Only someone who share a very similiar feelings, experience as me msg me today, other den tat,it din ring at all..No msg nor call from XXXXX..Apologises to that person, i really cant help much cos i am just as lost as u..
The heart is a fragile thing, even if u dunno how breaking someone heart is like, ter one thing u will noe and that is how a heart break feels like..Sitting here, i cant help feeling like it is all my fault and retribution that im hurting here and yet tru the pain, i find crazy ideas to fight..
So maybe im stuborn, im scared of rejection but thinking of how the countless times he put down those pain in his heart, his ego and his sincere efforts..i feel so ashamed..How is it that his love was so courageous and mine a coward..?
I still dunno wat im waiting for...
Im somehow relieved i got all my paperwork handed up so that i dun feel like i owe any of the big shot any thing..errr except my diploma cert..haha..someone remind me on monday pls...
Today was a rather light day, Carol gave us a long orientation of the polices and guidelines..Which make me think why cant she print out those things..
After lunch, we got a sad news..Xinyi was once again separate from us..Arrghh why must this always happen?Anyway she going BOT...the OT that i dreaded to go the most..Haiz to think i was looking forward to working wif her but now the future just seem dimmer..
I am starting to hate this whole organisation thing..I dunno wat next..Something happier and nicer please...
Once again, my whole world is dark again..Im back to square one, nothing change only for the fact i had my sweet frens ter wif me..
Somehow, i feel happy every morning cos i noe i got xy and yy to talk to every morning..and hell lots of craps we talk abt..and this is enough to make me smile..=))
I'll miss you.. :(
SGH MOT NURSES
YY, left you and me le..=((
Arggh, i cannot go in to maple..Sian..A fren was just talking to me and he left me a beautiful quote that i would like to share it wif everyone..
"很多事情，错过了就没有了，错过了就是会变的，缘份也是..."
"hen duo shi jing, cuo guo le jiu mei you le, cuo guo le jiu shi hui bian de,yuan fen ye shi..."
