Im still feeling it.im feeling it everyday since i dunno when.
I guess it really me, not anyone else..

Yesterday Mich ask me something tat makes me feel so lousy?Not his fault, but it gave me a chance to grumble and really question..Im glad i got a fren tat listen the way i want him to..
Although he listen, he sympatize, but i still dun feel better.Cos i want to do something abt this stigma.

I dunno ba, while i was just thinking wat i should do, i only came to a conclusion tat usually pple just criticise, put u down and tell u tat u got something wrong but they nvr really tell u wat u should do.

You see the problem is tat if it was something intentional, it would be easy to stop doing it.But wat if it was inborn in u? Wat if it was like a habit..?

Habits and inborn characters are the hardest to change.

I guess i m gonna have a hard life until the day i change..

I keep feeling lousy cos i keep seeing all my shortcomings, everything bad..Im not depressed, just worried that it will bring me down one day especially in my work.

I hope God will guide me tru everything, teach me the rights and wrongs..What i should have done and avoid doing.

I dunno i know it no use to sit here, think and pity myself just bcos im like tat..I just hope pple understand im trying my best.. I understand tat it was only bcos they care enough but i also care enough to really try.

It just feel like tat ter is very little pple i could comfortably be wif where i could be myself and not feel so down bcos they could accept the way i am..

I need to find myself i guess.=/

God Bless the lost sheep.