Yr 2006 have been a pretty bad yr for me..

I keep losing pple that i dun treasure but yet they mean alot to me..

AFter i lost shawn, i learn the lesson of treasuring someone..

And there was my grandma, i admit i din do much for her, nvr spent time wif her during the remaining days..

Arrgh it stupid to be talking abt it now..But anyway, i realise im a runner..I dun let things hurt me for long..So i will keep running away..Trying to forget how and why it hurts..
So i run and run away from the reality that it matter to me...even after her death, im still runnin..

Only once in a while i do remember that this pple who meant alot to me actually do exist i n me..

Now they r gone, doesnt matter anymore..Right now is my grandpa..

He is the man who took care of me and jess..He dotes alot on us and we do feel protected from my uncle (who discipline us alot)..But somehow i dun rem talking or interacting much wif him..
And den in pri 4, when my dad decided me and jess have to be independent and go home alone, he wasnt so please so he gave himself a responsibility of fetching us home..

I din like the idea even though he gave me and jess alot of freedom and would wait for hrs before we decided to really go home..

And mind you, he lives in bedok..Have to come all the way down to toa payoh, fetch me and jess home and den back to bedok again..(is not near lo)

Anyway, as i grow up we only meet about 5 times in a yr..very little i know..Now i think back, i think so too..Haiz
When he started to behave weirdly, i wasnt there..Even after he was confirmed of having dementia, i still wasnt ter..

But i felt something everytime i see him..Each time i see him, his condition seem to deteroirate bit by bit...
To me, i din want to feel a single thing..probably running away again..

I wish back den before he completely forgot who i m, i did something just something..=x

Just on sunday, i made a plan wif nana that we would go to my granny hse to see him (today)..
But yesterday nite while i was happily eating ben and jerry wif yy and cl..Mom called wif a bad new..

I went home and tried to do a research, only could come out wif a few not very good possiblity..haiz..

May God bless him..

Im so prepared for the worst but wouldn mind for a miracle like he waking up to acknowledge us once again..

Before i forgot..Happy birthday to daddy!!=D