Sigh so much things happen within this 2 days. I dunno if i should be sad, happy or relieved..?

It all happen cos of ME ME ME!

Cos of my stuuupid bad moood swing, we had a fight in the morning and i fcuk the pbf lect halfway though i kinda like the female lecturer..Sigh.

Cab home, pop 2 panadol and curdle in bed for a nap.

Cold war til i couldnt stand it anymore.Msg....wait no reply..Call..he pick up and i was still feeling sour abt everything.He say he want to come down..Okay 10 30 meet.

I idle til 1010 cos mum decides to be nice and gave up the comp to me.Call him to leave at 1030 instead and i quickly went to bath. 4 missed calls!

Call him back, the environment was DEAD Slient. His voice so soft and solemn.Something is wrong..He says wait he will be coming. I idle ard fb and decide to slowly make my way down. Play puzzle bubble and even walk up to the 3rd blk so that i can surprise him when he make a turn..No sight. Call him, he stills at home!!!

Went home, switch on the comp and back to fb..Til he finally call and ask me to open the door. He passed me my bag of dirty clothes.I switch off everything and went out of the door. He pop me 2 option.

I was seriously dead scare of wat he was going to say.Back in my mind while i was waiting i keep asking myself wat if he wants to break up..?

We sat at the void deck and talked it out. It was the second time i see him cry. And i cant help but cry too. I could sense the little tired boy in him.I was suppose to be jumpng mad that ur bro took my helmet like tat but i was surprise i din have much of a reaction..I cant bear to cos he is ur brother. I dunno wat to say abt ur mother. Yes she totally dislikes me and she hates me like i dun really noe why?

But i cant blame her can i? She has her reason but she has hurt you. That the matter of concern, i just dislike her for not caring for you just as much as u have care for her? In fact i dun even noe if she love you.Maybe she did but she just hates me.

I dunno anything, i just noe i want to be there for you from the moment i say i will stick by you. No matter how hard it is, we will face tru all this..

We will face the longer distance, the time difference and my damn studies and part time job. I hope i can stay strong for u. But at moment like this i dunno why my heart aches so much for u.Even before u left my house.

I wish i can hold u and sleep in ur arms. Maybe that the reason why im not sleeping yet.Though im really tired. Din manage to sleep much the whole nite.

Im happy that we had Ray's help or it would have been almost impossible to make it.Im happy we fixed up ur desktop on Jess table.Im happy we did clearing together..Im happy you're by my side today and you going to be wif me tmr too.:D

Im going out of my house soon hoping i can catch the meteor shower and im going to try making a wish..hopefully it will come true.=)

clouds clear for a moment at 2 please!