Well, i like! Funny how i never really like soft toys,even as a little ger, i never took fancy to all ur teddy bears and soft toy animals..But just like all the little gers, i love dolls.But not all kinds of dolls, i love dressing my barbie dolls but i especially love the bigger dolls, the kind where u can carry them as if they were ur baby..
I know as a young ger den, i was the same old Jazzy that believes in spiritual existance, i rem believing my doll has a life of it own, not that it actually talk or smile or wink at me but i remember sometimes when i hold it, i could feel its existance wif me and as eerie as it is, i feel warm and safe..
I think alot of gers would have felt that way too or in some way or another have a strange faith that their doll have soul..Or maybe it just some childhood fantasy..You know how wild little kids imgination could be at times..
Haha, if u still hasnt got it, i have been watching The DoLL Master.
She the doll master!
The show was touching although a little absurd at some point..I like the dolls.They are...i dunno what word to describe them..But after watching that show, it somehow evoke that interest in me again and of cos bring back memories of me and my dolls..I still wonder wat happen to them..Cant rem if im the one who disown them or my parents threw them away..
The actress, Im Eun-kyung, was really doll-liked..She has this really nice eyes too..Omg im so in love wif her face.. She is the only thing that i like in the whole show..whaha..
Mina (Im Eun-kyung) looks like a crying doll!
You kill that doll, you kill her..
Dump by her owner. =(
Today is the last day where we can slack abt, where i can practice my sudoku le..Soon is gonna be nothing but stress..Haiz.
Anyway, i have been thinking alot since that day, found myself going rounds in my circle of thoughts..And i realise one thing, it isnt so bad after all..Dunno, somehow now everything seem like a blessing in disguise..Life is starting to feel better and better..I dunno if me and him still can be frens or not and it still sadden me at the thought that we might just disappear totally from each other life but i'm truely helpless if fate really want it like tat..Although some believe that fate lies in our own hands, but i need time now away to heal myself and for him, mayb he just being understanding by giving that space to me but alas so much so that he seem like he really avoiding me..So i really dunno wat i should have done..
Anyway on the brighter side, im freed..It feels so good when u dun have to think of another person, wonder wat he doing la, whether he eating well and stuff like tat..Although the feeling of missing someone feels good as well.It nice to not always stick to one person i guess..haha the freedom of flirting..LOLx.Not that i m going ard to flirt but whenever im attached, i really restrict myself alot..So now i had all the freedom to go out wif diff guys..haha..
I truely enjoy the art of slacking wif my guy frens now so yeah feel really free and happy..like a bird?Yep! XD
Anyway i just got to know this self proclaimed ah-beng guy, a campmate of leech.He introduce to me bcos i said i wanted to have a hell ride on a bike..His was super4, not a big shot bike but it the thoughts that counts rite?Yeah anyway this nice ah beng bought me on a ride to town and tour one round and den back to the express way..For the first time, i feel wat is it like to be travelling at 12o..It just really good enough for me..The wind seem to blow at my bleeding wound..After the ride, i felt so much better..=p
Thanks to Mr Ah beng. *lolz*
Tmr we going tian xia di yi to eat..haha.yummy!!
Good nite!
