God..pls i beg of u..dun let fate be so cruel to me..
i really want to be happy
i really want to move on..but y still i can;t..i feel weak at the sight of him..it really killing me..
I really want to be friends wif him..but i can;t seem to..
i noe i got to be strong..but i dunno y everything collapse at the sight of him..
I was wif eddy telling him abt life..and i thought i was strong..Den when i saw him..everything is taken away..
i can;t even smile without feeling the stab in my heart..was even shivering..
I dunno..i felt scared of u..Neva experience anything like this before
just the sight of you and ur smile make myself blow apart..
pls God..help me..Maybe u wanted to show me tat i was just deceiving myself..
You noe i finally understand y i could move on from the messs i left wif maurice..cos i neva got to see him..
and maybe cos of this distance..i could move on..
Sad..so i'm deceiving myself all this while yeah
God BLess Me!!