ITs 1.23am!

Im not even in bed yet.You know wat im thinking.

I know, I know, I know...

Im still feeling fcuking guilty.Its sticking to me like glue.Cant get it out.If she meant nothing to me, i could have just shrugged it off.Im still praying that for another 5 weeks nothing would happen. I really pray, hope and wish. God please answer my prayer..I never meant to hurt her.FCUK!!!!!!

Okays, im gonna try to sleep. Half of me is persuaded by the devil in my head, their voices so tempting, another half is fighting.My head is gonna die of explosion wif this amt of voice..=(

I cant find courage anywhere.

Hope when i wake up. Someone or something would give me the strength to go..

=(