Things hasn't been going well..
But out in the darkness, ter r little lamps out ter too..
First i fail my clinical practical-injection
I dunno y but tat freaking woman always pick on me, but well can't blame her either..
Was like abit stoned tat morning and make a mistake so careless tat i feel like rewind back time and redo it..
Okie..so now i got this white paper tat say REPEAT..

wateva..Life was really screw..And i'm just a ger..a human..
No matter how strong i wanna be..i can't help it but break down..
and so i started tearing and the streams just got stronger den i had to really bend my head so low..
And den peter saw me..haiz..i was too sad to bother who saw me at this moment..
He msg me asking me y i look so sad..and i almost swear i could just break down.

i msg jing, decided to go his house..Cos i really needed someone..Qin din even reply my msg like she neva saw it..
So i figure i can't cry in the bus, got a cab..
Den dunno y when tat uncle started speaking he remind me so much of anthony..haha dunno y..
Nice man i must say, he asked me y i was sad..And i dunno y but dun like pple asking me if i'm sad cos it makes me wanna cry more and louder..
He told me an whole lot of story of himself, make me realise alot of things..
It makes me realise that ter are pple whose life may be more screw up den mine..But yet life still continues for them..i gotta be strong..shouldn't be upset just bcos i keep flunking everything..
yeah..dunno if he is someone tat GOD send to talk to me..but well he was really nice..to waste his time just to knock some sense into me..
Though i noe ya will neva read this but thanks a million..wat a nice man, hope GoD bLesS hIm..

i felt much betta, tat when i got to his house suddenly dun feel like crying already..
yeah den Jing very sweet accompany me go dental..
i went abt 3 though my appointment is like 1030..got a little scolding..
Jing, i love ya..ya still add lights to my life when it so dark..
i finally understood how i could move on so bravely tru those yrs..
haiz, got donation ticket to sell..any nice souls out ter help me buy..
Dunno y bad luck is wif me now..i only hope it can go away..
But now gotta starts studying, i'm so in deep shit already..
God bless me..

ming ming hen ai ni (actually really love ya)..yeah
dunno y..something seem broken..
And yeah still de same..
Neva givin me more..
haiz..=(
tell me i'm thinking too much..