I met him today.Nothing happens..It was like a meeting when u meet someone for the first time..There were alot of awkward silence.I wondered alot of things and how it hurts when u cant express them out just cos it isnt right..
Yeah it isnt right.Even writing this down to you here isnt right either.But i will go on cos if he ever see this, i noe tat i have got my message across..cos i'm a coward, i dunno how to tell him i still love him..Den watever happens after tat, just let it happen.
You see, i wonder if meeting him ever again is something tat i should do..Cos clearly as it seem, i cannot move on..I can keep all the mushy thoughts and msgs to myself and he would have think tat i'm fine out ter..But if he read this, he will noe it something else..And den i dunno how he will react..Sigh.
Just the other day, i lie in my bed and dream abt him and started counting the number of ways i miss abt him and realise i miss everything abt him..The only thing tat get me tru a lousy day,tat makes me smile and cries is him.Nothing else matters even if someone were to give me one million dollars..i wouldnt even be happy.
As u alrdy noe, my another exbf is chasing madly after me, i starting to realise he really could do anything just to get me back and i feel so touch yet sad cos even though at times i feel like i could safely put myself wif him and just forget everything else, i just cant seem to do tat.
And somehow it seem to me, i cannot love again..not at least until i can move on..Bcos when i want to fall in love again, i'm reminded of him and how the person in front of me feels wrong..
Like i say everything seem wrong..I dunno my life has alrdy got cold.I only can promise i wun pester him or try to get him back..
i'll just wait for the good lord to make me feel better.
Thanks for listening to the confession of an silent unrequited love..
From a broken heart ger.
P.S: If you read this, just pretend u din..
