic, im suppose to reach ter before 1030 to get 12 buck for entry, Qin and ivan came way later..i have to go entertain myself as i was alone, so i walk around and saw many interesting things..
There were like many posh resturant,ME, however being the greediest pig on earth started fantasizing abt making big bucks so that in future me and my family can feast on any of this posh places at any time..hahah.Den again i tot, the place look nice but wat if the food not tat great leh?Argghh *shake away the thought*
I walk and walk and swear to myself someday i have to go inside this museum to have a look, hehe, goldfish memory so i couldnt rem the name of the museum..And den i came to this really beautiful place..It totally whao me..
Pic abit crooked..But nice right?
I love the blue part..
Walking on a twilight zone.
And around were all this nice sparkling lights.
Mos pretty happening,i met Mr Jon (again) and my first exbf..haha..Looking at him den makes me wonder how i could be so crazy abt him in the past,omg..Now this kind of guy no longer interest me..I like gentleman now..=)
But nevertheless, he still caught my attention somehow, even though he grew fatter, he still very charismatic..
The gers in MOS very friendly? I think so, haha, ter were many times when Ivan or Qin tot tat the gers who held my hand or hug me or wave at me are my frens.Okay, i gonna say this again but tat cos i cant get it out of my mind..I was at the dance floor when i suddenly felt someone hug me very tightly from the back and even purposely touch me in a very seducive way..Omg, i tot it was a drunk guy and quickly turn behind to see a really chio ger..Haha, i smile at her and den her bf ask her to move, den she held my hand really tight and reckoning me to go wif her..Her bf and Qin was stunned..Anyway a pity, i let go of her hand and wave the goodbye sign..Haha and den she wink at me and give the thumbs up signal..after she left, i regretted not getting to noe her...haha..
The songs however are still not tat nice and the crowd still as terrible.. I however stll love the toilet..Big and spacious!
At abt 3, we went MOMO, i had michael to sign me and Qin in and Qin fren sign Ivan and frens in..Thumbs up for MOMO..haha...
I club til 5 am sia..Suppose to go breakfast wif Shawn at 7 am but he was late in getting back to me and i overslept..*HUNGRY*
Back to mapling!!
Last nite, i went st 22 to have supper and on the way, me and shawn went to buy the cash card.
So now, i got a pet!! It is a pig and i call it
Piggy XD.
While he call his pet Dino,
SpikePiggy is just so cute, i love the way he runs after me..Haha.
.
Sometimes it is obedient, when its not...
It get defiant..Wat a pig..Eat alot too..hahah.
Oh and shawn's Dino,
Spike is very cheeky..
Haha, There is more but im lazy...=(
