My day was still quite as depressing.But not so bcos i force myself not to..=((

I dun really know wat wrong or why im feeling so sad..I search for a reason and found one really logical one and another that has no link..

So here my reasons:

I think im depress bcos,

1)HE doesnt gave a damn to the way i feel (i just realise)..sorry but fcuk those foolish games..

2)SHE is always on my mind, thats something i cant explain..

3) Along wif the second reason, i got a feeling, im hiding my feelings that why im feeling terrible..Arggh..

4)It the same love triangle 2 yr back. except wif a slightly different player..=((

5)I really dun like the way i treat her..(is tat guilt?) but hey im not feeling good either..=/

Somehow i feel better typing this mess out..

A few conclusions i came out wif:

1) I guess i just want a lover i dont have to love..=/ (in other words i just want someone to love me)

2)Or maybe im sick of always ter...

3)I just want her!But i have no choice but to go..

In any ways, im addicted to this song: WAY BACK INTO LOVE.

Dedicated by her..

Everytime i hear this song,memories flood my mind..She really sweet, nice and all..I dun really understand why i have to give her up..Suddenly nothing make sense at all..

Im never a lesbian i guess.Just probably have an admiration for some gers..

Haiz.

I need more time..Probably a trip to church to seek forgiveness for the things i have done..

Whatever it is..I dun feel good and i think i really wanna meet up wif her again..

Missing her..=((