Im counting down to 107 days left!

I feel better when im counting, when i know i have everything under my control although most of the time i dun really care abt things. Yeah i realise that is my problem..=(

There are a few things i really wanna change but easier to say.

Tmr im 3/11 again.I hope everything will goes well for her tmr. Injustice? Not really, just self centeredness. I remember a fortune teller aka name analyst told me once i should have a religion, something to believe in and den maybe i dun feel so lost. But look at those who have a religion, are they really some where? Maybe they might have a path, more confidence den me but in their heart, they dun have a conscience. Do they when they discriminate? Or in their religion, discriminating is not a sin?

Probably. I dunno.

Whatever God please bless them.Hope one day they will be enlightened.

So dun come tell me u r worship something and i dun...Like u r holier? NO! If i had a GOD, i will be more committed den you.I will understand what is it like not to bully, not to discriminate, not to backstab, not to be a lousy hypocrite.

Something must teach this pple. They say what comes around goes around.this sound fair but in reality not everything comes and den goes around.

Yeah im angry!

Cos try as i might not to take her words when she told me why ' most of them are true christian but yet the things they do are so ....' I realise it damn true.Not i really care if they are a true devoted christian but its disturbing to know how some pple dun do what they preach..

Im angry also cos i have been losing every battle i played! =(

Baby say i din play too bad but i noe he means i din play well either. Nvm just playing for fun!

Today is just shocking to know wat happened.Probably its a blessing in disguise i dunno.But i cannot worry for her, i got myself to worry for.In any way, im in a worst situation den her.I seriously dunno how to go tru this shit.Even though i keep telling myself to be positive and take a step at a time but i dunno it scary...

=((

Hope baby will forgive me for scolding him just now and tuck me into bed again..